New guy

[julie001]

New guy

Keep yourself hydrated with plenty of water. Get a lot of rest. And follow your doctor's suggestions. Good luck.

[Dazedandconfoosed]

New guy

I woke up at 2am tonight. I feel kinda good actually. I called work and found out that I am not on the schedule untill Tuesday so I am off in the morning. I am actually missing work though, oh well another day to rest.

[Dazedandconfoosed]

New guy

This is an amazing website full of amazing people. I woke up out of the blue at 2am and this is where I came. Its 3am now though and my bed is yelling for me hehe.

[mwo2]

New guy

Sorry no work til Tues... be super diligent today get some more rest and drink lots of lemon water!
Give your wife a hug for the help.

[Seacailin]

New guy

I have followed your progress from the very beginning. I am so glad that you have come through the horrible withdrawal. I hope that your sinus infection is getting better. You have come so far. You are truly an inspiration to others. I wish you well upon your return to work. Keep on truckin'.

[startingover]

New guy

You had me worried D. So glad you came through OK (hugs)

[Dazedandconfoosed]

New guy

This morning was a bit rough. I felt like I was coming apart. I got myself out of the house and went for a long drive in the country. I love my truck, its a pickup but very decked out with custom stuff so it is comfortable. It is 3:30 pm now and I feel pretty good. Trying to figure out what I want to eat, I normally like really spicy foods but I am trying to be considerate to my stomach.

[vera-b]

New guy

Whew, Dazed,

Am I glad you're ok. Was so concerned after your earlier post, but your wife once again was the angel in your midst. The journey is often not easy in the least - in fact if it were, just any ol' body could do it. But I think sometimes it's hard for a reason - so that we take the necessary time along the way to learn something about ourselves that will help and sustain us. That's why there's setbacks mixed in with amazing results. Our goal is to get to that healthy place and be so strong we can turn around and help pull someone else along when they need it most. But we won't get there if we don't keep plugging away, as Bessie would say, ONE DAY AT A TIME. Good for you for not quitting. Keep up the good fight - we're all in this together.

V.

[Dazedandconfoosed]

New guy

In the dog house, the guy that does the scheduling at work did not get me down for tomorrow. The wife is ticked off at me now. She doesnt seem to understand that the scheduling guy wont be in to work untill 11pm tonight and there is just nothing I can do.

[vera-b]

New guy

'Evening Dazed,

I'd be a little gentle with your wife at the moment. She's held strong and was probably banking on you returning to work tomorrow. She probably knows full well you can't do anything about it at the moment, but her frustration and stress at having to support you through your difficult week is probably wearing her patience and understanding a bit thin. I'd do whatever is in your power to get on the schedule and remind her once again that you so appreciate her love and support. There are many here who would give their teeth for the kind of support you've had this week. You've done so well to hang in there, so kudos to you as well. You could have really given up last night, but you didn't. So onward and upward - kick AL's butt as our friend Evielou says!

V.

[kriger]

New guy

Dazed,
I just wanted to jump on and wish you good luck getting back on that schedule at work. Try to be very understanding with your wife as she has with you. It is so difficult but give yourself a lot of credit for how far you have come. I have read all your posts and I admire your courage this past week. We are all proud of you! Keep up the good work, Dazed! Kriger

[Dazedandconfoosed]

New guy

Oh trust me, I am not arguing back. She is a Saint. I just hate having her upset, it makes me upset. Oh well, life is life. I had a good day today.

[gm4life]

New guy

Hi Dazed! I've been out of town for several days and am just now catching up with your progress. Glad to see you're getting better! I hope you can get back to work soon. Funny when you said before, something about you see a cop, you see divorced and drunk! How true. I go to work now and look at my peers and I can totally pick out each and every one that has our same issues. By the way, thought I'd mention, you were calling me brother before - I probably should drop the fact that I'm a woman. No offense taken though brother! Us girls are used to it! I remember going to a fight call once and my big 6'6" 280 lb male partner went running after me and this old woman sitting at the entrance looked at me (all 5'2", 120 lbs) and exclaimed, "What the hell is SHE gonna do?!" My partner just smiled at her and said, "Big things come out of small packages..." I do miss cop work...I don't know if you remember, I quit cop work a few years ago and went into administration. Non-sworn. #1 reason was for my family. I thought the cop schedule and weird stress were hurting us. Unfortunately, the alcoholism I inherited with the job has remained. I haven't totally quit yet, in fact I'm drinking a beer right now....but I'm hoping that focusing on quitting this month will get me to do a 30 AF stint soon, maybe Sept 1st. Right when the kids go back to school. I have cut down though, as has my husband. We both have a drinking problem. We both know it, we both hate it, and yet as soon as one of us says, "You want to stop at the liquor store on the way home from work?" a resounding, "Yes!" always follows.

Ok - enough rambling. Here's to getting us through this shit....

[Dazedandconfoosed]

New guy

Sorry bout that GM4life. Ill try to remember to call ya sis from here on out.

[kriger]

New guy

Gm.
I know that discussion with the husband. I never go home without the beer and I am drinking this evening too. We are enablers to our spouses and they are of us. This is a difficult stuggle when you are in a relationship that revolves around AL. I have been married 27 years and we have such a pattern that it is going to be monumnetally difficult to break, but I am bound and determined to make it happen. I haven't told my husband what I am doing but he sees something different in me so I need to have the conversation soon. He will understand and support but I don't think he will stop right away. I am hoping that he will see the positive changes in me and want to follow. We are deeply connected and I worry more about his health than mine. Anyway, good luck on your quest and I look forward to your posts. kriger