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    My Intro - hopefully to a new life

    Hi all, I can be wordy on a keyboard, but not in person. We'll see how this works out.

    I'm a 40ish well functioning alcoholic. Life is good to be honest. Problem is, every year seems to go by faster. And at the rate I'm pouring rum, vodka, etc into my body I probably aint gonna last to long. I drink about 1/2 liter EVERY DAY. It's a stupid amount, I know...

    Flash forward (deleting my ramblings). My wife loves me unconditionally - she knows and I admit to her that I'm an alcoholic. We're non-argumentative and have no physical and very few verbal arguemnents. Our thing is to say "we agree to disagree" and let the water pass under the bridge. Most issues are about our grown kids which we cant control anyhow, so why argue?

    But my biggest issue is that I want to see my grand daughter (yea, at 42) grow up. Tears are running down my face thinking about if I cut my life short and not get to see her grow up. I SOOOO want to kick this addiction and live to see her grow up.

    From what I've read so far, this is the place to find help from others who are fighting this demon too. Glad I found you. Any and all advice welcome. Gotta beat this demon!
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    My Intro - hopefully to a new life

    imsqueak....welcome!! You've come to a great place. Just wanted to invite you to a thread I started 2 weeks ago (Newbies Unite June 08') where everybody is just starting out and supporting one another. All the best, and hope to see you there.
    Renewal

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      #3
      My Intro - hopefully to a new life

      Have you tried aa are or you not ready to 'come out' about your drinking yet? Even so putting your feelings down on a site as great as this is a good start. Good luck to you Im and I look foreword tyo reading about your progress in future posts.

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        #4
        My Intro - hopefully to a new life

        :hello2::colorwelcome::wave::groupluv: well you have made your first step forward..
        and this a great place for support and learn the best way for you ..
        and as long as you really know what you want in life you can get want you want..
        which is af go for it ..its there for the taking ..do your best to stay busy .read ,change your habits .come to he site go to chat and talk to someone anyone when you feel the need and when it really come down to it . its all in your hands just do your best and dont give up ..it is doable
        peace , love and god bless
        :beach: life does change as long as you are willing to change yourself ..
        best thing about the future it comes one day at a time..

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          #5
          My Intro - hopefully to a new life

          Just a wee note to welcome you imsqueak, you certainly have found a great place here. Just jump right in and keep posting.

          Lx
          Rather die standing, than live on my knees, begging Please..... No More.......

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            #6
            My Intro - hopefully to a new life

            Welcome imsqueak, i'm new too, about 3 weeks now. I'll be 40 next year and I want to see my own kids grow up. They are still in elementary school and deserve a sober mom. I only hope to see grandkids someday. You're a very lucky man to have grandkids at such a young age and a very SMART man to DECIDE to see them grow up.

            You've found a great place. This last three weeks has been great for me with MWO... Keep coming back to us. These people are awesome.
            Take everything in moderation. Including moderation.

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              #7
              My Intro - hopefully to a new life

              welcome.......read RJ's book and order some of the supps...they do help. This isnt easy, but you will find a lot of support here.
              Forever loved, forever missed Papa Bear

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                #8
                My Intro - hopefully to a new life

                Imsqueak,

                Welcome. We all are or have been where you are now. I'm 43 and knew I was wasting my life. Try starting with 30 days AF. It gets the toxins out of your systems, gets your head straight, and really makes you feel better. After that you decide if you totally want to go AF or mod. I wish you success in your journey. I'm sure you can do it because it seems like you want to change (as all of us do). I am day 16 AF (have done several AF stints before) and feel better than I have in a long time. It is hard sometimes but I stay strong, take the supps and vitamins and keep focused on my goals. Again, welcome and know that you are in a great place! Gabby.
                Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

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                  My Intro - hopefully to a new life

                  :welcome: You have found a great support system. I found this sight and made my first posting last week. This is the most hopeful I have been in seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I too am in my 40's and have a great life... husband, kids, job, etc., Except they all deserve more and I certainly do... and so do you and your loved ones.

                  After reading other threads I found the courage to call a doctor, was prescribed meds, and I am on day three AF. We each have to find our own way and I hope you find yours. Stick around, there is loads of support and advice here.
                  "The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don?t want it badly enough." - Randy Pausch, The Last Lecture

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                    #10
                    My Intro - hopefully to a new life

                    Welcome...I am 42 and a well functioning alcoholic. Have two great kids and an amazing husband. I drink 4-8 beers a day between 3-9pm I need to stop...my family and I deserve better. I am on day 3 --the weekdays are the worst for me. Hate my part-time job..oh any excuse I guess. I wish you luck...
                    imsqueak;354976 wrote: Hi all, I can be wordy on a keyboard, but not in person. We'll see how this works out.

                    I'm a 40ish well functioning alcoholic. Life is good to be honest. Problem is, every year seems to go by faster. And at the rate I'm pouring rum, vodka, etc into my body I probably aint gonna last to long. I drink about 1/2 liter EVERY DAY. It's a stupid amount, I know...

                    Flash forward (deleting my ramblings). My wife loves me unconditionally - she knows and I admit to her that I'm an alcoholic. We're non-argumentative and have no physical and very few verbal arguemnents. Our thing is to say "we agree to disagree" and let the water pass under the bridge. Most issues are about our grown kids which we cant control anyhow, so why argue?

                    But my biggest issue is that I want to see my grand daughter (yea, at 42) grow up. Tears are running down my face thinking about if I cut my life short and not get to see her grow up. I SOOOO want to kick this addiction and live to see her grow up.

                    From what I've read so far, this is the place to find help from others who are fighting this demon too. Glad I found you. Any and all advice welcome. Gotta beat this demon!
                    :new:

                    sosad

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                      #11
                      My Intro - hopefully to a new life

                      Welcome, IMsqueak. You have found a great place to accomplish the goals you seek. I joined in April. I took me awhile but I will be 30 days AF after tomorrow. I would not have been able to accomplish that without the help of the MWO program and the amazing people here. The book laid out the foundation for me. Download it if you haven't already. The supplements are an amazing help at curbing the cravings. If you need additional assistance speak to your Dr. about additional help like Topomax, Campral, or some of the other meds that are available. Some, you can order online if you don't want to involve your doctor.

                      The key for me was to have a plan to fill the void during my drinking time. Come here and read and post. I recommend you find an Old Thread by AceOfBase, titled Sad But Hopeful. He was extremely successful and very eloquent in his posting about his experience. There is a lot of priceless information in old threads. It is time well spent to just browse and read.

                      It is good to have you here. I look forward to hearing from you again and getting to know you.

                      Shelby
                      "PAIN IS JUST WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY!" USMC

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                        #12
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                        :welcome: Imsqueak

                        I found reading some of the threads here and the supportiveness shown to others to be really inspirational and definitely kick-started my decision to quit, funny thing is I found it for the first time last year but didnt quit at the time, I always knew it was here though and when I finally did decide enough was enough I found it again

                        Wishing you all the strength you need to kick this awful habit.

                        Best regards

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                          #13
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                          Shelby, a big congrats!
                          Sosad, you've started, just keep going.
                          Nia, we'll make it to.
                          Jessie
                          make the least of the worst, and the most of the best - everyday.

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                            #14
                            My Intro - hopefully to a new life

                            imsqueak, welcome...I am new on these pages myself, but I think this is a great place with lots of support and suggestions. Just like you I want to see my son grow up, and set a great example, and through MWO (the supplements, topamax and DVDs) I have just done the impossible - a month of AF and now moderation (my goal, for now). I was were you are (for years), and could not see a way out.
                            It took me half a year of building up courage, reading the book, not believing in buying all the stuff etc., rereading the book and finally giving in, buying it all - and for some reason, desperation ?, this time was a miracle. Doing my own research, being armed with knowledge when going to my doctor, helped a lot. Your wife sounds amazing! Hang in there!!

                            imsqueak;354976 wrote: Hi all, I can be wordy on a keyboard, but not in person. We'll see how this works out.

                            I'm a 40ish well functioning alcoholic. Life is good to be honest. Problem is, every year seems to go by faster. And at the rate I'm pouring rum, vodka, etc into my body I probably aint gonna last to long. I drink about 1/2 liter EVERY DAY. It's a stupid amount, I know...

                            Flash forward (deleting my ramblings). My wife loves me unconditionally - she knows and I admit to her that I'm an alcoholic. We're non-argumentative and have no physical and very few verbal arguemnents. Our thing is to say "we agree to disagree" and let the water pass under the bridge. Most issues are about our grown kids which we cant control anyhow, so why argue?

                            But my biggest issue is that I want to see my grand daughter (yea, at 42) grow up. Tears are running down my face thinking about if I cut my life short and not get to see her grow up. I SOOOO want to kick this addiction and live to see her grow up.

                            From what I've read so far, this is the place to find help from others who are fighting this demon too. Glad I found you. Any and all advice welcome. Gotta beat this demon!

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                              #15
                              My Intro - hopefully to a new life

                              Thanks all for the welcome, support and advice.

                              I've mentioned it to my Doc but said I didnt want counceling - he didnt offer meds and I didnt know about them. I will make an appointment soon.

                              AA, I did a mtg about 10 yrs ago. Not my thing. Rather do it here semi-private.

                              I've gotta check out the book, supps, and cd. I've done hypno to quit smoking. Kinda worked for a week but once drunk, I lost will power and had to reconnect the habits. I know I could quit smoking if I can quit drinking.

                              I'll likely buy the support products. At over $200/mo supporting my deadly habbits it's a small investment and I'm a mental sucker to believe something is helping even if it aint. I'd be one of those in the survey who get better taking a placebo vs a real med.

                              I'm off to start reading threads, meds and support items.

                              Thanks again, you'll be hearing from me but sitting at the home pc surfing is one of my habbits linked to drinking (and smoking) so once I start/stop drinking I dont know how much surfin I'll be doing.

                              Rgds
                              Squeak

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