Hi everyone,
I've been hanging out a bit just reading everyone's posts and gaining insight into everyone's personal stories. I read my own thoughts and experiences. "Functional" alcoholic, I guess, drink wine daily, a bottle or a little more, hold a job as a professional, active social life (although becoming less so due to AL), blah, blah, blah....... mother, wife. All looks great from the outside but I am absolutely miserable. Guilt-ridden, depressed, no energy, becoming more and more reclusive, gained about 15 lbs over the past 10 years due to AL, inactivity. Just want to come home after a 10 hour day at work and drink. I hang out on my laptop and DRINK. Lately, I've been hanging out on this site and drinking. Somehow, I feel less guilty if I'm drinking and reading about not drinking. I have read the book, have the supplements, started the topa, haven't started the CD's, just need the kick in my "large knickers" to set a start date and DO IT! Trlg is my hero. He says you just have to do it. All the other "stuff" can't help you if you don't say no.
My goal is to start on Tuesday, clean out the liquor cabinet tomorrow, start the CD's tomorrow, and get the fat arse moving (and shortly into some tiny knickers) so even if I had a boss he would WANT to shag me.
Sorry for rambling. This place will be my refuge and strength. Thanks for listening.
Bridge
I've been hanging out a bit just reading everyone's posts and gaining insight into everyone's personal stories. I read my own thoughts and experiences. "Functional" alcoholic, I guess, drink wine daily, a bottle or a little more, hold a job as a professional, active social life (although becoming less so due to AL), blah, blah, blah....... mother, wife. All looks great from the outside but I am absolutely miserable. Guilt-ridden, depressed, no energy, becoming more and more reclusive, gained about 15 lbs over the past 10 years due to AL, inactivity. Just want to come home after a 10 hour day at work and drink. I hang out on my laptop and DRINK. Lately, I've been hanging out on this site and drinking. Somehow, I feel less guilty if I'm drinking and reading about not drinking. I have read the book, have the supplements, started the topa, haven't started the CD's, just need the kick in my "large knickers" to set a start date and DO IT! Trlg is my hero. He says you just have to do it. All the other "stuff" can't help you if you don't say no.
My goal is to start on Tuesday, clean out the liquor cabinet tomorrow, start the CD's tomorrow, and get the fat arse moving (and shortly into some tiny knickers) so even if I had a boss he would WANT to shag me.
Sorry for rambling. This place will be my refuge and strength. Thanks for listening.
Bridge
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