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[MJ]

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I know that I would be to ashamed to say that I fell off the wagon, but if I cant till you guys, who can I turn too!
But I know what you mean!
Have a great day

[Boss.man]

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I've hid far too long. I hide from my spouse. I hide from my employees. I hide from myself.

Stop it!

[Mar4990]

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New to this

Hi everyone. I'm new to this forum, although not new to trying over and over to quit. I'm having a really hard time stopping drinking and I'm worried about how it's affect my health. I'm a mother of three and I work full time. I used to be very active and healthy, but over the past six years drinking has pulled me down into a terrible state. I worry about how much I drink and I drink every day. I told myself yesterday, when I joined this, that I WOULD NOT drink. Then I did. I've done outpatient treatment, AA (which I hated) and taking Antibuse (which made me sick even when I wasn't drinking). How do you guys do it? I feel like I am totally alone. My parents and husband know about my problem, but they think that I've fixed it. So, not only am I drinking I'm hiding it from everyone. It feels awful. I feel like garbage. It's weird too, because I am totally committed in the morning not to drink, but 5pm rolls around I start heading to the store. Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated.

[Montana Mommy]

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I know exactly how you feel Mar. I hate to hear about the antabuse, I just ordered it and am counting on it. YIKES!! I have 3 days AF, and can't tell you whats different this time. I'm just trying to be sober today.
MM

[Bellalia]

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Im new to this site and have to say... your doing well....I used to be able to go three, four days Now I wish I could get past the second day .....remember, perspective is everything. Its great that you are sharing this..

Lisa

[Cinders]

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It is great to hear from you newbies!! :welcome:

One of the biggest advantages of this site is the anonymity it provides. It allows us to tell things about ourselves we would have a hard time telling anyone else.

I have found MWO an incredible resource full of caring people.

Mar, have you read the MWO book? You can download it, it is not very expensive. She talks about topamax, which may be an option for you. I would recommend you find a doctor to prescribe it if at all possible. But it seems to have been a great help for many here. I am allergic to it and luckily I am not allergic to Antabuse.

Good luck everyone and just keep on trying.

Love,
Cindi

[Mar4990]

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Thanks you guys. The Antabuse can be a help, don't get me wrong. It just gave me a wicked headache. I cut them in half, which helped, but not enough. I'm going to try taking it again -- just take a quarter. I figure just the fear that I have a little of it in me will keep me from drinking. Do you guys feel like you have to quit forever, or just a while to get it under control? I have a hard time with the idea of never drinking again. It's like when I look at it that way, it makes me want to drink.

[Cinders]

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Mar,

Some of us have found through many "quits" that moderation is not possible. I, unfortunately, am one of them. It is just not an option for me.

However, others have very successfully gone on to moderate.

I can't give you advice on moderation but there are threads here about it.

I do know that I take this thing ODAT. Every day sober is a triumph for me and I just refuse to worry about down the road. Otherwise, like you, I panic and it does make me want to drink.

I do know I can successfully not drink today, though.

Love,
Cindi

[Peacefull]

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Hi akgirl,
Newbie here and haven't posted much myself...I will be posting more as Nov is going to be my AF month 8-)

Peace

[akgirl]

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Hey PS,
Good luck on your Nov AF goal!!!

[guera]

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I get ya

It took me almost 3 weeks to even try to post, and yes 3 terrible hangovers to convince myself I have to try , so yesterday was my breakthru hope that like you I will keep on trying!