veteran of multiple rehabs

[Glen]

Hi, My first time logging on, and my first post. I have been reading some of the posts. First impression: - My God! I?m not the only one suffering because of alcohol. I was feeling sorry for myself. Still am. Maybe not quite as much tho. I?ve been drinking for 10years. Started drinking at age 33. At 33 years I had loving wife, house, kids and a good job paying $ 100 plus. Family, Friends, money, all gone now. Just me and my cask of wine. Well I don?t even have a cask of wine and have been sober for two days now? As I savetaged my drinking by running myself out of money by paying one of my many bills. It seems the only way to stop at the moment is if I have no money to buy alcohol. Well, at lest it?s a start. I?m a veteran of multiple rehabs, detoxies, AA, online groups etc. I haven?t given up yet. Maybe this group can be a start. Maybe tomorrow will seem a little bit better than today. Maybe slowly but surely I can start digging myself out of the hole I have got myself into.

[Cinders]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Glen,

:welcome:

I know how hard and frustrating it is. I, too, failed fabulously after rehab last year. I relapsed again this Spring.

One thing I do know for sure is that giving up is not an option. The only failure would be giving up.

I would read the MWO book (you can download it for $13) and see what you think.

You are also more than welcome to keep posting and reading and learning.

There are many different paths on this website and no one condemns another.

I am a stubborn cuss, and very weak minded when it comes to caving, so I have chosen the Antabuse route. I hate it in some ways and I love it in others.

But, it does keep me sober.

However, others use Topamax, as recommended by RJ and do wonderfully on it.

Many just use the supplements and do wonderfully.

I hope and pray you find Your Way Out. Just keep trying.

Cindi

[Boss.man]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Welcome Glen!

As a veteran of multiple rehabs, you know the true answer will come from inside.

But for now, enjoy the forum. You'll find there are many here willing to chat and share experience, and amazingly, some who are far more experienced than you are.

[Nurseindistress]

veteran of multiple rehabs

I hope this site helps you. I think it is helping me. I, too, am trying to pull my life back together and I'm hoping that each day I don't drink I will get a little of "myself" back. It is hard at first, because we all have some self-loathing because of our drinking. We have got to do this though, because if we don't--what is next? More misery.You can do this. Don't just stop because you don't have the money--stop to make your life better! Good luck.

[vera-b]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Welcome Glen,

We've all triumphed and failed more times than we'd like to admit. Sounds like you've had your share of challenges, but there is always a way out. Was reading about a local guy today who's with the Peace Corps in Malawi (he's 40-something, not an idealistic kid just out of school). To hear what he's doing with citizens of a nation that have next to nothing and who work daily just to survive puts my piddlin' issues into stark perspective. There's always someone with less.

My hat's off to you for putting your sobriety at the top of your to-do list. We just can't wade through life drunk. Just doesn't work, no matter who we're kidding. Cindi is a great inspiration for so many of us. She's right - the answer comes from within us. So welcome - hope you read RJ's book and can avail yourself of as much of the program as you can. We'll help you dig your way up. Just be ready to turn and help someone else - it's a big family here.

V.

[Glen]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Thanks for all the encouragement. I think I’m going to like it here. As for the book, I had a look and it’s not at my local Library. Will buy the book as soon as I am able. I’d never heard of it before today. It would be good for me to start reading some positive stuff. Thanks all

[lorisunshine]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Hello Glen
and :welcome: to MWO.
A lot of us came here hopeless and in very poor shape.
Please stick around. You have come to join a really great bunch of people from all around the globe and no, you are not alone in your misery. There is a lot of non-judgemental support here and by the way, you can download the book right from this website.

Please read as many posts as you will have time for. There is great advise in them and also the knowledge that you are amongst people who understand your pain.
Way to go on your 2 days AF. It is a positive start. Also try chat, if you need someone to talk to, instead of reaching for that drink.

Again welcome and I wish you all the luck in the world on your journey.
Lori:h

[MyHeartIsDrenchedInWine]

veteran of multiple rehabs

preserverance Glen :l

[Dazedandconfoosed]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Keep it up!

[okydoky]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Hey Dazed!
How are you??????
Are you in rehab????

[Dazedandconfoosed]

veteran of multiple rehabs

No, not in rehab yet. No drinking though. My health went down hill and I have been trying to recover from that first. I was able to get out of bed today for the first time and am feeling stronger. This aint my thread though.

Glen, keep fighting bro, you can and will do it.

[Glen]

veteran of multiple rehabs

update

I?ve been reading through this thread I?d started. I identify with ?self loathing? and someone mentioned lack of control. Sometimes I feel like alcohol say ?jump? and I say how high. Dazedandconfoosed, I don?t mind you posting. This is my 3rd ???? day AF, and I could really relate to not being able to get out of bed. When sober I am tidy and have a lovely place. I had been binging for about 3 mouths now and have done nothing except drink and going up the road to get more. So my place is a real mess. I have occasionally had 3 days sober during that time, in which on the 3rd day I would have a shower and shave my beard and do a much-needed load of washing. Then go back to bed and watch T.V. or fantasise about an imaginary life.

[Dolly Sunshine]

veteran of multiple rehabs

You can have that life. If you can do three days then the worst of the physical stuff is coming to an end. It's the mental. No one wants to be a drunk. No one. You can be that sober person. It's hard. Sometimes it's still hard for me. But it doable.

[WA]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Glen,
Hi and welcome you have found a great place to be,stick with it as its so worth it,just sending a little support from this end.
Jacs x

[hulagirl]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Welcome Glen, Yes, you can dig yourself out this hole. You sound depressed and guess what...alcohol is a depressant. I certainly can't explain why we do this to ourselves. You're on the right road coming here to get started. Hope to see you around.