New here and feeling helpless

[want_to_be_sober]

Hello all, :new: even though i was checking this forum for a long time now because was gaving me courage to carry on, this is the first time i decided to ask for help because my condition have gone bad... really bad. I am a 24 year old girl, ironically enough a councellor but i feel i can only help other people. I dont understand how I left myself to reach this point. My problem started 2 years ago when i divorced with my fiance. I just liked the way vodka made me feel after i was drinking a few shots in the night and going out or just binge eating without worries. Then the few shots became day by day and then every night. Then one litre every 2 days. In the last 6 months I only drink at night, every night but a lot. Before 3 months I went to a detox clinic for a week with the participation of my psychiatrist and medications. But in the same day I left the clinic I started drinking again. I tried neurolinguistic therapy too. Nothing worked. I liked to drink only at nights and alone. In the last 5 days I just started drinking in the mornings and noons too just to make the nervousness and tremblings go away. I am so worried. I have lost my friends and 2 relationships i have had because of my drinking. Today I didnt go to work because of my drinking. I feel frustrated and worried. I ordered Campral from the internet with express shipping just to try out this one too. Hope it comes as soon as possible and hope will help me with the withdrawal symptoms I have (tremblings, social phobia, nervousness, panic attacks, frustration, etc). I wonder how I still do the work I do with this problem and trying to hide it every day, every day. Tomorrow definitely going to see my psychiatrist in the morning... Any advice/comments are more than welcome. Thanks for listening guys... :thanks:

[KBCE]

New here and feeling helpless

I am sending positive, hopeful thoughts your way. This is hard, but YOU CAN DO THIS! Have faith in yourself - and please post and read here often. I was 14 days sober and just messed up, but I am back on track and I know I can do this, as you can too. Listen to the wise people on this board. They know what is what and have wonderful advice. Again, you can do this - YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!

Big sober hugs to you,

Kat

[renewal]

New here and feeling helpless

Hi there and welcome...just wanted to invite you to visit a thread I started a couple days ago.....Newbies Unite'.....great group of people, all just starting out, and going through this process together. I think you'd like us....hope to see you there...
Renewal

[want_to_be_sober]

New here and feeling helpless

KBCE wow amazing how fast the replies are in here thats why its great being here. Thanks so much for your encouragement.. really felt better... hope it will work for us..

[want_to_be_sober]

New here and feeling helpless

renewal thanks for the invitation. Will definitely come by.

[Evie.Lou]

New here and feeling helpless

Welcome Want to be sober,Soon your name will be I AM SOBER.Have you thought of Antabuse?It is a good safe guard in the early days...it forces you to think before you drink.You are very wise to see that AL is a problem so early in your life.Many of us wanted until near Death before we were able to admit the problem.Being trained as a counsellor does not mean that you are more than human.Alcoholism is a very powerful ememy that does not care who you are or what you do.It only wants to destroy us.Together we can beat this.There is greater power in the large number of people wanting the same thing...To stop DRINKING....We can do this together....Evie

[tlrgs]

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:hello2::colorwelcome::nicemeeting::groupluv:

[SunDaisy]

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Welcome

Welcome!

I would certainly say you should KEEP that appointment with your doctor tomorrow and maybe talk to her/him about medications that might help you.

Also, keep coming back here and join chats if you can. It has really helped me. I've been 12 days without alcohol now thanks to MWO.

Good luck, and come back!

[want_to_be_sober]

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Thanks evie. having all of you guys with me gives me real power. Hey trlgs. thanks nice to meet you too. kat here. One thing i noticed tonight. amazing how tolerance affects you. Since today from the morning ive drunk 1/2 litre of vodka and 1 bottle of wine (table wine) and feeling still i didnt drunk too much... so sad tonight and tomorrow at 12 i will have to be in my work.. keep thinking how i am gonna make the day until 8pm tomorrow... thanks sundaisy for the encouragement.i hope my psych will help tomorrow. all the wishes for you too..

[SunDaisy]

New here and feeling helpless

Keep Faith in yourself

Only you can decide that you can do this. And trust me, if I can do this, you can too!

You are not alone in this. You have so many people who can listen and support you here. We are here for you and we need you too.

Be well.

[raineyjane]

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Hi, I'm new here two. I have worked as a massage therapist for the past 11 years. I know what you mean about being able to help others and not yourself! Ive been seeing a therapist that does accupunture as well. It seems to have helped greatly with my anxiity! I hope you keep coming back! I REALLY like this group! We are all in this together! you are not alone. Take good care! chin up!!!

[biscuit]

New here and feeling helpless

Welcome wants to be sober, your intake of AL sounds like mine (minus the wine). We all had
to start at the same place you are today. At this site and admitting we need help. I am so
glad you are here and many people will jump in to help. I am AF since 6/11/08. You can
do this.

Biscuit

[Guest]

New here and feeling helpless

Welcome to the Board. There are lots of wonderful people, all willing to help you out.
Your first good step was to find this site.
Controlling your drinking or stopping altogether is not an easy task. I am not on any supplements or drugs, I've never been to detox or rehab. It's all what works for you.
But having support is very important, and you are not alone in this.

[want_to_be_sober]

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Τhanks so much for the encouragement. I hate myself. I didnt go to the doc in the morning because of the hangover I couldnt get my feet out of bed Started drinking from 12 noon until tonight again.. Tried so hard today again at work.. I feel soooo tired... I am not psychologically but biologically dependent to alcohol. (think so and hope so)

[Evie.Lou]

New here and feeling helpless

Dependent is dependent....right?I could not get my butt out of bed...sometimes for days in a row.I started watering drinks down my drinks or forcing myself to drink a glass of water in between Beers,Anything you can do to get more water, less alcohol will help.Decreasing the amount of AL will help your body to adjust and the withdrawl should be less.Please seek help if the syptoms get to bad.There are meds. that can help.Figure out a plan and stick to it.You can do this,I know you can....Evie