I have finally started making steps to my own recovery. I havent really spoken about it. I can go for long periods with being the definied "social drinker" but then I go through periods of not being able to stop once I start. I get my self into a whole slue of trouble... from just saying and doign stupid things to more potentially dangerous situations.. I am consumed by anxied, feelings of quilt. I am goign to start therapy this week to try to sort out where all of this is comming from.
I am 26 and for a while I have used my age as an excuse-- I am just having fun, this is what young people do... ect.. but I know that this is just an excuse and that I need to find help before I hit lower. The flip side of this is that I work in drug treatment, and am going back to school to persue a career in rehabilitation. In part it has forced me to look deeper into my own use as how can I expect to help others if I dont truely understand my own problems? On the other side, working in the field has kindof put my own problems into deeper hiding. I can not seek out the traditionanal treatment as it is too awkward for me. I need to find my own way...
The main question I would like to persue is medication treatments in conjunction with therapy. Topiramate seems promising but how do you get prescribed it? Well, thanks for listening!
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