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[matchee]

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startingover;455032 wrote: Oh Matchee, I am sorry to hear that.
Did you say you were going to get some other type of help?
What about Topa? I understand that reduces cravings

That's just it SO- it's not some undeniable cravings. It's just some idiotic part of my brain that still thinks it's perfectly fine to hide bottles around the house "just in case." Especially when I'm doing well. Then I forget that I even have a problem. Then I go a little while without getting caught. Then I over do it and get busted like last night.

Then repeat for another 20 years then die.

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What about hypnosis? Do you think that would help. Worth a try to get your brain thinking a different way perhaps....
What do you think?

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startingover;455147 wrote: What about hypnosis? Do you think that would help. Worth a try to get your brain thinking a different way perhaps....
What do you think?

It's worth a try.

I've got an appointment next week with a psychologist who's supposed to help affect "behaviours".

I met with him once but the first session was just "get to know you, build some trust" type of thing. He basically was saying that my drinking was a problem because my wife says it is.

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Matchee, one way to look at this is that you are not going to be able to change this situation until you find a way to make a commitment to make an all-out effort. As I am sure you know, a decision not to drink, while at the same time hiding bottles around the house "just in case" is not an all-out effort.

Stopping the drinking requires quite a bit of determination, preparation, changes in all kinds of behavior, changes in thinking, and tolerating a lot of discomfort. You can do all of that when you are ready, and if you make a good, solid plan, which includes getting a lot of support (here at MWO, or in AA, or another treatment program). Why don't you get started, if you are interested, by reading the MWO book? And there are several good resources here in the MWO threads about alcohol dependence, the brain, and the mind.

best wishes,

wip

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But you know it isnt that dont you? Or deep down is that what you feel?

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startingover;455201 wrote: But you know it isnt that dont you? Or deep down is that what you feel?

I know it's not- like I said- I think the shrink is just trying to build trust.

I've got a problem

I know it's not normal to drink a Pint or more of cheap Vodka every night.

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If you liked the shrink and think you can trust him, maybe it will help. I have stopped asking myself "why" now, I just kick myself in the butt and get on with it. Too many years procrastinating about the whys and wherefores and losing too much along the way.
Like WIP says though, have you read the book? started thinking of some sort of plan for yourself?

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startingover;455298 wrote: If you liked the shrink and think you can trust him, maybe it will help. I have stopped asking myself "why" now, I just kick myself in the butt and get on with it. Too many years procrastinating about the whys and wherefores and losing too much along the way.
Like WIP says though, have you read the book? started thinking of some sort of plan for yourself?

I read a book called "The Easy Way to Stop Drinking".

I've got the AA Big Book and read from time to time.

I don't really have a plan- just quit cold turkey and stay that way.

I quit the smokes that way.

My problem is I've romanticized the role that Alcohol as played in my life. I love curling up with a book and a drink. Especially now that the season's changing. Fireplace, drink, scary movie. But the common theme is that there's a secret drink involved. At night. In the dark, shrouded in secrecy, I numb myself. Not that my life is bad, I have a great life, but I've leaned on AL my whole life as a crutch to "unwind." I really don't know how to "enjoy" life without it.

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Ahh, yes, I can completely relate to that. Not knowing how to enjoy life without it. Yep, that scared me more than anything I think.
OK, this is where you just have to give it a go. See where it takes you. I knew I had to stop (or it would kill me) so I figured I just had to learn to live a different life and HOPEFULLY it would be better. It is, much. I have found other things I enjoy to help me unwind. Yes at first it was odd. I kept asking myself was it worth it. Did you read One 2 Manys post "Where I am now"? Give it a read and see what you think.

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startingover;455338 wrote: Ahh, yes, I can completely relate to that. Not knowing how to enjoy life without it. Yep, that scared me more than anything I think.
OK, this is where you just have to give it a go. See where it takes you. I knew I had to stop (or it would kill me) so I figured I just had to learn to live a different life and HOPEFULLY it would be better. It is, much. I have found other things I enjoy to help me unwind. Yes at first it was odd. I kept asking myself was it worth it. Did you read One 2 Manys post "Where I am now"? Give it a read and see what you think.

I will do it.

Thanks

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Thats good to hear Matchee.
Will you stick around and let us know how you are doing?

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startingover;455375 wrote: Thats good to hear Matchee.
Will you stick around and let us know how you are doing?

I sure will and look forward to being a part of the community!

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Hey, you sound all positive now!!! Lovely to hear.
Join us on the AF Army if you like. Always lots of support and a good laugh there.
Look forward to seeing you Matchee, we are all there now.....