Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
i just want to die, dont know how to stop this,
i just want to die, dont know how to stop this,
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
88KATIE. CHECK OUT THE NEAREST AA MEETING. YOU DON'T HAVE TO STAY, IT'S UP TO YOU....BUT YOU NEED TO HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TOO ! THEY HAVE GOOD EARS...ONCE YOU GET YOURSELF TOGETHER...THEN YOU CAN DECIDE WHAT YOU WHANT TO DO. THIER ARE A LOT OF PEOPLE ON THIS SITE THAT GO TO AA, AND A LOT THAT DON'T. YOU'LL KNOW WHAT 'LL WORK FOR YOU. ALWAYS COME HERE, THIERS SO MUCH SUPPORT ! CHECK OUT THE MWO MATERIAL. GOOD LUCK. IAD.?Be who you are and say what you feel because
those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.?
Dr. SeussComment
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
Drinking has me:
[*]Feeling so lonely that I will pick a fight, even if I have to go online to do it.[*]Being suspicious that people phone me to detect a certain tone to my speech rather than wanting to actually talk to me.[*]Feeling so hideous that I haven't looked straight into a mirror in years.[*]Being angry and defensive ALL of the time.[*]Getting BP readings of 160/110 withougt being overweight, a smoker or a senior.[*]Feeling constant hatred and injustice surround me when it is really coming from within me.[*]Being able to help every thing and every body but me. Thinking I'm fooling people. [*]Being exhausted during the day and panicked while the rest of world sleeps.[*]Knowing that my husband lusts for the girl he married and I'm jealous of that girl as if she were his mistress and wondering why what I have become isn't good enough.
Wondering why - just really wondering why...did I really pick this particular life b/f I came here...my psyche...my attitude...my surroundings...my family...my cravings...my wounds...my circumstances...what am I supposed to be learning from this particular personality I've come here with? I too, am at a loss. I truly am not a bad person, but the stigma attached to this addiction is something I would rather bury than display as my Scarlet Letter. I'm a drunk! A weak, pathetic, undisciplined, worthless, no good loser. It would be more noble if they had to cut the roof off my house to fork lift my #500 LB carcass out after eating myself to death...but a DRUNK...OHHH BARFFF! but her own fault...Comment
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
Drinking so much has absolutely destroyed my memory. Short term and long term. I used to value my extensive use of vocabulary and now I struggle to think of adjectives. I find this limits my ability to truly express myself.Everyday, do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow. :hComment
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
Rocky Road,
You are not a loser. I have been feeling this way too for a few weeks, but that will get us nowhere. We can dig ourselves out. Stay with us.Comment
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
Rockyroad,
I totally agree with CS04. If anything, you are a fighter. No-one here is a loser; every day when fighting this addiction we are respecting ourselves and each other. I have great admiration and respect for you and I wish you every success. We are all fighting the same battle and should be commended for our efforts and honesty. Hang in there, you are not alone!
Hugs, CaryllEveryday, do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow. :hComment
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
Drinking alcohol, from the very first sip, gives me extreme chest pains, which then shoot down my right arm. Does anyone know what that might mean? I only ever used to drink wine. Never spirits, beer or anything else. I'm on day 10 af and I'm still, daily, trying to add to this list in case I ever wobble.Everyday, do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow. :hComment
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Dolphin, this post was GREAT:
You really nailed it... what goes in inside our heads when our brain starts a campaign to get some AL!!What a strong person that alkie in me is!!If she wants to drink..she will drink!!!DO NOT try and tell her not to!!!COS it will just make her want to even more!!!!!!Today i'm just going to let her ramble on and not argue with her,,i'll just say to her'if you want to drink..go ahead..drink..i'm not going to stop you'it wears me out to argue with her...DO I SOUND MAD????.to decide whether or not to argue with a person in my head????I AM NOT going to let this consume me for the next 2 weeks.....will keep taking the tablets and hope that this passes...does that sound naive???THIS is definately the strongest URGE,CRAVING,whatever you want to call it that i'v had in 2 months sober.....i did know these feelings, would come,I am a f***** alkie after all!!!!!!DUH!!! what did you expect Dolph?????to carry on all happy,clappy never wantin to drink again!!???????WELL I'V RANTED AT MYSELF ENOUGH!!! thank goodness for this place and the chance to do this!!!
Wonderful posts, great thread, I agree with everyone. Alcohol takes away my life. Can't add anything more.
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
Alcohol makes me sit in a dark room while sitting on the computer and cry. A man like me does not cry.Comment
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AL is expensive, makes me eat too much late at night, causes bad hangovers which make me unproductive. Al is poison, Al is not true, Al is a beast. I'm kicking it out of my life one day at a time!!When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.
-- Franklin D Roosevelt --Comment
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
Hey, it gives me the runs! Thats a good reason!Comment
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
AL was slowly but surely taking my life away. It was taking away the things I used to enjoy and accomplish in my free time, both at home and out in the big world. It was taking away my ability to think clearly and work hard at my professional job. If left unstopped, it was going to consume my retirement. It was eating away at my health in many ways.
Thanks for the opportunity to write this down.My life is better without alcohol, since 9/1/12. My sobriety tool is the list at permalink 236 on the toolbox thread under monthly abstinance.Comment
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
Al is a liar! Al tells me that alchoholic beverages tastes better then non-alcholic ones. Big, fat lie! Lots of drinks tastes much better. Gingerbeer, litchi juice, granberry juice etc. Some wine actually tastes like horse piss, and I drank it for the effect!make the least of the worst, and the most of the best - everyday.Comment
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Need I say more ! IAD.
?Be who you are and say what you feel because
those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.?
Dr. SeussComment
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Reasons Not To Drink - PLEASE REPLY!
Abusing AL makes me depressed and hopeless:lilheart: "Love is large, love defies limits. People talk about the sanctity of love...love is by definition sacred. Not some love between some people but all love between all people"
~Jennifer Beals~:huggyComment
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