veteran of multiple rehabs

[Dolly Sunshine]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Glen if you can do 5 days you can do it! You truly have to believe in yourself. After 5 days the worst physical stuff is over. You just need to find some help with the mental. Stick around this place is a blessing for that.

[Glen]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Update

Well I?ve finished of the cask of wine and feeling like I?ve sold myself short. I have to believe I can do it. I shouldn?t give in so easily. My goal is to not buy any alcohol next Tuesday. I need to prepare myself mentally for this.

Thanks for all the good advice. As for going to the doctor and buying supplements, I will do it as soon as I am able. I only get $ 114 after rent and Child Support are taken out. Out of which I have to pay power, phone, Internet and food. I am behind on all my bills. I still owe the doctor $ 40 from my last visit. My internet and phone was disconnected last night due being in debit. I managed to get it unsuspended by promising to pay it next Tuesday.

Things will get better so long as I stay AF.
Thanks for the support

[Evie.Lou]

veteran of multiple rehabs

ALCOHOL IS A VERY BIG THIEF AND LIAR...Death To AL!!!!!!

[Glen]

veteran of multiple rehabs

update

4th day AF. I managed to make a significant dent in tidying my unit yesterday. Which makes me feel good, as it has been a long time coming. You can now see my kitchen bench. Today I hope to sweep and mop the floors (3 months worth of dirt). Nothing much is happening except trying to improve a little on the day before. I have been logging on here about three or four times a day. I can see small improvements, which is encouraging.

[Glen]

veteran of multiple rehabs

I'm back

Hi I?m back,

To briefly fill in the gap since my last post: - I managed to book myself into detox and then a treatment centre in which I made some good progress. That is until I had a day leave. I had done to much exercise prior to leaving on my day-leave and neglected to tack some lunch with me. The result of which was that I was hungry and tired when I returned to the treatment centre. It took about three hours before I could handle the craving no more and discharged myself just before new years. I stoped drinking on the 4th of January and have been making positive changes in my life.

Things are looking good at the moment and I am quietly hopeful about my future.

[peacenik]

veteran of multiple rehabs

keep checking in glenn, there is a reason you came back!

peace!

[hulagirl]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Welcome back Glenn. Sometimes it takes a couple of false starts. I guess it might be considered "practice". Keep hanging around here.

[Glen]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Thanks for the encouragement. Things are going well so far. I feel a lot healthier physically and mentally. After reading here about how alcoholics are quite often hypoglycaemic or diabetic, I was prompted to mention this to my doctor. I told her how, for me, being hungry and tired was a huge trigger. She ordered a blood test, to test for glucose tolerance. I had to fast for ten hours before the test. They then took a sample of blood prior to giving me a drink loaded with lots of glucose. Once the glucose kicked on I was relaxed, happy, my brain sharp and I felt a little lightheaded. After two hours (after having the drink) I had a head ace, felt woozy, apprehensive, impaired brain function etc. It was interesting to me that over the two hours my experience was similar to being drunk.

It will be interested to get the results back.

[Glen]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Thanks for the encouragement. Things are going well so far. I feel a lot healthier physically and mentally. After reading here about how alcoholics are quite often hypoglycaemic or diabetic, I was prompted to mention this to my doctor. I told her how, for me, being hungry and tired was a huge trigger. She ordered a blood test, to test for glucose tolerance. I had to fast for ten hours before the test. They then took a sample of blood prior to giving me a drink loaded with lots of glucose. Once the glucose kicked in I was relaxed, happy, my brain sharp and I felt a little lightheaded. After two hours (after having the drink) I had a head ace, felt woozy, apprehensive, impaired brain function etc. It was interesting to me that over the two hours my experience was similar to being drunk.

It will be interested to get the results back.

[Glen]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Well the test results showed that everything was normal. So I guess for me it’s about being aware that my body dose not respond well to sugar hits! And that I need to eat regular healthy meals. I guess that’s good advice for anybody.

[gyco]

veteran of multiple rehabs

hi glen , welcome i to have gone thro rehab to, a couple of people i met had been also thro several times, I'm not trying a tuff role,but what didnt you get,the guy i got close to it was his 3rd time, heck of a good guy,we ed been there several weeks and the councillors said the same B what dont you get, we had a AA meeting one night and i found the problem him like me were getting old, couldn't stay awake to listen, that was his problem i laughed he was a bit hurt but kinda laffed to,this is for you,think i submitted b4,an autobiography in 5 short chapters i walk down the street,there is a deep hole,i fall in i am lost,i am helpless,it isn't my fault,it takes forever to get out 2 i walk down the same street.there is a deep hole in the side walk,i pretend i dont see it,i fall in a gain,i cant beleive im in the same place,but it isn't my fault,it still takes a long time to get out. 3 i walk down the same street,there is a deep hole in the side walk,i see it there,i still fall in,its a habit,my eyes are open,i no where i am,it is my fault,i get out immediately 4 i walk down the same street,there is a deep hole in the side walk,i walk around it 5 i walk down another street, i wish you well have a great weekend gyco

[Glen]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Thanks for that Gyco. I like the end part ? i walk down another street?. Not quite their yet. But haven?t given up. I really feel that the pressure is on to break my drinking habit now as the longer I procrastinate the less likely it will be that I will ever be able to stop. I know quite a few old alcoholics who have passed the point of no return. That scare?s me!:alf:

[matthen]

veteran of multiple rehabs

Hi Glen -- what you said about "old alcoholics passing the point or no return" is a scary thought. Like you, I have been drinking for years. Right now I am sober since May and hoping I stay that way.

I want to be sober because drinking ate up the last 9 years of my life (or last 40 years depending on how you count the good and bad times). In the last 9 years AL really was the primary force in my life. While I drifted into alcoholic I lost friends, confidence, joy and replaced them with depression, sickness, anxieties.

At this point in my life, the fear of being sick for the rest of my life and finally dying old, alone and drunk is terrifying. Being sober for me, is a slog. I seem to learn how to interact with myself and the world just one step at a time.

Sober is not always happy; but sober gives me a fighting chance to make the next day or hour better. I hope that you find life getting better and better. I think it is worth the fight and I so understand what you have been through. I hope that we can continue to help each other. Good luck and God bless.