I've been reading the posts on this site for a couple of days now and first would like to say thank you for posting the messages and for the sincerity.
I've been drinking at least a bottle of wine every night, closer to two really - especially on the week-ends -- for years and years. I told myself it was okay because I get up and go to work every day, maintain an apartment, pay the bills and take care of my cats.
However, it seems as if, all of a sudden, it's not okay. This summer, on separate occasions, because I was thoroughly, can-bearly-remember-what-happened drunk, I alienated two sets of friends and got in a car accident. I'm making it up with one set of friends, vowed never to drink and drive again, which leaves me drinking alone at night. Fine, I said to myself, I'll quit drinking for 2 or 3 weeks and then cut back. None of you, I'm sure, will be surprised to learn that this hasn't happened.
So I went looking for some kind of help other than AA. I found a couple of web sites which recommend the use of nutritional supplements (alone) as a way to go, but the first (healthyhigh.com) turned out to be bogus, I thought, plus you have to subscribe for $40 a month, which doesn't include the supplements. The other was the site for the program "Seven Weeks To Sobriety". This program requires LOTS of supplements, which I actually bought, and complete abstainence from not only alcohol but coffee and all sugar and white flour products. I lasted a day. If I had that much self-control, I wouldn't have a problem in the first place.
Anyway, then an Internet buddy told me about "My Way Out." This week I bought the book, read it, ordered the self hypnosis CDs (they haven't arrived yet) and made an appointment with my Dr. for Monday, October 24. Although I am a bit nervous about the side effects of the Topa, I intend to give the program a try. Is there anyone "lurking" out there who might possibly be starting out next week also?
It's not that important if there isn't anyone, as it seems many of you have just recently started. Still, I thought I'd give it a shot. If anybody has any advice for me, I'd be happy to hear it. LC
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