Monday Misery

[lunasoft]

:new:Hi everybody,

Well overdid it again of Saturday and Sunday. I woke up today feeling really tired and not motivated at all. Wanted to have a morning greyhound just so I wouldn't feel like crap all day but decided to suffer through it. It's amazing how one little drink can start your day off right or so I tell myself. Anyway I don't drink in the morning during the the week as much as I would love too, suffer during the day, and can't wait to get home just to have the first drink. It calms my stomache down, relaxes me and I tell myself this but it calms my mind so I'm not thinking about drinking anymore or how bad I feel or anything. At this point my creative mind takes hold and I do things an write and look for help and work out and all that stuff. But without that drink all I want to do is sleep so I'm not so miserable. I know this is a feel good site but here I feel I can say what I'm feeling and not be judged. Now here in lays the problem, I say I'll have a couple but then start feeling really good and tell myself hey I have no problem, I feel great, I'm doing things so what the hell. I keep on until my wife an kid are asleep and I can relax an watch tv or play a game and have that last one so I can have a restful nights sleep. Does this sound familiar or I'm I so far gone that I can't change? How have any of you broken the pattern? I feel great when I'm buzzed, not drunk, but feeling good. I don't want to quit drinking but I do want to get back to that place where I didn't need it but would enjoy it. Any feedback would be great. Thanks all for listening.

Lunasoft

[kriger]

Monday Misery

Luna,
Welcome! I did the same thing this past weekend. I have been on this site for about 5-6 days and one thing I did differently this weekend was to start drinking late in the day-6pm. I felt great all day and was "present" to be able to actually get some things done. Last night I seemed to be wanting to make up for lost time or something.

Most of us have been in your shoes and you are not "too far gone" at all. The restful sleep part is one of reasons I am having trouble quitting. You may find, as I did, that by listening to those on this site certain ideas and suggestions will "click" for you and some will not. Did you buy the book and read it yet? It is a good idea to read the story and get the program figured out. Do you think you will be taking any medication? I am not, as yet, but I feel I really need something for the cravings. The people on this site become fast, caring friend in a matter of minutes, almost. No one is judgemental- I even posted over the weekend when I was pretty sloshed and told everyone what condition I was in. It is wonderful to have such an outpouring of support. I will be right here for a very long time, even if I feel as though I am in control. Good to have you here and I look forward to your posts! Kriger

[Guest]

Monday Misery

Hi Luna,

I truly believe that none of us are "too far gone"..as long as we are alive, it's never to late to try to make a change. And the change is hard, normally filled with lots of set backs, but they do eventually make you more determined. It may happen slowly, but try not to think that it's something that happens over night. I personally never got this way over-night, so I don't expect the change to happen that fast either. There are many people here all willing to help, and all in various stages or recovery. Some are just starting, some have been sober for a couple years now..(congrats IrishLady once again..xoxox), but it is a journey. Have you looked at any of the supps yet? Kudzu is a wonderful aide, and it does help a lot, there is also L-Glut as well. I wish you all the best.

[vera-b]

Monday Misery

Welcome Luna,

From what you have written, it sounds like you have a pretty strong physical addiction to the alcohol beast as well as the mental cravings. I would suggest, as others have when similar posts have been written, that you make an appointment to see you doctor. Your Dr. will help you through the physical withdrawal stages which may include specific medication for withdrawal symptoms. From there, perhaps the best place to start is by reading posts on this site as well as RJ's book which fully describes her program. I echo everyone's thoughts - no one is too far gone if they have a pulse. Start this journey, it is so very rewarding. We're pulling for you1

V.

[lunasoft]

Monday Misery

Thanks to all

:thanks: Thank you for all the support. Like I have said in other posts my Wife is a Doctor of Oriental Medicine. She has herbs, acupuncture and all the stuff I need to get better, but I don't like the power she has over me and in my stubborn ways don't always follow her care instructions till I'm to the point of begging for help which I hate. I refuse to see a western doctor for fear of everything else that might be wrong and getting on meds that cause more crap. A suggestion to all try a DOM to help because it does work if you actually do what your Doctor says. I have ego issues I need to clear up with my DOM for all you others it is worth a shot.

Luna:h

[louise]

Monday Misery

There are several people on here that have detoxed at home safely with meds for only 3-4 days. You might try asking them for help. There are also a few who managed to taper down, but that seems to be a lot harder. How about a dr. who is not your wife?