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[Chelle12]

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Thanks for the posts guys
I dont feel quite as alone now.

Want to share something with you all.. I told Rachelita this already, and am very ashamed of it, but need to vent.
On saturday night, I drank too much and tried to climb out of my bedroom window to escape (my fiance had took my car keys off me, since I went for him and he phoned the police for help).
Ive got bruises all over and feel ashamed to show my face in my street now...God only knows what the neighbours must think of this lunatic hysterical bitch trying to climb out of an upstairs window.

I was soooo adamant Id be AF today, because I was yesterday, through the sheer shock and shame of what Id done... but after hearing some bad news, my immediate reaction is to go round the offie to get more booze... any excuse right?

WHEN will i hit "rock bottom" ? I honestly thought I had yesterday morning... but here I am again.... two thirds down a bottle.

Thanks for listening

[Chelle12]

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Just want to say, that I have a fiance with the patience of a saint, a son who I adore an who is fantastic (as well as a pain in the arse.... hey, he's a teenager, lol) and I have a nice house and two bloody adorable and fluffity dogs...
Sometimes... to me... its not circumstance or what you're going through that makes you drink.. it seems to me, to be more of "habit"? Does that make sense?

[startingover]

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Yes it does make sense Chelle

[startingover]

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How is your dog now?

[hippie37]

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Is it safe to say I'm absolutely shit faced right now? I've lost everything. My ex is not letting me see Jasmine anymore. I'm tired from trying to sort my personal shit out. I know what i need to do. Thanks for listening chelle you're a real trooper.

Love hips
xx

[A Work in Progress]

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Chelle12;439950 wrote:
Sometimes... to me... its not circumstance or what you're going through that makes you drink.. it seems to me, to be more of "habit"? Does that make sense?

It's very much about "habit." Behavioral habits, mental habits, emotional habits. Breaking a very bad, very deeply entrenched habit means working in all those areas: thoughts, behavior, and emotions.

wip

[Chelle12]

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Hips... I am so sorry to hear that.
Cant imagine what you must be going through.
Keep posting on this thread... you need to talk... to vent .. and we're here to listen.

[tlrgs]

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Chelle12;439950 wrote: Just want to say, that I have a fiance with the patience of a saint, a son who I adore an who is fantastic (as well as a pain in the arse.... hey, he's a teenager, lol) and I have a nice house and two bloody adorable and fluffity dogs...
Sometimes... to me... its not circumstance or what you're going through that makes you drink.. it seems to me, to be more of "habit"? Does that make sense?

yes it sure does ..the idea is to change that habit .. and you are doing it in many way just by coming here and posting , reading and yes learning ..and you will come that place where you dont feel you have to drink anymore .. it all takes time and thats what we have .. so just keep on working on it.. stay strong and think positive

[Chelle12]

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A Work in Progress;439965 wrote: It's very much about "habit." Behavioral habits, mental habits, emotional habits. Breaking a very bad, very deeply entrenched habit means working in all those areas: thoughts, behavior, and emotions.

wip

So true.. thoughts.. behaviours and emotions..
Maybe that's why some of us fail? We try and battle to work out only ONE of those aspects.. leaving us vulnerable tthe other two.

Ive tried to change my routine and keep myself busy every day, but still fail, because of my emotions, and constant 'thinking' about AL

[hippie37]

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she has taken away the one thing I live for. I can get a lawyer but how often do these 'father's rights' get enforced. It could take forever going through the courts and in the mean time I still don't get to see my Jasabean. I was so strong today going to the CAB but my resolve cracked. I've been feeling really down lately too and this is just the kick in the teeth I don't need.

love hips
xx

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Hippie, I am SO sorry to hear that. You must be completely beside yourself. I wish I could say something to comfort. Just that my thoughts and prayers are with you. x

[IAD]

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The courts have more shit with them a Christmas Goose ! IAD. I don't know how the system is over there, I hope everything works out ok. IAD.

[Guest]

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why has she done this Hippie?
I left a message for you on the monday thought for the day thread but im not sure your in the mood.
Hippie , you are not powerless in this , your Jasmines dad and you have rights , cant you go to some single dad parent advice place , I know they exist.
Never give up on seeing Jazz , I know you wont anyway but dont feel helpless, you can go through whatever you need to go through to get through this , I know you can!

[Guest]

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...and create a factual proof of you getting your act together ..like aa every day if drink is a thing she throws in your face , keep a diary of her missconduct in the agreements you come too, see a counceller...create a wall of evedience that you have been working towords in order to be the best you can be for Jasmines sake.

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and create a new account here if she knows this exists and she knows your name...if shes declared war you need to protect yourself from every angle!