This is s hard for me!

[lil.michelle]

I started coming on this site 3 days ago. I was really excited and thought that it wouldn't be REALLY hard for me to give up as i had to give up when i fell pregnant. However, how wrong was i! The last 2 nights, even tho i didn't want to, i couldn't cope with my cravings and gave in and last night, i got really violent verbally towards my husband after 2 glasses of wine. I shouldn't drink as i'm on depression tablets but you know how it is.... it'll never have an effect with me and my tablets. WELL it does very rarely but last night was one of those nights. I wasn't so much as violent as i just wanted out from this horrible life style and after getting so excited and really wanting it i couldn't stop drinking. :upset:

ANYWAY..... Tonight i have not drunk anything. It has been hard but i haven't had a single drop. I even came across a half empty bottle but i had the strengh to just put it down the drain.:H
Tomorrow is going to be a test as it's my husbands birthday bbq and the drink will be flowing. I'm NOT going to drink tho.

How can i stop these cravings?????????????????????
Thanx for listening to me moan!!

[My New Beginning]

This is s hard for me!

Hi Lil.Michelle
Hey!!! I poured 1/2 bottle of wine down the drain this morning myself! So, we both want to stop and we can do this. I'm also on antidepressants although tapering down. I mentioned in another post that I bought a bottle of AF wine today and will try some a little later. I know that I'm going to be facing a few crappy sleepless nights ahead (that's what happened before when I was AF) but I can handle it. Stay strong and stay focused and wake up tomorrow morning with no hangover! That's my goal for today.

[boozehag]

This is s hard for me!

Hi Sorry to hear you are struggling and well done on not drinking tonight and coming and posting - that is great.
It is really hard at first - after all we are trying to conquer an addiction. As they say it wont happen overnight but it will happen if you really want it to. Do you have all the program tools? Otherwise you are making it really hard for yourself. If we could all quit cold turkey I am sure we would have done it long ago! I needed every single tool I could possibly find and more to get myself on the road to recovery and although there have been a couple of minor slips on the way that just strengtened my resolve. I have a party tonight too which will be a big one and I am already phycing (SP?) myself up to go AF as I know there is potential for a blow out there. But if you can do it so can I? DEAL?
BH

[boozehag]

This is s hard for me!

well lil m
See you got peeps from all over looking out for you - Go Scotland, Florida and New Zealand!
BH

[CS04]

This is s hard for me!

Lil Michelle,
I also found it easy to not drink when I was pregnant -- in fact, that's what tipped me off that I might have been pregnant, because I didn't want to drink! Our bodies tell us what they want and need -- if we only have the wherewithal to listen. (I did have a glass or 2 later in my pregnancy, but never more than that...and it was easy. I wish it were as easy now.)

Good luck with the BBQ tomorrow. Be sure to have alterna-bevs for yourself -- fizzy water, iced tea, AF beer...SOMETHING. Have a small snack when you gt a craving (esp. at witching hour time, whenever that is for you)

I am also on ADs and know they won't work as well if drinking. But I understand the struggle, believe me.

Greenhouse, I like your quote!

[A Work in Progress]

This is s hard for me!

Hey, LilM, this is hard stuff. Great that you are online, posting, talking about it. I know that this MWO program has a lot of tools that help with craving... but I also believe it is realistic and smart to expect and anticipate that cravings might not ever entirely disappear. Sometimes they will come back with a vengeance, catching us by surprise. So using the tools is REALLY important... and making a commitment to tolerate discomfort, having faith it will pass, is also important. Any kind of distraction or crutch is fine, so long as it is not destructive of self or others! Cravings are just feelings, emotions, sensations... and even though they can feel horrible, and frightening, and unending... truly, they are not. They are just the product of a brain that has come to expect that it will get alcohol whenever it complains loudly enough!

best wishes,

wip

[vera-b]

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Hi lilM,

Boozehag really hit the nail on the head. I think any addiction is difficult to overcome, otherwise it wouldn't be an addiction. That said, we need to arm ourselves with every available tool. Now, there's room for some custominzation (your Dr. may go with Topa, or prefer you try a different med for example), but if you follow the program you at least give yourself a fighting chance. I don't think many of us can do it on willpower. So read RJ's book, come here often for info and support, and don't give up! You can succeed - we all can. In fact, I think we're supposed to - don't think the creator of the universe really had in mind a bunch of drunks crawling around his universe!!

V.