I came across your site in recent weeks when I decided I needed to stop drinking. I've ALWAYS been a drinker. I'm a full time working married mom of 2. Prior to the kids, I was young, and partied alot. Then I had the kids, and partied after I had the first one, but got pregnant with the 2nd and hardly drank at all (he's almost 4) until about a year and a half ago.
My grandmother, who was like my mom to me (my own mom died when I was 17) passed away unexpectedly the day before Easter. I can't really justify using her death as an "excuse" but I can tell you, I have gotten worse and worse since she died. I drink every single day. Beer only, but anywhere from 6-15 of Bud Lights.
I've tried to convince myself I don't have a "problem" -- I don't think about drinking right when I wake up, I usually don't start until around 7-8pm when the kids are getting ready for bed, I was just "stressed" and it helped. But it has gotten way out of control. I have noticed myself snapping at my husband and my kids for no reason at all, feeling like total crap in the mornings, and slipping at work.
I chose Sept 2nd as my start day because that was the first day of my daughter going to kindergarten - a very big day for her. I figured I owe it to her that her mom gets her ass in gear, and what better day to start than on her big day too?
I finally admitted to my husband, who obviously already knew, that I had a drinking problem, and I was going to try and stop, and I needed some help, but AA doesn't really seem to be the thing for me, and he's very encouraging. He's not a drinker at all. Maybe a couple of beers on Christmas or something, but that's it. So at least I'm not living with an enabler.
Yesterday was easy - I was beyond hungover. Today I feel great because I slept awesome and didn't wake up hungover. It's a nice feeling. I don't know yet how the rest is going to go, but I'm commited to at least 30 days.
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My grandmother, who was like my mom to me (my own mom died when I was 17) passed away unexpectedly the day before Easter. I can't really justify using her death as an "excuse" but I can tell you, I have gotten worse and worse since she died. I drink every single day. Beer only, but anywhere from 6-15 of Bud Lights.
I've tried to convince myself I don't have a "problem" -- I don't think about drinking right when I wake up, I usually don't start until around 7-8pm when the kids are getting ready for bed, I was just "stressed" and it helped. But it has gotten way out of control. I have noticed myself snapping at my husband and my kids for no reason at all, feeling like total crap in the mornings, and slipping at work.
I chose Sept 2nd as my start day because that was the first day of my daughter going to kindergarten - a very big day for her. I figured I owe it to her that her mom gets her ass in gear, and what better day to start than on her big day too?
I finally admitted to my husband, who obviously already knew, that I had a drinking problem, and I was going to try and stop, and I needed some help, but AA doesn't really seem to be the thing for me, and he's very encouraging. He's not a drinker at all. Maybe a couple of beers on Christmas or something, but that's it. So at least I'm not living with an enabler.
Yesterday was easy - I was beyond hungover. Today I feel great because I slept awesome and didn't wake up hungover. It's a nice feeling. I don't know yet how the rest is going to go, but I'm commited to at least 30 days.
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