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    Day One for me.....

    Feeling really good this morning. Dumped out what was left of any wine or beer in the house. My husband and I are both quitting today. I told him I wanted to do the 30 days AF with help on this site. He said let's shoot for 60! Yay!

    I have to admit though, I'm really scared. I've come to really look forward to getting drunk every night, despite how crappy I feel the next day. And despite how much I miss out on with my kids. I still can't believe I let myself turn into this. I didn't really start drinking heavily until after I had kids. I'm just so stressed out all the time juggling my career, motherhood, finances, after school activities with kids, it just takes it's toll. So now, instead of drinking myself to sleep every night, i'm just going to go to bed the same time as kids. Hopefully that will help....

    So, I found a poem I wrote about my dad when I was 15 years old. I thought it quite ironic that I'm now struggling myself. I never want my kids to grow up praying to God that their parents weren't drunk every night!!

    "It"
    It made him happy,
    then made him sad.
    It was dark and mysterious,
    yet sometimes very bright.
    It called his name every day,
    controlled his every action.
    It was his whole life,
    his reason to live.
    It was his love, his passion, his security,
    his best friend.
    But, it deceived him.
    It gave his Diabetes.
    It took away his family.
    It filled him with lies, anger, frustration.
    But his must still have faith in it,
    because he buys a new bottle of It everyday.

    My dad died of heart disease a few years after I wrote this, at age 51. If that isn't one of the biggest reasons for me to quit, I don't know what is?!

    Have a great day everyone!

    #2
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    thats aswesome best of luck to you both.. you can do this..stay strong and think positive
    :beach: life does change as long as you are willing to change yourself ..
    best thing about the future it comes one day at a time..

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      #3
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      WOW, Angel - your poem shows a lot of maturity for 15. Shows you really understood the effects of drinking... I don't think I realized until it happened to ME.
      Sometimes you have to take the leap and build your wings on the way down... Anais Nin

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        #4
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        Angel, your poem is very powerful, thank you for sharing it.
        I don't think any of our parents wanted this to happen to them either, it's not that they didn't want to quit - they just couldn't. I feel so very lucky to have My Way Out, just look at how many people it has helped. I hope you find it a source strength and hope as well!
        Love, River:l
        You, as much as anyone in the universe, deserve your love and respect. ~ Buddha

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          #5
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          Good luck on your journey! I started yesterday and I am scared as well. That's wonderful that your husband is so supportive!

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            #6
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            Welcome, Angel....

            I'm so glad you and your husband are quitting together....

            Use this site....read and post.....there are a lot of great people here to help you....

            You are giving your kids a great gift....sober parents.

            Don

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              #7
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              Hi Angel :welcome:

              I think it's great your husband is with you on this. Have you read My Way Out?

              Thank you for posting your poem. It really does say alot.

              Best wishes.
              _______________
              NF since June 1, 2008
              AF since September 28, 2008
              DrunkFree since June 1, 2008
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              :wings: In memory of MDbiker aka Bear.
              5/4/2010 In loving memory of MaryAnne. I pray you've found peace my friend.
              _______________
              The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.ray:

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                #8
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                Wow Angel - that poem really strikes a chord for some reason. Looking forward to the nightly wine but knowing we will feel crappy because of it. Knowing what your dad went through and what happened and how you felt about it at 15yo, but still looking forward to the nightly drink....... The human mind is an incredible thing!!! The incentive to quit is so strong - and having both you and your hubby in on it - I beliee you both can do it!!!
                xoxo Peanut

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                  #9
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                  Welcome Angel!

                  Good Luck and kudos to your husband as well!

                  Keep the Faith,
                  Guy
                  "I've done it. I don't need to drink anymore. I'm free!"-Jason Vale

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