(I originally posted this thread in another forum but decided it was better suited to this one. So, here it is again.)
I've never posted anything before but have been have spent a lot of time reading other people's for about 3 months, going back and forth thinking I will be OK to thinking that I really need some help. Like many other people, I started drinking in high school and continued into college and graduate school. But, I didn't drink anymore than anyone else and actually less than most of my friends. However, most of them seemed to have "outgrown" the drinking as they have begun to have careers and families while my drinking has continued and increased greatly. It is ironic because I have a wonderful husband and two girls and while we have the typical stresses over finances, etc, our life is wonderful. I have a loving and very involved extended family as well. Really, I have no reason to drink. But, my drinking has increased greatly over the last 5 years to the point where I drink a 1/2 to 1 bottle of wine a day. I still function and don't usually get to the point where I "feel drunk" and out of control b/c my tolerance is so high but I do know it is affecting me and my family in terms of my energy level and patience. I also know it's not healthy and, while I am not overweight, I weigh 10 lbs more than I would like to because of the wine. I have begun drinking during the day and "hide" my wine in a regular glass so it is not obvious to my children that I am drinking. However, they know enough to ask what I am drinking before asking if they can have a sip of something so I guess I'm not "hiding" it very well. My daughters are 6 and 9 and I really want them to have a healthy attitude about drinking before they enter their teens and young adulthood but I know that I am not being a good role model for them right now. But, I just can't seem to stop. Also, I did not mention that I am a school counselor and while I know in my heart that drinking problems do not discriminate, my head believes that I should "know better" and be able to handle this. I really think I can get to the point of moderation but I can't seem to get any AF days under my belt, even if it's just one glass of wine. I downloaded the MYO book and tried the L-glut and Kudzu sporadically but have not noticed any difference in the cravings. Do they have to build up in your system? I know there is no magic answer but any insight or support that I can get here would be very appreciated. Thank you for listening!
I've never posted anything before but have been have spent a lot of time reading other people's for about 3 months, going back and forth thinking I will be OK to thinking that I really need some help. Like many other people, I started drinking in high school and continued into college and graduate school. But, I didn't drink anymore than anyone else and actually less than most of my friends. However, most of them seemed to have "outgrown" the drinking as they have begun to have careers and families while my drinking has continued and increased greatly. It is ironic because I have a wonderful husband and two girls and while we have the typical stresses over finances, etc, our life is wonderful. I have a loving and very involved extended family as well. Really, I have no reason to drink. But, my drinking has increased greatly over the last 5 years to the point where I drink a 1/2 to 1 bottle of wine a day. I still function and don't usually get to the point where I "feel drunk" and out of control b/c my tolerance is so high but I do know it is affecting me and my family in terms of my energy level and patience. I also know it's not healthy and, while I am not overweight, I weigh 10 lbs more than I would like to because of the wine. I have begun drinking during the day and "hide" my wine in a regular glass so it is not obvious to my children that I am drinking. However, they know enough to ask what I am drinking before asking if they can have a sip of something so I guess I'm not "hiding" it very well. My daughters are 6 and 9 and I really want them to have a healthy attitude about drinking before they enter their teens and young adulthood but I know that I am not being a good role model for them right now. But, I just can't seem to stop. Also, I did not mention that I am a school counselor and while I know in my heart that drinking problems do not discriminate, my head believes that I should "know better" and be able to handle this. I really think I can get to the point of moderation but I can't seem to get any AF days under my belt, even if it's just one glass of wine. I downloaded the MYO book and tried the L-glut and Kudzu sporadically but have not noticed any difference in the cravings. Do they have to build up in your system? I know there is no magic answer but any insight or support that I can get here would be very appreciated. Thank you for listening!
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