It is now 9:52pm. I am at the peak of a panick attack. I want to drink so badly. The bottle is just right there. I am so afraid I won't be able to fall asleep, then I will lay awake all night anxious that I wont have enough sleep to deal with my 2 year old tomorrow. This is so Hard and it's only my first night deciding to go to sleep AF. Now I am not sure I want to. My skin is crawling.......please say it gets better....sooooon:upset:
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yes it does get better ..do you have any sleep aid you can take at all to help .. maybe some hot milk something like that .. but just know it worth every step you make .. dont give up you can do this and keep coming back and read and post .. stay strong and think positive ..:beach: life does change as long as you are willing to change yourself ..
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It gets better Peace. You can do this. It is hard but so worth it. Stay strong my friendLiving now and not just existing since 9th July 2008
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Hoping you are doing better today. What's your plan for going AF? Maybe part of the plan could include getting the alcohol out of the house? Having an effective plan, one that you can commit to, will make all the difference!
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I would agree with WIP. I don't care how strong your resolve is, having a bottle 'right there' when you are just starting out is stacking the deck heavily against you.
Hope you are doing better today. It does get better, believe me - but you do need a plan to get there. You need to have goals to shoot for and look forward too and you continue your journey towards sobriety.Sobriety Date: June 15, 2007 -- "It's not having what you want, It's wanting what you've got...."Comment
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Peace I agree with wip. There's no point having a plan to go AF and yet still have it around the house if it's going to be too much of a temptation for you. You're putting yourself under too much pressure. I would suggest you rid the house of alcohol completely while your in these early stages. Also another thing I found useful was not to take money out with me if I didn't need it; or take just what I needed and no more. I knew if I had money on me I would buy alcohol with it.
I'm presuming it's about 5am where you are now so I hope you managed to get through the night peace. Check in when you can.
Love and Happiness
Hippie
xx"Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children." Kahlil Gibran
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Agree with all the above. have been alc free 22 days, but if there was a bottle of wine in the fridge, i would drink it. Its a drug peace and we are addicts. If its there you will take it.To Infinity And Beyond!!Comment
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I hope that you are Loving yourself today for Not giving in, but as the others have said, If Its in the house, I will certainly drink it. If you did slip back into it, please come back. We are here for you."Decide-Which Voice in Your Head you Can Keep Alive" (Shinedown)Comment
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Dear Peace,I well remember the skin crawling and panic feeling.I PROMISE THAT IT DOES GET BETTER.ALOT BETTER....Stay strong,you are on your way to getting your life back and It is WORTH THE STRUGGLE.Think how GOOD you will feel about yourself,on the other side of this.sigpicEyes on the PRIZE, a SOBER Future !!!Comment
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Hey Peace, It was good to talk with you in chat last night. Sorry we lost the connection.
They are right about "cleaning your space" of the bottles. I hope you made it through last night. Please check in with us this morning and let us know how you are. Orcall me. My number should still be in your email.
Hugs neighbor,
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IT DOES GET BETTER PEACE I ONCE TALKED TO A GUY AT ONLINE POKER AND TALKED HIM THRO A PANIC ATTACK,oooooops sorry for the caps,i use to get them until i found out why,took ten years of off and on again drinking then having a seisuer to make me re alise what it was, you wont die from a panic attack but is your is body tell ing you enuff is enuf,it shuts down,my last one was oct2607 ive been very fortunateto find this place nd also the hospital i went in in feb of 08 for 30 days.like rt now if you are drinking and just totally stop,yikes te bod reacts and says what are yu doing to me,and over time or as you get older,it gets worse other then tht if your thinking of stopping do it gradully,hope this helps kinda lke taking a soother from a child gycoComment
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It is now 8:55am and I DID IT!!!!! I feel amazing. Waiting to Exhale, thank you so much for the talk last night. The bottle remains, I never dumped it (that is a task on todays list) but I took a sample of Ambien CR that my doc gave me a while ago and got some pretty good though not great sleep. I feel good waking up this morning though. Not clouded or hungover. I am going to the gym now. I will check in later. Thanks againComment
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Used copy of the book
In no way do I want to seem as thought I am cheating my way into the process, but I am desperate to read this book and get my plan in place to aid me in this journey. I am unemployed at the moment and am awaiting to hear back on unemployment benefits. Until all that is worked out I am relying on others to keep myself and my daughter afloat. Would anyone be willing to lend me or sell me thier used copy at a low price? I am in san diego. Just a thought.
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