I am back again. Not sure what kept me away for so long, but it's really bad now and I feel so alone, trashy, unloved, unhealthy, bad, paranoid, and obviously, hungover. I have been blowing it out of the water lately. Binge drinking. Waking up hungover and having the panic attacks from hell.
Happened this morning...and although everyone I was with (work people...ugh) is totally fine, and no ones mad, and I didn't make a fool out of myself, I still feel like the bottom is about to drop out, and I can't take it anymore. I can't take the paranoia and the anxiety. What can i do? I can't look further than right now, right now. It's hopeless....am I going to lose everything? My job? My relationships?
I don't know how to cope. I forget what it is like to feel happy and not have panic. What is wrong with me?
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