I gotta admit, I'm scared..........
I've done really well since joining MWO - you would not believe how well! I don't drink that much anymore (well, not like I used to)...........the last time I forgot something I did while drinking was like 3 months ago.........maybe doesn't seem like much but a huge step for me. I have learned to moderate, have more AF days then ever before and am continuing to work at this challenge.
My goal is to moderate.........I go to a therapist regularly and she also thinks that is possible for me and I have told her my drinking patterns. We are working at things and along with MWO things are looking real good.
Here is my challenge. I leave tomorrow to go to my cottage for a week. I have friends coming who are big drinkers..........she is already all over the "hey, let's open the wine, hey what do the kids have to do so we know they're safe and we can drink" type commments........it scares me that I used to be like "gee what can I do with my child so I can drink.........." I don't think like that now...........now it's more like, OMG my child is my # 1 priority.......I need to control any alcohol intake..........not how I used to think.....
anyway......point is that it is going to be a hard week. Her kids are a lot older than mine so so they are old enough to watch mine so that we can relax and "party"........I want to mod but I know it's going to be hard. I have some AF beer and wine and figure I can hide that from her ...........she's not close enough that I can tell her I want to slow down - this is not a close friend but more of a work related friend that is just happening to be at the same place at the same time kind of scenario..........
anyway..........I have no Internet when I'm gone so please everyone think of me.........keep me in your thoughts as I will keep you all in mine. And I will work really hard at keeping my moderation the way I have been..........You guys all rock.......
Sorry, not really asking for advice as much as I needed to vent that I am scared. But I know with thoughts of you guys I will prevail.
Love and Hugs,
Uni
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