Hi, I've been drinking forever, at l am 56, drinking was a part of family life since I was born. Dad was handed a drink from Mom when he got home from work "Welcome home, darling". They would toast, have a couple of drinks, work over...fun begins.
Although in college a drank a bit. A 1/5th of booze would last a couple months. In fact, back then, pot was the drug of choice. But in my 20's AL came into my life with an addicted physically and emotionally abusive, actively homosexual, husband. I left, but the booze didn't. I felt I had a right after all I had been through.
I had money so bottom was a long way to fall.
There is a lot of story from then till now. In the last 10 years I have been drinking in the evening till I 'fall asleep' with a few reprieves. I won't remember going to bed or if I brushed my teeth.
I mentioned I had money. But I got caught in the real estate crunch speculating. SW Florida got hit especially hard.
I am 56, in the process of losing my home, but moved to one of the spec condos in an area that is not highly populated. I don't know anyone.
I have been hit with financial blow after another. I've known this was coming for a long time as I watched the ecomomy unfold. Everyone said get a job, do this, do that. And, I am thinking how can I? I have tried to stop drinking, I will stop, get very active and motivated, three weeks would be tops. I, in a zombie like state, watching myself make my way to the liquor store just when I was feeling great.
Last Wednesday I had another deep blow and admitted to my financial advisor who said 'get a job'. Easy for her to say. I admitted my problem. She already knew, and I knew she knew. Turned out her Father had gone though thisl I promised her I would go to an AA meeting before I saw her next. (which is this Friday).
I went to AA and couldn't stand it 16 years ago. But that is a whole different topic
That night I was with a friend who amazingly drinks maybe one beer a week. He offered me a beer and over a couple hours I drank half.
I had mentioned to the advisor my issue with AA is the 12 steps and was aware there were other programs that were not 12 step. I went on to the computer till 3am looking...and found this site. I have been on it reading a lot. I can relate to sooo many stories.
Finishing up, I haven't had a drink since Wednesday last week and it is Monday. I was drinking over a half a bottle of vodka a day. Sometimes I realized I had a fifth in a 24 hour period.
I am going to an AA meeting tomorrow evening. I am leary. But, I promised. I am more hopeful with this.
I have to get work, and in a time where here, it is very difficult. But, all that is moot, good economy or bad, if I have to drink.
Glad to have found you. Elfin
Although in college a drank a bit. A 1/5th of booze would last a couple months. In fact, back then, pot was the drug of choice. But in my 20's AL came into my life with an addicted physically and emotionally abusive, actively homosexual, husband. I left, but the booze didn't. I felt I had a right after all I had been through.
I had money so bottom was a long way to fall.
There is a lot of story from then till now. In the last 10 years I have been drinking in the evening till I 'fall asleep' with a few reprieves. I won't remember going to bed or if I brushed my teeth.
I mentioned I had money. But I got caught in the real estate crunch speculating. SW Florida got hit especially hard.
I am 56, in the process of losing my home, but moved to one of the spec condos in an area that is not highly populated. I don't know anyone.
I have been hit with financial blow after another. I've known this was coming for a long time as I watched the ecomomy unfold. Everyone said get a job, do this, do that. And, I am thinking how can I? I have tried to stop drinking, I will stop, get very active and motivated, three weeks would be tops. I, in a zombie like state, watching myself make my way to the liquor store just when I was feeling great.
Last Wednesday I had another deep blow and admitted to my financial advisor who said 'get a job'. Easy for her to say. I admitted my problem. She already knew, and I knew she knew. Turned out her Father had gone though thisl I promised her I would go to an AA meeting before I saw her next. (which is this Friday).
I went to AA and couldn't stand it 16 years ago. But that is a whole different topic
That night I was with a friend who amazingly drinks maybe one beer a week. He offered me a beer and over a couple hours I drank half.
I had mentioned to the advisor my issue with AA is the 12 steps and was aware there were other programs that were not 12 step. I went on to the computer till 3am looking...and found this site. I have been on it reading a lot. I can relate to sooo many stories.
Finishing up, I haven't had a drink since Wednesday last week and it is Monday. I was drinking over a half a bottle of vodka a day. Sometimes I realized I had a fifth in a 24 hour period.
I am going to an AA meeting tomorrow evening. I am leary. But, I promised. I am more hopeful with this.
I have to get work, and in a time where here, it is very difficult. But, all that is moot, good economy or bad, if I have to drink.
Glad to have found you. Elfin
Elfin......your where you need to be ! Welcome. IAD.
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