I realized that I am alone..

[savon19]

TRULY alone.

That is hard to understand.

It's not just that my boyfriend died June 23rd (OK - that was BIG), but I really have no one else. My brother Pretends (and is good at it) that he cares...

But no one really does.

I could die tonight & no one would find me for days... My poor cat! I hope she won't have to eat me. I don't think she would. No, she would Starve.

OH great.

I'm more than dismal. Nothing makes sense anymore to me. I can't kill myself for various reasons... Noooo, I have to live this.

Good night all.

[Helpwanted08]

I realized that I am alone..

Saveon19
REmember you have all your friends here for support. I am so sorry about your boyfriend, that is a HUGE loss. PLease pm me anytime. I know we do not know each other but I can offer support and comfort for you. Please keep your chin up and cuddle with your cat. I know my dogs can make me feel very loved when I need that. I will keep you in my prayers.
HW

[vera-b]

I realized that I am alone..

Hi Savon,

Your pain is palpable. I am so sorry you feel so very alone. Even though you feel like no one is there, I don't think the creator of the universe would let his beloved be truly alone - he's there with you. And, of course, there's all of us who care as well. You're not just another person looking for help with AL, you're Savon and you're special. What brought on this overwhelming feeling tonight? Your boyfriend's death must have been extraordinarily difficult for you, and it's natural to be grief stricken. You're likely still raw with emotion from it all. what can we do to help? Hang in there - there are plenty of people who care.

Vera-b

[Ripple]

I realized that I am alone..

Savon...have you ever gone to AA? You will never feel alone again going there... Meetings are 7 days a week...People helping people. Please check it out. There is no need to be alone. Have a coffee and listen to others in the same situation. someone out there needs you .... as well as another could comfort you. :l

Rip...

[dexterhead]

I realized that I am alone..

Hey Savon. I am so sorry about what you are going through. That is very fresh grief. Oh, my lord, I hope you can get some support, counseling, to help you through this??? I am sorry if that sounds trite.
I'm very much alone too and sometimes it is hard to hear about the lives of most of the members here who are married or have significant others.

I've thought those particular awful thoughts too.

My bumbling words are not helping a bit I'm sure, but you have a lot of support here ... thinking of you my friend:l:l

[Zeppie2]

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Hello Savon,

What a sad thing to have to go through, as Helpwanted said please know that you have friends here on this site. Have you looked at our AF Army thread, there is always someone on there that you can talk to, anytime day or night.

Please stay strong

[Seacailin]

I realized that I am alone..

Dear Savon,
I am so sorry that you are feeling so alone, believe me, I know the feeling. I dragged myself to an AA meeting tonight. I don't particularly love to go, but I cannot sit alone in this house lost inside my crazy head. Please feel free to pm me. You are important to us here. Please let us know how you are:l

[Ripple]

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Right on SEA!!! i have so many friends now at AA i even go to partys at their homes... they give a list of numbers to call anyone .... anytime..

Savon ... hook up with some from here. get some phone numbers and talk to someone.

Hope you feel better. :l

[lucky 2.0]

I realized that I am alone..

Savon,

I care. I am sorry for your pain. I get it.

[brittzak]

I realized that I am alone..

Savon
I so understand your sadness right now. Hang in there. Keep coming here and posting. There are many good people here that do care. TRULY care!

[Going Strong]

I realized that I am alone..

Savon,
Been there and have done that. Believe me me that all the people here care about you. I so know what you are talking about! I even have trouble contributing to posts because I feel that no one would want to listen to me but JUST do it and it will get better.
Take Care

[Going Strong]

I realized that I am alone..

Sorry Savon,
I just meant to take small steps, even baby steps.
one step at a time!

[Going Strong]

I realized that I am alone..

And keep on swimming! (Listen to Dory.........she knows)

[savon19]

I realized that I am alone..

OMI God - I got PM... saying how they were so sorry about what I'm going thru... couldn't remember what the Hell I posted!

Came here and am crying. Your warmth is amazing.

I have so much ANGER about stuff. But I'm beginning to see that I'm Supposed to be learning... Just that some of us have to have a big hammer fall on our heads to wake up.

Not sure I'm awake. But at least I now know I Need to be awake. What the ?? Does this mean that most of my life I've been... oblivious? (Someone once said that to me.)

This awakening is abrupt.

Why the heck didn't someone just let me SLEEP??

I'm not sure I can do it. But I guess I have no choice. I hope it's true what they say about God: that He will only give you that... which Grace will get you through? (or something like that!)

Oh yeah. The God Thing. I thought I believed... well, when it was convenient. Now, I find myself being pushed/pulled into places I never wanted to go. I was happy enough to just think of God as a "nice idea" - an entity who I could call out to. As in: OOOOHHHH GOOOOOD.

gOD - gOOD.

Whatever. We have to be able to call out to Someone, after all.

But... he's dragging me (kicking & screaming) into Reality.

OOOOOH. Why can't I just SLEEP?? Wake me up when it's all over.

[to old for this]

I realized that I am alone..

Hey Savon

I am new here also, but what ever challenges we face it is always better sober. Keep your chin up.

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