Very strange with the weekend looming

[Peanut]

Very strange with the weekend looming

Oh CS - I am feeling for you. It is early in the day! How old is your little one? Can you get out of the house? Go for a walk? Hop in the car and go to a friends or shopping or out for icecream or the zoo or pool or something? A drive in the country? Are there any "projects" you can do, rather than sitting and watching hubby drink? You must keep yourself busy - let him watch the child and you go biking or do some gardening or house renos or something! Just keep yourself busy.

Please be strong. You have everybody here rooting for you. You are not alone in this battle!
xoxoxoxoxo Peanut

[CS04]

Very strange with the weekend looming

Peanut -- the baby is 21 months old and napping right now -- a good thing, but that means I'm at home for now. I have been a real wreck this week. I feel like I don't care about anything. Trying to deal with dr's office to get insurance straightened out and get on ADs. I feel like it will take forever to get my head and life together, and I used to have it all together (at least I thought I did -- ha ha). I feel like I was way more productive when I was drinking all the time! Not to mention a nicer person to be around.

[greeneyes]

Very strange with the weekend looming

I LOVE peanut better and apples. I also love tootsie roll pops. The cherry ones. and a client has them in a jar and I dig in there for the cherry (once a month). I have it in my purse and hubby dug in there for something and saw it and ate it. I mean I flew into a rage. He comes home with these two cherry little kiddie suckers to pacify me. I look at them and say you have to be kidding me. At least he tried. I bet he never eats something from my purse again though. I WANTED that sugar and chocolate.

[CS04]

Very strange with the weekend looming

thanks dolphin. am afraid of what the real problem is: drinking, my marriage, stresses about motherhood, finances, or all of the above -- or is that just life??? that I have not been able to cope with. still upset. god I feel so sad today, and I am not even hung over, nor can I look forward to drinking to take it away. anyway, going to try to get job app sent here so I can feel positive about something.

[Peanut]

Very strange with the weekend looming

Hey CS - Hang in there. Good idea about getting the job application. Getting just one thing done will make you feel better. You know, when I first went AF at the beginning of May, the first few days were hell and I was an effing nutcase - raging about, mad at the world and myself one minute, hysterically laughing another minute. It is not easy. Do you have any supplements to help with your mood? I've heard people here say that Sam-E helps, and Gaba seems to help with relaxing??? Maybe others have something to say about these? I know you can get them both at your local health or drug stores. Why not take the babe out after her/his nap and get out of the house and de-stress. A change of scenery might be just the ticket!
I'll be thinking of you!!
Peanut

[SpiritGirl]

Very strange with the weekend looming

CS ~ Please stay strong. I know you're sad - but it's better than being sad AND hungover tomorrow. I believe that drinking will only compound your bad feelings. This will pass... Stay strong:l

[CS04]

Very strange with the weekend looming

Made it thru Fri. night. We grilled burgers for dinner, which is prime beer drinking opportunity! I went to the grocery store after baby woke up from nap and looked at the Kaliber AF beer, and it just made me mad, so I didn't buy it. yes Peanut, that's how i feel today, mad at the world. Stupid, isn't it. So although I stayed AF I was moody all evening. My hubby is never going to want to come home to crabby wife. On to day 4; I hope tomorrow is better. Thanks for your support!

[Larisa]

Very strange with the weekend looming

Hmm...turns out Friday is just another day, who knew? I'm starting to really love this going to bed sober thing - getting into my snug bed in clean sheets (at least, before the doggies join - or maybe they're cleaner than me, come to think of it), turning off the light, listening to my sleep cd...niiiice.

Doggy-absolutely! Like that one with Beau Bridges! And one of my faves - the one where Tori Spelling is the popular cheerleader and Kellie Martin is the frumpy high school newspaper editor? And Kellie wants to be friends with Tori, but she's not cool enough, so she stabs Tori to death in a jealous rage? I mean, who doesn't want to see Tori Spelling get stabbed to death??? And the title! "Death of a Cheerleader." It doesn't get any better than that!!!

I promise I really haven't been drinking.

[voices]

Very strange with the weekend looming

Hmmm...why am I craving Peanut Butter after reading this thread? :giggle:


-V

[Accountable for Me]

Very strange with the weekend looming

CS, you are sounding better from reading your last post. Good stuff staying on your AF path. I am sorry you are feeling miserable. Unfortunately most of us did during the early days. It does get better. It is good to cry. It is good to get mad. It is good to laugh for no reason. Your moods, and your depression will get better as the alcohol leaves your body and you start to heal.

As for the tremendous stress and pressure you have placed on yourself, try to do just one thing at a time. Your sobriety is the most important thing to be focusing on because without it, everything will remain the same.

Take care of you and everything will fall into place. Hang in there.

[Peanut]

Very strange with the weekend looming

So - Patricia, KBCE and Larisa - a successful AF friday night???? Movies, sleep and relaxation?? I managed it too, and actually got some sleep, probably from pure exhaustion from no sleep the night before - a cyclical thing??

CS04 - glad to hear you made it through the night and are onto day 4. I do hope the day goes well for you and you stay busy and feel better. You might want to try the AF beer anyway, even though it makes you mad. It has been a real life saver for me, and I think I actually have begun to prefer it (BTW - I have decided I don't like AF wine at all, so shall avoid it - I do love wine too much to try and pretend). I have found in the past that beer actually makes me feel quite wretched the next day, and even while drinking it, gives me some sort of pain in my head (does that stop stop me from drinking it though?? on the beach in the summer??), so it is nice to drink the AF stuff for the beeriness of it without the yucky feel, although I do get burpy after 2 of them.

Have a great saturday guys, and post when you need to!
Peanut