I began "self-medicating" with alcohol when my life went through some major changes and when I had then, undiagnosed, general panic disorder. Ironically, one of the symptoms of that was a fear of taking drugs :lol . Except my favourite alcohol (the devil I knew, right?) and tobacco. I even gave up caffeine! And refused my wonderful GP's advice about anti-anxiety medication, anti-biotics even anti-histamines!!! I didn't want to "mess up" my brain. Weird, but true.
I finally did go on the meds in an attempt to gain some control over my life and my alcohol consumption. Unfortunately the alcohol has continued ... so I wonder whether the meds work at all. Guess which one I don't take when I am worried????
Anyway, this program appeals to me because even though I know I must have a genetic predisposition to alcohol, I also know I spent most of my life without it.
I think RJ's advice about having a quitting buddy is a great one ... I have kept my problem secret or at least, not in the open, from most people. My closest friend (back home) and family know, but on the few occasions they have referred to my excessive drinking their attitude is more one of fear and "how come you can't control yourself" rather than unqualified support. I hear the judgement in their voices, I guess, even though I know they love me.
So ... is there anyone out there who is thinking of starting or about to start who would like to buddy-up? I am assuming we can do a private message here?
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