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Hi there all
I have to say that I got to 36 days of AF and was feeling absolutely great. We then got invited to a dinner where I didnt want to appear "boring" and so of course drank (thinking that I could do it moderately) and of course the wheels fell off, the wine went straight to my head naturally and I was as sick as a dog for about 3 days afterwards. But the desire was back. That was on the 6th June and have been struggling since. I'm on all the supplements and topomax (up to 150mg) which was initially fine up until that "slip" but the cravings seem stronger but every evening is a battle. I have gone up to 200mg of Topomax today in the hope that the cravings will ease and that I can start Day 1 today. I AM DETERMINED NOW. Is there anyone out there who can join me? I feel so disappointed in myself, weak, that i let myself down after doing so well. I guess maybe this just proves that I will have to abstain for much longer than 30 days before I decide if I can moderate or not (at this stage I think it is NOT). My problem is that it is coming up to a 2 month holiday season where a lot of social drinking happens so there will be an awful lot of pressure especially from being a past social drinker. Everyone is immediately "suspicious" if you dont drink! I kid you not! Also, on the subject of the Topomax, my hair seems to be falling out at a rapid rate .........................AND AM VERY CONCERNED.......ANY POINTERS?????
So an AF buddy would be great - any takers???? My crunch time will be South African time. And advice on the hair loss much appreciated.:l
Hi there all
I have to say that I got to 36 days of AF and was feeling absolutely great. We then got invited to a dinner where I didnt want to appear "boring" and so of course drank (thinking that I could do it moderately) and of course the wheels fell off, the wine went straight to my head naturally and I was as sick as a dog for about 3 days afterwards. But the desire was back. That was on the 6th June and have been struggling since. I'm on all the supplements and topomax (up to 150mg) which was initially fine up until that "slip" but the cravings seem stronger but every evening is a battle. I have gone up to 200mg of Topomax today in the hope that the cravings will ease and that I can start Day 1 today. I AM DETERMINED NOW. Is there anyone out there who can join me? I feel so disappointed in myself, weak, that i let myself down after doing so well. I guess maybe this just proves that I will have to abstain for much longer than 30 days before I decide if I can moderate or not (at this stage I think it is NOT). My problem is that it is coming up to a 2 month holiday season where a lot of social drinking happens so there will be an awful lot of pressure especially from being a past social drinker. Everyone is immediately "suspicious" if you dont drink! I kid you not! Also, on the subject of the Topomax, my hair seems to be falling out at a rapid rate .........................AND AM VERY CONCERNED.......ANY POINTERS?????
So an AF buddy would be great - any takers???? My crunch time will be South African time. And advice on the hair loss much appreciated.:l
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