Too Shaky and Sick

[Seacailin]

Missing my third day in a row at work. I hope to God that I haven't lost my job. I am definitely NOT going to drink today.

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Too Shaky and Sick

Are you the girl that had the fight with the guy after work?

This time off is definately an investment. Without your health, you don't have much.

Keep up the good work, YOU CAN DO IT :l

[Seacailin]

Too Shaky and Sick

Thank u

No, I did not have a fight with anyone. Thank u for your encouraging words

[ntcentral]

Too Shaky and Sick

Get out of the house today and get some fresh air and exercise. Sounds like you are in a rut and you need to shake yourself out of it asap. Staying in the house, feeling hungover and bummed out, isn't going to help. Hang in there, you can do this.

[hippie37]

Too Shaky and Sick

Hi Sea.

For some of us, me included, in the early days of getting sober we could only count our blessing that we got through the day without a drink. For me to go longer than 3 days without one, well, simply put; IT WAS UNHEARD OF!!. This may sound silly BUT I was fortunate enough to be out of work at the time I had decided to quit drinking last June. My GP had signed me off sick due to depression and alcoholism. I say 'fortunate' as I didn't have the added stress that a lot of members have, like yourself, with still trying to hold down a job while battling the 'beast'. Of course, I was worried about money and everything else that was going on around me but as long as I didn't pick up a drink, eventually I was able to overcome those worries. I've never been one to strive for a 'corporate ladder climbing' kind of career anyway as I've always felt my happiness comes first. Working the 9 to 5 in a dead end job is not my idea of happiness and not something I would get any fulfillment out of. Anyway I'm digressing. My personal development and growth as a sober person will always come above EVERYTHING. I could not be the father to my 3 1/2 yr old daughter if I wasn't sober. I could not even consider getting back into work if I wasn't sober; and I definitely couldn't be husband/boyfriend material if I wasn't sober (Not that I'm looking YET!!!). I could not make any financial commitments if I wasn't sober. Someone said to me yesterday also that I wasn't actually living sober; I was just taking a break from my drinking. This hit me hard as I saw a lot of truth in this. Just staying sober is not enough and if I am to continue to grow with my sobriety and fulfill some of my dreams then I need to start addressing the underlying issues causing me to drink. I haven't been doing this a lot recently as I've been too wrapped up trying to intellectualize and philosophize things. Keep it simple. ODAT. And remember DON'T pick up a drink. It will resolve nothing.

Love and Happiness
Hippie
xx

[Seacailin]

Too Shaky and Sick

I will get through this

Thank u for helping me to be stronger. I know that the first few days are the most difficult. I have not seen a doctor. I do not have health insurance. I will download the book today, and try to figure out which supps or meds might be helpful. I should probably go back to AA meetings also, as I am alone way too much

[Accountable for Me]

Too Shaky and Sick

Seacailin, tell your boss you have the flu. Typically the flu runs for a good week.

Don't stress too much with your missing work. You are in the process of getting better. He, in the long run, will have a more productive, alert, employee. You both will benefit from this short leave of absence.

It does get better. Lots of water, good food, and rest.

[Evie.Lou]

Too Shaky and Sick

Hi and welcome to you , Have you tried Kudzu?If you would like some,I will have some sent to you.....It works for some to curb the cravings.....You can do this..Let me know if I can help!!!!!EVIE

[Seacailin]

Too Shaky and Sick

Hi Evielou

I want to try the kudzu, financially strapped right now, thanks to my drinking. Is the L-Glut helpful as well? I was told that I could get that at a reasonable price at Walmart. I just wanted to let u all know that I am feeling a little better physicall, and mentally. I called every single debt collector that I owe money to and was very pleasantly surprised to learn that they are willing to work with me. I have finally stopped shaking enough so that I can go take care of some errands. Thank u all for the love and support. I will check back in when I get home.:l

[Thankful]

Too Shaky and Sick

Sea, stay strong. I too have no medical ins, so I never went on meds. And I was about 2 1/2 months sober before I could afford to buy all the supps that I now take. So have no fear, it can be done without meds! I am actually kind of glad that I had to do it without meds because so many here are afraid of stopping meds once they start. That isn't anything I have to worry about. So not having meds is not necessarily a bad thing. It's hard, but hell, I have been through worse things in my life and I'm sure you have too. So have faith in yourself.

I got through it cold turkey and I just kept coming here when a trigger and craving came crashing down on me. Don't be afraid to post for help, but please do so BEFORE you start drinking. Let us help talk you out of it, ok?

Last night in chat, you said you poored out the beer and started drinking water. If that's true than give chat a try before you even open that first one. Better yet, if there is any still left in the house dump it now. It's very thereputic dumping out booze, believe it or not.

Keep us posted. We are here for you.

Love, Me
:l

[Seacailin]

Too Shaky and Sick

No alcohol in the house

Got rid of the last two beers. Still feeling a bit lousy, so had no desire to drink them. Thank God. It is when I start to feel good, that things get dangerous. I will come here when the desire hits. I think that I should also attend some meetings. I am alone most of the time, and that is not good. Thank u for your words of encouragement

[betty boop]

Too Shaky and Sick

Sea, just please hang in there ........

I have been here a long time and have seen lots of new members struggle .........

But you CAN do this ..............

Love & Hugs, BB xx

[brittzak]

Too Shaky and Sick

Sea,
I think we can all relate to the sick feeling and depression. A few days under your belt AF, you will feel like a new person. Stay strong. You can do this. The supps help trmemndously.

[Ripple]

Too Shaky and Sick

Sea..i am sorry i referred to you as Scallion in chat. Hope i was helpful to you ... i have a full bottle of Campral un-opened, if you want it ... will send...:l

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Too Shaky and Sick

Hi Seacailin,

I posted some stuff in the ODAT - Thursday thread, but just incase you don't read it, i have some thoughts on what you have said in this thread.

First, alone time: I spend a lot of time on my own, and always believed i was drinking BECAUSE i was on my own. I now realise the alcohol made me FEEL ALONE! I have been sober for the past 2 nights and tonight will be my third. Don't get me wrong, it's not that i wouldn't want a spurring partner every now and then, but the 'alone' feelings are a lot easier to deal with when you are sober. For some reason, the mind feels a lot more positive.

So, i'm saying - give it a go.

You can also try some strategies for hooking up with people, such as joining a dating site. I know it sounds 'tragic', but i don't think it is... There are probably plenty of other people like you who just want somebody to hang out with. There may even be social networking sites or groups you can join (not myspace or anything like that, but proper ones).

You could even try a few sports. A former house-mate of mine used to play for several teams a few times per week. I don't think they were very good, but it gave her a healthy social outlet. You could also try other special interest groups, such as a book club, or chess club. These are just ideas, but hopefully you get my point.

With regards to feeling tempted to take a drink, why not replace all the liquid refreshments in your house with non-alcoholic liquid refreshments, such as tea, water, cranberry juice, or de-caffienated coffee? Part of giving up drinking is to replace the oral fixation (the actual process of raising a glass / cup to our lips and taking a sip).

Also, during those hours that you feel most likely to be tempted, make yourself a plan. Even if you do it the day before, or at lunch-time, try to identify the hours that you are most temped and literally work out an hour-by-hour plan, and write it in your diary. (i tend to think loosely about mine the day before)...

Anyhow, that's all from me.

PS. You will feel better about most things in your life when you kick the booze. It doesn't seem possible now, but, believe me... things won't seem so insumountable anymore.