Dear all, :new:
I took alot of courage to look up a forum or place where i could get help. After i found this site, i realised that what I've been going thru could be binge drinking.I knew i need help & stop lying to myself its just occasional drinking,or i wont drink again,etc etc. I failed oh so many times that ive lost count with, refrain from drinking after a few days,weeks,months,but eventually drinking more or equivalent. My last drink was a day ago down with 12cans of beer,drinking from midnight to the next day evening at 5pm.(17hours)
I used to have hard liquor but have since stopped for awhile, i felt the only alcohol that i'm addicted to is beer.I even abused myself from drinking for 6days straight, each time i opened my eyes after an hour nap or 2 ,i continued.(when my bf left after 2 weeks) I even went into tremors like as if i am going into a stroke. I felt so terrible after each episode of drinking session.Wonder why am i doing this to myself.Had lost count of hits by hangover or feeling very very sick.
My dad once was a very heavy drinker when he was around. He passed away fews years back due to cancer,lymphoma and liver. Is an alcoholic due to genetic? i have brain problems too, my brain wave is not normal when i was 13 years old,and found out i have OCD when i was 26,Im now 32. but it is well controlled now without medication and doesnt affect my daily life. where i used to suffer that for about 4 years and needless to say,lots and lots of drinking that time.
I dont want to quit trying, i am so glad i found this site,i really hope i wont go into a slip again.And i want to keep coming back to this site, maybe update my posting for the days i am free from alcohol. I want to prove to my family & love one i can do it, i know they are tired of me saying that cos i always went back drinking. My bf went back to America one month ago, and i hope the next time he returned,i can proudly tell him,I have quit drinking. I'm from Asia. And whenever i went out with friends whom are drinking, i cant fight off that urge getting a drink too & cant stop once i had the first or two.Please excuse me if my English is not good.Have a blessed day & thank you so much
Best Regards
sumobaby
I took alot of courage to look up a forum or place where i could get help. After i found this site, i realised that what I've been going thru could be binge drinking.I knew i need help & stop lying to myself its just occasional drinking,or i wont drink again,etc etc. I failed oh so many times that ive lost count with, refrain from drinking after a few days,weeks,months,but eventually drinking more or equivalent. My last drink was a day ago down with 12cans of beer,drinking from midnight to the next day evening at 5pm.(17hours)
I used to have hard liquor but have since stopped for awhile, i felt the only alcohol that i'm addicted to is beer.I even abused myself from drinking for 6days straight, each time i opened my eyes after an hour nap or 2 ,i continued.(when my bf left after 2 weeks) I even went into tremors like as if i am going into a stroke. I felt so terrible after each episode of drinking session.Wonder why am i doing this to myself.Had lost count of hits by hangover or feeling very very sick.
My dad once was a very heavy drinker when he was around. He passed away fews years back due to cancer,lymphoma and liver. Is an alcoholic due to genetic? i have brain problems too, my brain wave is not normal when i was 13 years old,and found out i have OCD when i was 26,Im now 32. but it is well controlled now without medication and doesnt affect my daily life. where i used to suffer that for about 4 years and needless to say,lots and lots of drinking that time.
I dont want to quit trying, i am so glad i found this site,i really hope i wont go into a slip again.And i want to keep coming back to this site, maybe update my posting for the days i am free from alcohol. I want to prove to my family & love one i can do it, i know they are tired of me saying that cos i always went back drinking. My bf went back to America one month ago, and i hope the next time he returned,i can proudly tell him,I have quit drinking. I'm from Asia. And whenever i went out with friends whom are drinking, i cant fight off that urge getting a drink too & cant stop once i had the first or two.Please excuse me if my English is not good.Have a blessed day & thank you so much
Best Regards
sumobaby
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