I have been dabbling in this program, drinking still, overdoing it some (especially last night...last hurrah, you know?), and waiting for my dr appt to get the final word.
I was there for 1 1/2 hrs!!!! He was so interested in this program (remember, compassionate, christian D.O.) that he is going gung ho with me! Said he thinks it looks great, and would be glad to be my physician. HE GAVE ME 82 TOPAMAX SAMPLES!!!!!!! Sent me down for bloodwork to check my liver function, CBC, Albumin. He's setting me up to see a counsellor who specializes in substance abuse issues (he insisted). I walked in all teary eyed, clutching my bag of supplements and my book, and left there feeling pretty darn good about this.
I'm in baby! New goal: abstainance. Or I'm gonna lose my husband...but that's for another post, I suppose. He is still EXTREMELY sceptical that I will actually do something this time, and more than for just a couple days. Says he supports me, but I've just pushed him too far away with all of this. Says he is sleeping in the basement tonight: (picture the little dude here with lots of tears)
Anyway all, thanks again. This HAS to work for me. I no longer have an option to keep screwing up.
Lotsa love,
Becca
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