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[peacenowplease]

I am drinking right now. Had 2 good nights, but here I am. I have an appointment to see my MD to talk about medicine to help the initial process. I hate myself right now:upset::upset::upset:

[lil.michelle]

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Awww hun, don't hate yourself! You had 2 great days!!!! Just think, before starting this, those 2 days good nights.. would you have sat and got pissed? More then likely so you're doing REALLY well. It's sooo hard to break the habbit right away (more so when it' been done for years) but you're trying which means everything. SO brush yourself off and start from day 1 again. Aim for maybe 5 days or a week. It's sooo hard but we're all here for you! We've all gone through this and the hate for yourself will pass!
Let us know how it goes at the doctors!!!!!! Remember that you've come sooo far already to admit you have a problem, to find this site and to start a sober life. The best things in life take time!!!!! *HUGE HUG*

[cymru]

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peace, they have just started a 7 da af thread which may be of help to you and bessie also does the one day at a time thread. There all here to help, so maybe joining in on one of those may be of help to you. Take care

[DeeBee]

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Peace,

You are taking the right steps to become AF. It won't happen overnight, so give yourself a pat on the back for the 2 days you have accomplised and be kind to yourself when you slip.... AL is a mean bastard who doesn't let go easily.

Great idea CY, join the 7 day AF thread for daily support and understanding.

[Bandit]

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Peace,
Hope your talk with the doctor is just what you need and that you will feel better for it.
I am just on day two again myself so very early days for me too.
As Cymru and Deebee have suggested, try joining the 7 day thread - there are a few of us there that just want to start with that as 30 days+ seems quite daunting at present.
Hope to see you there!
:h
Bandit

[gyco]

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yea dont hate yourself ,2 days was the start of NEW,now you kik up your heals and try try again,have a great day dont stop trying gyco

[river0123]

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Please,
Try not to expect an instant "poof" cured moment. Time is a friend here. Each day take a step in the right direction and before long, these days where you feel self-hatred, disappointment, etc. will be something of the past.
Two day is awesome! Take it one day at a time, or minutes or hours. But keep hope in your heart, you can do this!:l:h

[Beaches]

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Peace remind yourself of the two days you were successful and then as time goes on and you follow RJ's program you will see more and more days add up for you. Just never give up.

[startingover]

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You have made a start peace, suddenly it will all click into place. Dont give up. It is a great idea to see the doctor.

[peacenowplease]

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You are all so wonderful

Thank you for the encouraging words and support. Really, it helps so much:thanks:

[akgirl]

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They are right, do not be too hard on yourself. I have been here a couple months and am still struggling. Stay strong :h

[time2change]

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Peace
Welcome. See the MD and come back and try it again. You can do it and there will be many here to support you along the way.

[peacenowplease]

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Waiting hopefully

I am hopeful today. I haven't even read the book yet, i don't have all my info yet, I haven't talked to my MD. I need to stop beating myself up. I may make mistakes, and thats ok. i think after I have all my ducks in a row I will feel more confident about being able to keep this up. thank you for everything, everyone. i will stick around here in the mean time for all the wonderful advice and support.

peace

[Helpwanted08]

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Hey Peace,
Glad you decided to stick around. Everything will come together for you. It does help to read the book and have it to refer back to often. Posting and reading other post will help you too. I get on here in the middle of the night if I can't sleep and just read and the post are so encouraging. This is a great site with awesome support. Keep posting and loving yourself, you will feel so good every day you are Af and remember it is one day at a time.
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[Seacailin]

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Hello Peace
Sounds like you have a good plan in place. I wish you well as you begin your journey.