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[Endostory]

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Hello all,

I was going to write a history of myself and how I got here and then I started reading the posts, especially the ones in the "Need Help ASAP!" thread.

With each one I heard myself, my words, my feelings, my pain. Everyday I quit drinking.
Everyday I look in the mirror with disgust. The irony is that, I teach people how to heal
them self with herbs while I kill myself with alcohol and my pain killers that I take for my degenerative arthritis.

It has been so long since I have been clean. I often daydream of what my life would be like sober. How I would feel, all the things that I could finally accomplish, and maybe, just maybe, I might feel like making some friends. Because now, I am too ashamed of myself to allow anyone to know me.

I am really praying this will work for me. I am glad to be here.

To all here: Thank you for being you. Because of this, you help others that are alone and too afraid to reach out like me.

Blessings to all of you.

[akgirl]

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:welcome:

This can work for you. It is a very positive place with some wonderful people to draw support from. Keep posting and reading, you will learn a lot. Glad you are here

[Chelle12]

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Hi Endo,
Good to see you found your way here
You'll find a lot of support and friendly people here - we're not here to judge, just here to help in any way we can.
Take Care, and keep posting,
Love
C

[Seacailin]

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:welcome: Endo
I am glad that you are here. We are all here to help each other. I know that you can do this!! Reading the MWO book is a good place to start. I, too, completely isolated myself because of the drink. I am now going to AA to try and make sober friends. I look forward to getting to know you. Best wishes.

[Evie.Lou]

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You can get back to a Sober life.I thought that nothing could help me stop.I remember feeling absolutely powerless.I join this site last DEC. but I kept trying to be a moderate drinker.Over and over I fell on my face.I become very isolated and depressed.This is so unlike the sober me.I am usually so out there in the world,but Alcohol made me hide..with the wonderful advise on this site i had people that understood.when I saw how many others had been able to Quit,i had hope that i could too.As of May12 a miracle has happened, for me.Now with the help from here, it is your turn.You can do it,i know that you can..

[bestlifeldms]

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Endostory,

This is a wonderful place to start a new ending to the rest of your life. Yes, we are the same, and we understand what you are going through. You will get support without judgement here. When we advance in our use of alcohol, we socially isolate ourselves, so that we can continue to drink. There is nothing you can say here, if you need to discuss it, that we haven't done. Have you read the book yet? The best way to start. CD's good too. Reading and posting alot. Asking for support. Drink lots of water, get a little exercise. You can do this. Baby steps, at first, then walk, then run to sobriety. Welcome! Hugs, Best

[tlrgs]

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:hello2::colorwelcome::wave::groupluv:

[Boss.man]

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Dreaming is great. Keep it up! It's called "Visioning" and what you want to do is envision yourself in a new role.

Vision what you would do Saturday morning if you got up early without a hangover?

Vision what you would do with a pay raise, from being alert on the job, and asking your Boss for more work to keep you busy.

Vision what you would do with the extra time you gain from not being woozy, and from not needing the recovery time.

Vision what sleep used to feel like. True sleep.

My vision last Friday night was to get up early on Saturday, taking a six block walk up to the store, buying 4 pieces of (forbidden) Thick Sliced Pepper Bacon, and then cooking it and filling the house with the smell of something other than fat-free turkey meat that goes for food in my household. I had never noticed how quiet the streets are at 7am on Saturday, the sun and the birds were delightful, and the house got full of Pepper and Coffee smells by 9am. Hmmm.

[Popeye]

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Welcome Endostory,
This is a really good place to come for all sorts of help and advice.
Use it as a tool to help yourself 'out of this hole'.
There are many lovely people here, some who are succeeding and others who are reaching for success.
I hope you find what you need.

[raineyjane]

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yes ditto to what everybody said. I love this place.....you will too. The supps will give you back your energy!
be easy on yourself, we are in this together.
Raineyjane