I usually post tons on the daily AF Army thread but really feel I cant anymore.
I had an abortion on Tuesday. It was under 9 weeks, so they gave me a pill, then I went back yesterdayy for another pill and to make sure everything was "alright".
Been drinking heavily. I only drink wine, so I got through 4 bottles yesterday.
Cheap stuff of course.. cos I need molney for my son, my dogs and also my smoking habit.
Went out for a drive last night.
Bad decision.
Also told my fiance to "get the fuck out" apparently... even though I cant remember saying it.
My son is none the wiser, but Im drinking heavy again... onto my third bottle of wine... feel empty inside. I KNOW the wine isnt helping, but I CANT HELP BUT DRINK the sodding stuff.
Had my mum in tears on the phone this morning cos my aunty has died this morning.. cancer... she was only 54. Didnt klnow whast to say... I really liked my Aunty V.. and now she's gone.
Life is fucking tough at the minute. Im typing this while my other half is preparing dinner... cos I cant.
USE~LESS.
Sorry for harping on
Comment