I ordered all my stuff today and think I am ready to move on and make it more serious (not that I wasn't dead serious before): like ACTION V WORDS. I have a short tolerance to things that are not going anywhere - I want to get out of this mess I created more than anything. I have had no desire to drink since I started this group. Definately no morning stuff. I AM BORED - and that is my incentive to drink - boredom is my owrst enemy. it is so amazing when i am involved and busy with things i like i don't even think about it. I have to recognize this in myself as a part of my personlaity - I will create excitement or distraction or crisis. who knows how long this will last is undetermined - but i know i am a lush and terrified of depression - i have to keep moving. i could totally see myself sitting before the telly having an EVIAN all day. i have an empty nest and am alone so very much aside from the problems of others which is my profession. lots of adjustments to make. i do not want to put myself down - but recognize myself as a person like all others. i also do not want to elevate myself b/c of other things. i am where i am for a reason - and i can seize the moment or wallow in it.
wallowing isn't like me..usually. i will be asking a lot of questions about this program once my packages appear. thank you for being here and your ever so suportive comments.el
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