Greetings!
I am so grateful to have found this site this morning. I love the support and acceptance and honesty shared by all. I'm hoping that this will be my personal way out of the crazy life I've somehow found myself in.
Like others here, I have functioned well while drinking daily for many years, meanwhile deluding myself into thinking that I didn't have a problem if I was getting to work everyday, raising a family, keeping up with the bills/housework etc.....
Of course that is the booze talking. But, hey, it is only white wine so no biggie... wine is good for you, right.
While I have been concerned for a long time about my drinking and wanting to quit I was dealing with so many other issues (mainly both children with numerous, rare, painful health conditions) that I told myself just hold out until the kids get "fixed" and then it will be my turn to heal. Well, recently I finally realized that my kids will suffer life-long complications and poor health and that my drinking wasn't helping them at all. In fact it is causing them a great deal of pain.
The "last straw" occured the other day at a routine doctor appt. Of course I under-estimate my alcohol consumption on my medical records. I could be denied future employment if I was deemed an addict (health care/education field) .... besides I was always going to cut back/stop drinking. Any way, my doc told me I had slightly elevated liver enzymes acording to my last blood labs. She never asked about my alcohol consumtion but told me to clean up my diet and lose 5-10 lbs. I was too scared to tell her the truth.
So, here I am. Ready, willing but not sure if I am able to do this. But I am ready to try. I am finally ready to do this for myself, to find the time, to find the resources, to move forward into the abyss that may just be the best thing I have ever done. Thanks for listening and letting me spill the beans in a safe place.
many hugs to all of you,
Ponderosa
I am so grateful to have found this site this morning. I love the support and acceptance and honesty shared by all. I'm hoping that this will be my personal way out of the crazy life I've somehow found myself in.
Like others here, I have functioned well while drinking daily for many years, meanwhile deluding myself into thinking that I didn't have a problem if I was getting to work everyday, raising a family, keeping up with the bills/housework etc.....
Of course that is the booze talking. But, hey, it is only white wine so no biggie... wine is good for you, right.
While I have been concerned for a long time about my drinking and wanting to quit I was dealing with so many other issues (mainly both children with numerous, rare, painful health conditions) that I told myself just hold out until the kids get "fixed" and then it will be my turn to heal. Well, recently I finally realized that my kids will suffer life-long complications and poor health and that my drinking wasn't helping them at all. In fact it is causing them a great deal of pain.
The "last straw" occured the other day at a routine doctor appt. Of course I under-estimate my alcohol consumption on my medical records. I could be denied future employment if I was deemed an addict (health care/education field) .... besides I was always going to cut back/stop drinking. Any way, my doc told me I had slightly elevated liver enzymes acording to my last blood labs. She never asked about my alcohol consumtion but told me to clean up my diet and lose 5-10 lbs. I was too scared to tell her the truth.
So, here I am. Ready, willing but not sure if I am able to do this. But I am ready to try. I am finally ready to do this for myself, to find the time, to find the resources, to move forward into the abyss that may just be the best thing I have ever done. Thanks for listening and letting me spill the beans in a safe place.
many hugs to all of you,
Ponderosa
( or a bottle of wine)
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