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[matthen]

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Welcome Amythyst

Welcome to a place of hope. I have been drunk for 45 (started VERY young) years but now have 12 days sober. I am an expert at spreading my booze buying business around town . So glad you are here, actually there is real hope here, not just the wishing kind. My very warmest regards, read these threads and post a lot. :welcome:

[Amethyst26]

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thanks to all! and yes lately it has becomne work and I am sick of it.
the drinking, smoking obessing about whether to get one more...
Waking up mad at myself and counting how many i had. I want to go AF for at least 2 weeks. I will be going on a 12 day mediterranian cruise June 25 that leaves out of Rome and I know there will belots of alcohol available there and I dont want to be out of control. I do feel less like drinking when I take the L-Glutamine. It really does help with cravings for booze and sweets/carbs. Last night I even forced my self to take my 1st drink. (sad) but this gave me some hope.
I threw out the last half of wine glass #4(little bottle) and that was it. Weekends are rough for me . My kid is away and last night I just drank out of boredom and used the it's friday had a hard day excuse. This was AFTER a 1 hour work out, sauna and steam bath (which I try to do at least 3 times a week to help with the toxins) I exercise daily, take supps and SSRI. All I need is just a little boost of motivation, which I hope to get in the next couple days. If I can go 3 days AF then I am sure I can do the 2 weeks.

[crash23]

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Hi 26--I am so sorry for what you have been going through. I could not cope with being in your position at all (as a single mom--I don't have any kids). I too have gone through and am going through the anxiety and depression. I hear your story--I go to different stores too so they won't think I'm going there too many times. The shame and guilt have been overwhelming. It has been helpful to find a non judgmental counselor who even talked to my parents to make them stop being so critical. My drinking has cost me a very good job and the respect of countless people. I also feel your lack of productivity and also bought the little bottles of wine to fool myself. I am still drinking, but feel a sense of hope that things will get better with effort and time. Please hang in there. I for one am trying to do better. Please treat yourself well--get good nutrition, exercise or do a lot of housework if possible--but above all treat yourself well. 23