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[angeleyes]

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Hi Margaritaville,

Yes, of course you are right about the Dr. thing, although I also have a history of migraines and am hoping the Tomomax will help with that as well (according to my research it is often prescribed for that too). I guess I am just scared to admit the truth to anyone but the people here, because here I can remain anonymous.... I will think it over while I toss and turn in bed tonight. Today is Day 2 for me, and I find if I keep really, really busy, I can get through the evening without thinking about booze too many times. How many days is it for you?

[toughintexas]

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CherBear, I'm so glad you found us! You can do this! I'm 48, and didn't start overindulging until my late 30's, and I'm a complete arse when snuckered too...I hate waking up, wondering what I did, said, didn't do, forgot, having to wonder, worry, fret, panic, and feel like such a looser...most folks here are very successful at everything in life, except beating this beast! I can promise you, you will feel sooo much better, and feel so much more in control and loved too, by yourself, which is very important, and by those around you. I have been here over a year, and I'm not perfect yet, and had a big slip lately after a long time doing well, but it was a major trigger, and next time I'll handle it better. I will give you some of my tips to help you.....
FIRST, DO SOMETHING ELSE AT 3pm!!!!!!.... Exercise is a great "upper" so try to get to a gym, or the YMCA in your area, or a park, and just walk...its amazing what a lil bit of exercise will do to boost your mood, and when you start to feel better, you just want to do better....if you aren't up to that yet, then volunteer someplace, a senior home, or shelter, or heck, go to the library, anything....sometimes I find when I focus on other people's plight, mine feels easier...you take the focus off the AL...Put your tennis shoes in front of that bottle at lunch, and reach for them first...first of all, take all the AL out of the house..if you spaz, you can always go get a little if you have too...just do anything else at the witching hour of 3pm!
Second...the supplements are really important, take 'em! The L-glut is something you need to make sure you take at 2pm, and 2:30, it will help you with the 3pm urge...your body gets used to the alcohol being converted to sugar, and its like a diabetic, your body starts to crash, and the cravings hit...you've accustomed your body to look for it for insulin. The exercise helps this too...If you don't feel relief from that, get the MetRx powered L-glut, its 4500mg. per tsp., and you can mix it with tea, juice, etc...even if you do take a drink, it won't settle as well....Also, Emergen-C powders are awesome, take a couple of those in sparkling water around noontime....
THIRD...Find substitutes for AL, I'm hooked on San Pellingrino sparkling waters, Perrier, and sparkling waters with fresh juice added, Hansen's has some good ones...just watch for the sugar...try new Tazo teas, they are great, Wild Sweet Orange is good, and the Calm one is great too....get the GABA on board everytime you feel the urge...Calms powder will help you sleep...try it! Just watch the sugar, if you can, don't eat anything white, bread, potatoes, rice, etc., if you can, it'll help curve the cravings...you'll feel so much better, the next time you crash and wake-up hungover, it'll hurt so much worse, you'll be motivated to try harder..(trust me, I know!)...
FOURTH.....change change change your routine, no matter what it takes, get outta the house from 3pm til you have to fix dinner...have fun cooking up something new...keep the sparkling water right by you...
FIFTH....congratulate yourself for every single less drink you take, if you drink less today than yesterday, or hopefully not at all, give yourself a big hug, talk yourself up, be proud of being on the way, every positive deserves notice! And don't feel bad if you aren't perfect, not a soul is....its a journey but we are here with you! You are only a failure if you quit trying!
GOOD LUCK AND PM ME ANYTIME!

[retteacher]

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Cher: I've been here since Apr. 07 & drank like you. I haven't been perfect in the year I've been here, but I've accumulated quite a few AF runs. I've finally admitted that I cannot control myself once I start drinking & am aiming for abs (one day at a time). Keep coming here & posting & reading. Mary

[toughintexas]

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Opps, I left out, and get your hormones checked! LOL Menopause seems to make this worse, and harder to do! Do the saliva tests....ZRT Laboratory ZRT labs, they are awesome, and you can't believe how much it helps! I had surgical menopause from repo. cancer, and whew....I wanted IV pinot grigio, or at the very least, the cold bottle poured over my hot flashing body! Bio-identical hormones are incredible! Read some good books, hang out at Barnes and Nobles, or Borders in the afternoon! Suzanne Somers is blonde, but has a wealth of great Dr's in her research....The Sexy Years is great, and Ageless is good, also, get interested if possible on natural alternatives....Wayne Dyer, Deepak Chopa, books on learning basic meditation, whatever interest you can get passionate about other than drinking! Heck pottery making...underwater basket weaving? You get the idea! Hope to hear from you soon!

[CMCEREZA]

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Hello Cherbear
I just started 3wks ago and got my meds / Supp's on Fri. On my 5th day without a drink. The Kudzu is a life saver.. it takes that edge off. This is longest i've been without a drink in 5+years....so in short, I think it works pretty good. Good luck.

[KateH1]

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Well, Cher, toughintexas has just about covered all of it!! Shoot! she even told you about the old MWO Basket weaving trick!!! LMAO!! TIT, you really crack me up!!

But honestly, this is all great advise and yes, it does work. I honestly do believe that the supps help as does life style change. I have been alcohol free for nearly five months, if I can do it, anyone can do it! So far, I have chosen not to take the topa or any of the other RX. So far, so good!

Best wishes, PM me if I can ever help in any way!
Kate

[angeleyes]

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Underwater basket weaving? Thanks ToughinTexas and everyone for all the advice. You don't know (or maybe you do) how your support has helped me over the last couple of days! I am heading to my Dr. this morning, and have decided to be truthful with her about my problem, and will tell her about this program. Perhaps she can pass it along to other patients who want to get sober. I will also ask her to check my hormones, because I have had some major episodes of the sweats in the last 2 days - not sure if it is alcohol withdrawal, or menopause setting in. (I'm thinking it's the A: 2 days sober = 2 days sweats, only makes sense). But you never know.

I have decided to get on the treadmill at the 3:00 witching hour, hopefully that takes my mind off of it, and also help me lose some of the weight I have packed on from several million drinks full of empty calories. Day 3 and counting!

[Evie.Lou]

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I am smack dab in the middle of Menopause and it sucks but not as bad as drinking sucked.Every thing gets better when we are free of AL and nothing is so bad that a drink will not make it worse.You can do this and we will help.Keep posting!!!! EVIE

[toughintexas]

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Cher, good for you! I love my threadmill, I make sure I get on there when there's something on I really like to watch, I stay on longer! Or I turn on the music video channel and jam out....it really makes a difference. Here's one that'll really motivate you...watch the calorie thing on the threadmill, and see how hard it is to walk off one glass of wine at say 95 calories...that's a motivator...whew....until we got the flu 3 times this winter, and had to move to our barn apt. for foaling season...(we have a pharmacy and farm), I was doing sooo good....walking 62 mins. and burning 480 calories...then going to our Y and doing the weight machines...I just did that at my witching hour, then I felt so good, I didn't want to feel bad...I mod'd, but I'd have 2 max., and only a few times a week, that was huge for me when I got here! It's caught me with my guard down a few times, but at least I understand it, and am on guard about it, used to, I'd just feel bad and lost and awful. You are going to hang in there, and you'll be giving advice soon! Great to have you! Going out for my second set of laps in the pool and water aerobics..lol..

[Evie.Lou]

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Many of the supps you can get at a health food store or at GNC.I put together a tool kit with things thgat i love to eat,, smell, hear and watch.All my favorite Treats are there and I go to that if i feel bored.I found that jelly belly beans in all different flavors kept my taste buds interested.Find anything that makes you laugh (americas funniest pets is a good one , and laughter helps stop the cravings).

[Margaritaville]

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cherbear44;334135 wrote: Underwater basket weaving? Thanks ToughinTexas and everyone for all the advice. You don't know (or maybe you do) how your support has helped me over the last couple of days! I am heading to my Dr. this morning, and have decided to be truthful with her about my problem, and will tell her about this program. Perhaps she can pass it along to other patients who want to get sober. I will also ask her to check my hormones, because I have had some major episodes of the sweats in the last 2 days - not sure if it is alcohol withdrawal, or menopause setting in. (I'm thinking it's the A: 2 days sober = 2 days sweats, only makes sense). But you never know.

I have decided to get on the treadmill at the 3:00 witching hour, hopefully that takes my mind off of it, and also help me lose some of the weight I have packed on from several million drinks full of empty calories. Day 3 and counting!

Cher, I'm so happy for you, please keep me posted on your luck with getting Topa. I have a dr. appt on Friday but don't want to go if I think I'll get embarrassed. :goodjob:

[angeleyes]

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Margaritaville,

I had already ordered the Topa through the River Pharmacy on this website, but have to wait several weeks to get it. Since my Dr. would not prescribe it, I guess I will just have to pay for it, which of course I would rather not do long-term. ( have a drug plan which covers the cost of prescriptions.) Don't let my experience hinder you from discussing with your doctor your situation. Obviously many other people have been successful with obtaining the Topa through their doctor, and you won't know until you try.

It was because of YOU that I went and was honest with my doctor, which was hard because me and my kids have been treated by her forever, and I have never told her about the A. But it actually felt good to say the words to a real live person, and to ask for help. I feel it was a MAJOR step for me, because I have hidden it for all these years and on the outside I look like a person who has it all together in every way. So, PLEASE go through with your appointment!

Tough in Texas,

I got on my treadmill yesterday (I almost f'ing died but i did it)! I went to my daughters soccer game last night completely sober, didn't have to chew gum or keep my distance from the other parents so the wouldn't smell the A, and had an AWESOME time. This morning I woke up CLEAR HEADED for the first time in forever. I think I am catching a tiny glimmer of insight on how sober people live and feel every day.... It's only been 3 days, but already I am calmer and more at peace. Please help me keep this up!!

Everyone else,

Wow! I had NO IDEA how much I would love this forum. Without it I would not have made it through the last 3 days. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!

[toughintexas]

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Cher, I'm sooooo impressed and I'm soooo happy for you! This place is the best! I'd have never made it either! I know you probably nearly started, stumbled, fell and farted on the threadmill the first time, so did I, but its such a positive everytime you go a lil farther, and start to feel more toned, a real natural healthy high! Waking up clear headed and ready to go, not draggin butt, is soooo great huh! And the more things you accomplish not drinking, the prouder you'll be of you, and the easier it will get, you just keep on keeping on....don't expect to be perfect, you won't be, but you just celebrate each and every forward movement. You got a great start, and this is the first part of the rest of what is going to be an awesome new life! Promise! And we are here together! Like Kate said, holding hands around the world with each other, and nobody here is going to let go of your hand, and ya'll don't let go of mine either! I need you guys too, I've had my first tough time in a long time, and I still need everyone everyday too! Love you all!

[Bashley]

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[FONT="Book Antiqua"]Cher bear like Betty, I've been here forever.
Find me in the zones lurking but messed up mostly.[/FONT]

[Evie.Lou]

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B B is RIGHT !!!!!YOU CAN DO THIS AND WE WILL HELP (I PROMISE) LOL......EVIE