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[river0123]

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Yeah, kinda like childbirth. You forget how much it hurts until you go through it again and think "what the hell was I thinking???".:H
But we will learn and overcome this eventually, as nothing good comes of it. :h

[Boss.man]

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Welcome Forever and NT. I'm afraid we've all done embarrassing and humbling things. The key is we are here to change.

I've been stumbling a bit. After 2 different 7 day stretches in August and September, I'm back on Day 1 today, September 20th. I'm going the persevere and make it stick.

[WaitingToExhale]

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Hi Forever and NewTomarrow!

Boy, have you guys found the right place! I found this place a few years back, made a running start to get at getting it right, and needed to come back better armed.

I guess I had not hit bottom hard enough, or whatever. Sad that it finally took that, but here I am and I am NOT going back. This is an AMAZING place of support and information right at your fingertips. You just have to be wise enough to remember it is, we are here and use it ... daily.

I am far from where I want to be but I'm back on the road with the support here and the tools here. You both can do it too. You just have to want it. Really want it. It's SO worth it. I've had a taste of it and oh my, I want more of that clear head and joy back in my life.

Savon, you cracked me up about the minty booze breath thing. But wait! They can't smell the Vodka if I eat this half tin of mints, right?? LOL

One2Many, I'm filling out my paperwork for the AF Army. Will be there soon! Can I cheat and still read? =)

[Forever]

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Thank you for all your replies. I just wanted to beat myself up a little more before I put Al behind me and move on.

Following on from the ex-husband/stairs incident I did stop drinking. I tidied, cleaned, showered, etc. I had a second date with a new (non-drinking) man. Long story short, we kissed and he leans back and says "have you been drinking?". He could still smell it on me even though I hadn't drank for about 7 hours. He then continued to ask questions such as "how much do you drink?........Do you drink every day?" and he told me how harmful it was for a woman to drink Al on a regular basis. (By the way, he smokes although he has asthma - did I tell him he smells of fags and how that damages his health? NO!)

So what did I do? ....Asked him to leave of course! So because he told me a few home truths, I threw away the chance of progressing a relationship with a very nice guy. I'm stupid, but my pride was hurt.

Onwards and upwards. New day and all that. Thanks for your support and I hope to be able to take this one day at a time and regain some of my dignity. My back hurts like hell today. I can barely sit down.
:upset:

[Helpwanted08]

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Welcome New Tomorrow and Forever
You both have come to a great place and great job on the honest posting. The supplements work great for me. Al is an ugly beast to tame but with all this support it makes it much easier. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
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[1967]

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forever... my feeling is some day, very soon i think, you are going to read through these threads and be able to laugh.
ur gonna laugh because u'll be done this phase of your life.
ur gonna laugh because ur so glad ur done with this phase.

hang on...

[lil.michelle]

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Hi hun. First of all, welcome to the site. It is a great place and has worked wonders for me. Everyone is soo amazing and supportive here!
I'm so sorry you're in such a bad place in your life right now with drink. I think everyone who has a drinking problem has been ashamed of there actions if not once, many time. We're all here to change and hopefully you'll do this for yourself and your children.
They should not see us in the state we get. We are meant to protect them, care for them, love them but if we're drunk we can't do any of them.
Take the supplements and get rid of every bit of drink in your house, order shopping online so you don't have to be face to face with rows of drink, keep busy, play and spend time with your children. This will be hard but it's soo worth it! We're all here for you hun, stay strong, keep posting and most importantly... stay well away from drink! You can do it!