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    #1

    Why am I nervous....

    about my daughter coming home tomorrow? I mentioned before, she was a camp for 2 weeks, came home for 2 days, and went on vacation with her dad for 2 weeks.

    I'm so excited to see her, but all of the sudden, I'm scared. Only been AF 8 days. She probably had no idea I had any kind of problem with it. My major drunks were never around her. (I guess I was Modding in my own drunk way around her...WHO KNEW!!!)

    But to go back to regular life is freaking me out. I've had off all week, so I was able to "hide" and be AF. Now, I must face the world AF, which is giving me major anxiety right now.

    Everyone I know, doesn't know (I think) what a problem alcohol was, and they are going to ask why I'm not having any wine with dinner, if we go out. That is, IF I CAN SAY NO!!!

    I've stressing!!!! I'm back to that dreaded, "I wasn't so bad w/alcohol".

    I swear, all the bloods rushing to my head.....IT'S GONNA BLOW!!!!
    "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."
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    #2
    Why am I nervous....

    Panacea....start by breathing...nice and deep into your stomach, in and out...

    If anyone ask why you don't want a drink just say you are trying to be more healthy; or, you are are taking a break..or, you're even really thristy and you just want water for now. It's your decision.

    You're daughter is going to love you; hug her and tell her how much you missed her.

    You're wonderful. Everything I read in all your posts tells me you are.

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      #3
      Why am I nervous....

      Hi Panacea,
      I hope all goes well for you with your daughter back home tomorrow. She will be so looking forward to seeing you and you to see her that that is really all you need for now. Don't let AL ruin your reunion. As for everyone else, does it really matter so much what they think? Sadly no one really thinks about us as much as we might think they do. If anyone knew AL was causing problems for you then they should be pleased for you that you are now AF and if they did not know then they don't really need to know - just say you're on antibiotics, you have an early start the next day - whatever, it doesn't really matter - put yourself and your daughter first.
      Good luck
      :h
      Bandit
      There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning.

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        #4
        Why am I nervous....

        Gia - thx for the kind words.

        Bandit - You're right. I guess we all think everyone is thinking about us, as much as we are consumed with our own problems. Why is that???? I'm sure, if they knew, they would do all they could for me.

        I'm just gonna jump right back into my life, with some modifications, and enjoy what I can.

        The good news is, I can already tell by the phone calls, usually two a day, from her, that she's missing me. She calls, I listen, we talk and laugh. I've always been a little more controlling of the conversations and her life, because I KNOW BEST! Especially when I have a buzz!!

        Coming to the end of 4 weeks without her, I ended up here. The first two weeks made me realize I really didn't have much of a life without her. I'm the chauffuer, maid, Mom, friend, chef...etc. I worked during the day, and had NOTHING to do at night. Well, at first, I was excited about the fact I could drink my wine without worrying about ANY responsibilities. Then, I went away for 5 days, and got shit faced every night, starting a few days about 2-3pm!

        As soon as I landed last Friday, I found ya'll and my AF journey began.

        The time apart from her changed my life.
        "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

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          #5
          Why am I nervous....

          And one other thing...I'M SORRY I CAN'T STOP BLABBING!!!!

          It feels good to get it out. Thanks for listening.
          "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

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            #6
            Why am I nervous....

            That's what this site is all about.

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              #7
              Why am I nervous....

              Panacea,
              Keep blabbing -- I enjoy your posts. 12 is a hard age -- is she your only child? Keep thinking and keep growing -- maybe journaling might help, too? (although I don't do it) As one of my best girlfriends has recently told me: "we have big jobs" as moms, and we need to have out shit together to do it. I'm still trying to get my shit together, but it sounds like your are really thinking and processing, and that is hard and sucks but sooo important. I have an almost 2 yo and a 17 yo stepson, so I understand. Feel free to chat or PM anytime. You are making great strides!

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                #8
                Why am I nervous....

                Panacea,

                You've helped me so much already.....Thank you!

                I empathize with your anxiety over entering the real world and having to say no to wine, but sometimes we make a bigger deal out of things than other people do.

                As for packing in your 8 af days, you probably wouldn't be here if "you weren't that bad with alcohol." I've had a few moments since Tuesday where I've thought the same thing, then I think of the last time I was shit-faced, the last time I was hungover and not really liking me or my life too much. I just CAN'T continue on like that.

                You're very brave. Everyone on this site is very brave.

                SL

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