I must be crazy

[akgirl]

Well, it's been about a month and a half of trying and although I am drinking alot less I still am not AF. The crazy part is it's really not from cravings as much as it is routine. My get home from work ritual. Comfy clothes, start dinner...have a glass of wine. Just pure routine. I am not liking the feeling (buzz) anymore either, so why can't I stop?

Aaahhhh!!!! I hate feeling this way!
Sorry to vent....any suggestions?

[Starlight Impress Forever]

I must be crazy

akgirl, there was only one way that I was ever going to stop, and that was to have no wine in the house. Not easy, especially the first couple of nights..........I was almost reduced to tears as I passed the shop on the way home, but pass it I did, as I knew if I bought wine, I would sure as Hell drink it. It does get easier.

Keep your chin up and praise yourself for cutting down as you have.

Darling x

[time2change]

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I don't think you are crazy at all. You have a problem and you are working on it. As long as you don't give up you can not fail. It took many here much longer than they wanted to be able to become AF, but they did it and so can you!

[kriger]

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AK,
Changing our routine is hard but many of us take that route. We all do come home, make ourselves comfortable....and then. Maybe you could get online at that hour or two and chat with us? I know you have a little one at home to cook for and cooking time was always a trigger time for me, so Darling's suggestion of not having AL in the house is a good one. I don't remember if you ever thought of Antabuse; that takes drinking off the table completely. It sounds like you want so much to quit that this might be a good option for a while, AK. I FEEL for you because you want this SO much. I hope that you find "your path" on this difficult journey. Feel free to PM me anytime; I want to help you in any way I can. You are my buddy!!! Don't forget that!! Kriger

[New Day]

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AKgirlg -- I'm about in the same position as you ... trying for the last couple of months. It's not going to happen overnight, but look at what you've achieved so far ... so many more AF days than you've had in the past. I find I'm still giving in on the weekends, but hoping to make this my first one AF. I find each week, it gets easier, or rather I have a way of dealing with the cravings better after all the advice I've gleaned from here. The L-Glut under my tongue was required tonight to get me by a craving ... even though I'd taken Kudzu and L-glut capsules earlier in the day (twice)
Just don't get discouraged ... keep working at it one day at a time.

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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akgirl, we are in the exact same boat. I'm cutting back, one time 5 days AF, but I still find myself drinking wine even when I don't really want to out of routine. The first glass sometimes tastes crappy but I keep going out of habit. The others are right, we have to stick with it and not give up. I almost gave in tonight but didn't. I didn't want to wake up feeling bad about myself. I want a new start tomorrow and I'm going to get it. Stick with it, girl, we can do it :l

[tlrgs]

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start with habit ends with habit change it and you will see how much can really change ..
stay strong and think positive

[New Day]

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Becoming ---- I thought it was just me when I had a glass of wine on the weekend (after taking the L-Glut and Kudzu) and it tasted crappy. I couldn't believe it .... is it the supps making it taste like that. Sorry to say the rest of the bottle was fine. This is day 2 for me again ... and going to try for my first 7 in a row!

[akgirl]

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Thank you all, it's coming here and getting the support that helps keep me on task.
:thanks:

[vera-b]

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Hi Miss Alaska,

Habits are tough, especially if they're enjoyable. We're not talking about giving up an hour of difficult exercise! So, we have to find something else enjoyable to take its place. I found in my first 30 days of the MWO program that I needed to come here and "vent," i.e. post during my coveted cocktail hour. It made getting dinner a challenge, but my dear husband got used to the fact the dinner had been reduced to what could be thrown in the microwave!! Perhaps now is the time to let your husband discover his inner chef, or ask cymru to make a housecall. Of course I jest, but the point is to break the habit by finding/exploring a new routine. Take care,

Vera-b

[New Day]

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... as it does all of us AK! We're here for each other ...... it makes us stronger and more determined with the support we find here. Just knowing I'm not alone makes me feel better, knowing others have felt exactly like me and have found success.
I'm off to read for awhile and then get to bed early. Have a good night everyone!

[startingover]

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Hi AK I was wondering where you were. Great to see you back. Yep, it is the habit thing that is SO hard to break. I have read that it takes 3 weeks to change a habit. It can be done though. For me, I wrote down in a little book the reasons why I could no longer live the life I was and drink like I did. Writing it down made it more real somehow because each time I read it the feelings I had when I wrote it came back.

[1967]

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change ur routine.
pick up something easy and smuggle it and yourself into a movie.
do ANYTHING to get out of ur evening ritual. i came home and gardened at first. it worked!

[christyacc]

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kriger;420945 wrote: AK,
Changing our routine is hard but many of us take that route. We all do come home, make ourselves comfortable....and then. Maybe you could get online at that hour or two and chat with us? I know you have a little one at home to cook for and cooking time was always a trigger time for me, so Darling's suggestion of not having AL in the house is a good one. I don't remember if you ever thought of Antabuse; that takes drinking off the table completely. It sounds like you want so much to quit that this might be a good option for a while, AK. I FEEL for you because you want this SO much. I hope that you find "your path" on this difficult journey. Feel free to PM me anytime; I want to help you in any way I can. You are my buddy!!! Don't forget that!! Kriger

I agree Kriger...we need to change things up a bit.....and no AL is a good plan as well. If we have a plan, I think our chances of success are a little greater......

[christyacc]

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New Day;420960 wrote: Becoming ---- I thought it was just me when I had a glass of wine on the weekend (after taking the L-Glut and Kudzu) and it tasted crappy. I couldn't believe it .... is it the supps making it taste like that. Sorry to say the rest of the bottle was fine. This is day 2 for me again ... and going to try for my first 7 in a row!

I noticed once I started taking GABA, it tasted awful...yet I still drank this weekend .....bt this weekend will be different. This is Day2 for me and I will be keeping busy...I find Day4 hard.......I will worry about that then