Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

[Chelle12]

Please post your current thoughts and comments if you are

There are so many people who are trying for AF days/weeks/months/years... and yet there are some of us struggling day-by-day..

Im drinking now...
Not proud of it, by any means... and certainly not trying to dissuade anyone from their goals, but if there's anyone else out there like me who's drinking at the minute and in emotional pain... please post...Lets talk

[Chelle12]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

Just wanted to add that as well as feeling like a complete failure, Im stressed about the current "credit crunch" that is affecting almost all of us... yet I still find the coppers in my purse to buy cheap booze...

Im not after a lecture... there's NOTHING you guys can say that will make me feel worse about myself than I already do... I just want a thread for those of us who are still drinking, and a place for us all to post and vent...

And maybe we can look and read through our posts at a later date when sober and learn from them.

[Chelle12]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

OK, guess it's only me for the time being then.

[periwinkle]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

can you go to live chat?

[Chelle12]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

trying to, but wont seem to accept me

[periwinkle]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

I know it's kind of hard the first time. I click on live chat and go to public chat in forum. When it says you are in the lobby you've made it then go to the typing box at the bottom (might have to scroll down)

[Peanut]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

Hey Chelle!
I hear where you are coming from. I went 3 days AF (my record lately) and then drank a whack of wine last night. Damn!!!!! I have company coming friday so I went and bought wine for that last night, and of course bought ALOT and had to sample some of it!!! Why did I feel I had to buy the wine last night instead of friday morning?!?!?! And I am on antibiotics and really shouldn't drink, so why did I do it?? I'm hiding in my office cuz I'm afraid I must have that stale wine smell, chewing gum, keeping to myself, late into work as I could hardly wake up this morning. I need more sleep and my stomach is hurting. Why do I do this to myself?!?!?! I wish I could keep to my promises to myself and not drink during the week when I have to work.

So don't beat yourself up about this. It is amazing to me all the time how hard this battle is. But I think that the fact that we are aware of it and at least trying (every other day???) to control it, is a good sign. My brother drinks alot of wine too, and I think has just stopped trying to fight it, and just drinks the wine, but I'm sure inside, he is having a mental battle, but it is just so much easer to give in.

Let's never give up, ok??? Keep trying - ODAT - one day, we will succeed!!
xoxo Peanut

[Evie.Lou]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

Sweet Chelle, It took me from Dec. 2007(when I joined MWO) until May 12th 2008 before I was able to stop drinking...It takes time to reprogram your thoughts, after years of drinking.You will succeed as long as you don't stop trying...Please be kind and gentle to yourself.Getting Sober is a journey.You have already done the map questing of that trip so you know what direction to go.Just follow the detour signs until you are back on the road..You can do this, I know you can..

[bloggy]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

Chelle

I am sorry to hear you are struggling- as you know I struggle too.

I will continue to read and learn- lots of folk struggled here for years before they finally made it.

At least you are getting some days AF now?

[KTB]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

That is one of the good things. I do at least have a few AF days. I want more though. Kay

[Chelle12]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

My fiance is packing his bags as I type this...
Life is very trying at times.
My dad is coming down in 20 mins to take my son to army cadets.. think I'll disappear into the bath.

Shite.

[Chelle12]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

No, actually, think I'll wait until my dad leaves with my bairn, and then I'll disappear into a fucking bottle.

[bloggy]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

Aww Chelle, try and take the bath option.

You will only feel like shit tomorrow.

[KTB]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

Chelle, I am freaking out. I want so much to be the "rock" of the family. But, Jesus, my hubby and I are getting old, facing total financial meltdown. We do have a van, and I guess could be living "in a van down by the river." We do live in a city on a river. (hopefully there are a few Saturday Night Live fans out there who remember the reference) Kay

[lil.michelle]

Anybody else here struggling with being more than one day AF?

Hey hun!
Oh my god, everyday for me is the BIGGEST struggle. It just doesn't seem to be getting any easier for me. I've been 8 days AF. I'm going for 30 days. I have been trying to quit for about 5/6 months now and i have had soooo many slips it's unreal. I've only lasted 3 weeks. I get very aggressive when i drink as well so i almost lost my hubby, baby girl (11 months) mum and dad. Even after knowing that, i still slipped as i couldn't deal with the cravings and everything that comes along with it.
Someone told me that the cravings and stuff go away after a while but not if i give into them SOOOO i'm going to continue to struggle through this nightmare and i hope i don't slip up.
I know what it's like to hate yourself. If you've read any of my posts you'd see how much i do sometims. It does pass hun. Just keep trying! It's better to try then do give up! You're on the right path!! Please don't feel bad!!!