Off the wagon and disappointed

[kriger]

Off the wagon and disappointed

I am up and feeling pretty sh--ty. Before I cut back on AL last week I didn't wake up with a headache after drinking- this doesn't feel good at all. I did order Kudzu online so I guess that will come next week sometime. I think I will call my Dr Monday for some kind of prescription. I have wine on my kitchen counter (open) and one beer in the frig- it is really calling my name. I feel like this weekend is lost forever until I can get some kind of medication to help. I will be at the grocery store to buy beer for my husband-will I be strong enough to stay away from it? The wine is already open. I am drinking water for now. Thanks so much for all your words of encouragement- it means a lot to me! Kriger
I'll be popping in all day, I'm sure.

[DeeBee]

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Hi Kriger,

I know how you feel!!! My finances are also up the pole this month this month and I have been on Topa for the last 12 weeks although I was modding. I have decided that if I can't afford the Topa I will still buy the L-Glut and I have a new bottle of Kudzu which arrived on Friday(my freebie for subscribing). I went AF yesterday for the first time and it wasn't great but I got through it, tonight is day two, I don't think I could've done it with out the Kudzu!!!

Keep posting..... it kept me sane during "suicide hour" on my first night!

[Sunbeam]

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People should and often do post here when things aren't going well. It keeps you honest, recognizing that you do have a problem. All progress counts, including your Friday night progress.

Kepp coming, keep posting, and you will make progress. For me, it is often like keeping a journal, with feeback on my thoughts. It can be a longer learning experience for many, but as long as you keep coming back, ask for help in solving your barriers, you will succeed, your own way.

[kriger]

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Thanks for your support Dee and Sunbeam,
I am anxiously awaiting my Kudzu; I am somewhat afraid of the side affects of Topa. Today I took what supplements I have and I feel better. I am drinking but Lighter than I did last week because of all of you. Sat I would usually be pretty drunk by now but I have only had 2 beers and it is almost 7pm here. I feel that is a triumph, in an of itself! I am striving to not beat myself up and realize this is a journey that will have many bumps in the road. I will keep talking to all of you and I will make it back to how I felt a couple of days ago- hopeful. Thanks again for being in my corner; I am with you too!!
Kriger

[gyco]

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dont be so hard on yourself you did the rt thing and at least told someone,as far as the pitypot,everyone needs to feel sorry for themselves once in a while,keep ritin and youll be fine good luck to you gyco

[Dazedandconfoosed]

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Kriger, keep on rocking. You can do it. Everyday push and push but when you collapse dont let the guilt get to you. Just remember that the farther you push today the less you have to push tomorrow. Eventually we will just be maintaining instead of pushing. Then finally it will all be a bad memory of "What the hell were we thinking?" Atleast that is my hope.

[vera-b]

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Kriger,

Wasn't on yesterday as just ran out of time. Sorry to hear you had a rough night. The worst thing you can do at this point is to say to yourself, "well, I've already blown it, so no sense in trying to control anything now." That's a lie we tell ourselves when we don't want to really tackle our issues. Dieters who can't resist a piece of cake use the same twisted logic to eat the whole bloomin' cake. That just keeps the destructive cycle going, and the whole point here is to get OFF that treadmill.

You've been given some good advice re: meds and supps. My Dr. prescribed Campral for me, and it does help considerably with the physical cravings. And when we can calm the body, we're free to get busy with the head which generally proves to be a greater challenge. It was for me, and that's where the cd's and this site come to the rescue

So, dust yourself off and get back on the healthy horse. You have nothing to lose but a booze-addled life which is far from living. We're in your corner, as we know you would be for each of us. Thank the creator of the universe that he gives us another day to "get it." Take care.

V.

[kriger]

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Thanks to all who have give such good advice. My excuses have been that I don't have all the tools. That is just a big fat excuse and I know it. I can say, in my defense, that I am doing better than a week ago so for that I am grateful. I know this is a long journey and I am feeling truly hopeful even though I am drinking beer right now. I went all day without a drop-drinking water. I started with beer at 6pm. That is a triumph and I will be going to bed soon to be ready for Monday and hopeful that I will feel great tomorrow for not swilling 15-18 beers. My husband is beginning to realize that I am doing something different- he sees me not drinking as I once did and having control throughout the day and he also sees the supplements I am purchasing. He asked me what was going on and I told him I would tell him all about it. At the time was had a house full of people and now he is passed out on the couch. I need to tell him all about this program and the people I have met on this site, but I need to do it when he can comprehend-sober. I plan to tell him all about it tomorrow. Love you guys. Thanks! Sleep well everyone. kriger

[Carmac]

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Kriger -

Keep trying.....I know because I too slipped major this weekend abd just plain HATE it. I have restarted Antabuse and have to get a handle on this. But you are right, this is a great site.

Good luck!

[lunasoft]

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Hello,
I'm new here and I am always vulnarble when i'm posting. Woke up this moring feeling great, then I started coughing and the nausea set in, then the shakes, so when I got home a made a drink and then logged on here. Of coarse I feel good now, you all know how it is but i'm going to try and have only 3 more drinks tonight. I have it bad and know how you feel. We just have to keep on trying.

Lunasoft

[Readyornot]

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To misquote some very wise person..."The longest journey begins with the first step" :l

[vera-b]

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Welcome Luna,

Just logged on, so ignore me if you've already done this; but why don't you start a thread and tell us a little about yourself? From your brief post it sounds like you are facing physical withdrawal, and there are plenty of people here who have been through it as well. Their advice and guidance would be so helpful. Hoping you stick around . . .

V.

[kriger]

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Thanks Luna, India and Ready,
I'm going to get back on the horse, but I seem to be dragging my feet. I went home for lunch and had three beers. I brushed my teeth really good and I'm back at work. Sick, huh? What am I doing to myself? I feel as tho I am missing out on so much of my life worrying about keeping my frig stocked with beer. What a sad existence, indeed! My husband and I are two peas in a pod, so to speak. We enable each other- and we are very, very good at it- 27 years of marriage ( all but 7 years drinking). My business is going to hell because I don't have the energy for it. I will beat this if its the last thing I do!!! Thanks to everyone for your kind words. Kriger

[michou]

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michou

Hi everyone:


Just need to know if Kudzu really work? Can you find it in any Herbal store in USA or Canada...Thank's Michou...

[cuckoosnest83]

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Michou, I found that the kudzu helped but not sure if you can find it at any herb store. They have it at The Vitamin Shoppe which is located throughout the US (I believe) or you can order it on line.

Good luck.

Cucks