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[A Work in Progress]

Hi Ya'll

Mame.... welcome back!! I love your name.... loved that film SO much...

wip

[Miss Behaving]

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thank you WIP - so did I!

[Peanut]

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Aunty Mame - I remember you too! So good to hear from you, although you may not remember me.
You guys - don't stop coming back, just because.... just because. Even if, say, you are drinking the wine daily - still - stay with us, because the reason we are here is because we need each other in this daily battle. Sometimes if you go a few days AF, and think "but that's not enough" - it is enough. We are all trying and have a time with it. And even if you are not totally AF - at least it is on your mind, in your thoughts, and we can't give up completely - we still have some logical thought about this ( being the scientific person that I am - logic does not escape me).
Well? A small plan?
xoxo

[Peanut]

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I have got to rid of that damn spinning maple leaf!!

[A Work in Progress]

Hi Ya'll

Peanut;451823 wrote: I have got to rid of that damn spinning maple leaf!!

Yeah, Peanut! Do it! It's time!

[Panacea]

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Hi Mame....I was thinking about that "running" statement I made, and realized it's been a while, might have to walk!! (might just pass out from hyperventilating). But you're right, its better then nothing and she will appreciate it. We have such great conversations while doing so. I miss that.

I wish I had a clue why we keep doing what we do. It's like I have two people inside, split personality. I have the "rational me", and the "alcoholic me". And when the "alcoholic me" takes over, my mindset changes, before I even have that first sip. "It's okay...you don't have a problem, everyone else is enjoying themselves, you can have just one"....and so it goes. The "rational me" just disappears and not one thought about her. She comes back, but with a hefty dose of guilt and hopelessness. BUT, then the "alcoholic me" can kick those feelings right out the window and whip me right back into shape with that first glass of wine....then I don't give a crap about the "rational me".................till the next time.

It's a vicious circle with me.

[Peanut]

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ok ok!! let me have a look around!

[A Work in Progress]

Hi Ya'll

Pan, I wrote a long post (really it was an entry on my blog) about some of the factors involved in this "divided mind" business. Here's a link to that thread. There's some fascinating neuroscience involved in the competing pathways and agendas within our brains/minds.

wip

[Peanut]

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How the heck does does one get their own picutures for an avator?? Ripps would know the answer!

[A Work in Progress]

Hi Ya'll

Peanut, if you have a picture that you like on your hard drive, it's easy. Just go to your user CP and go to "change avatar" and it will have a place where you can choose the option to search for and choose an image on your computer... click it and save it and see how it looks... sometimes it says the file is too large, however, and if that happens, you will have to re-size it using whatever photo software you might have on your computer, and then upload the re-sized photo.

[Peanut]

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Oh - I did it!! Taken off the sunset catamaran tour my last day in hawaii!!!
Thanks!
(sory - didn't mean to hijack this thread!)
Pan - you still here?

[A Work in Progress]

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ohh, that's a nice shot, Peanut!

[Panacea]

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Yes I am Peanut!

wip...great thoughts about the divided mind and I will use the "mental rehearsing". I need something though, short of a person behind me slapping me on the back of the head, to snap me out of thinking it'll be okay to start drinking again!

[Miss Behaving]

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Panacea;451825 wrote: Hi Mame....I was thinking about that "running" statement I made, and realized it's been a while, might have to walk!! (might just pass out from hyperventilating). But you're right, its better then nothing and she will appreciate it. We have such great conversations while doing so. I miss that..
The best conversations I have with anyone that is more than 20 years younger than me is side-to-side. Walking, in the car, running (they have more breath!) ..... they can spill without having to look you in the eye!

And it also means that on the occasions that they say stuff that makes you want to weep, you dont have to answer questions about why you are crying!

Panacea;451825 wrote: I wish I had a clue why we keep doing what we do. It's like I have two people inside, split personality. I have the "rational me", and the "alcoholic me". And when the "alcoholic me" takes over, my mindset changes, before I even have that first sip. "It's okay...you don't have a problem, everyone else is enjoying themselves, you can have just one"....and so it goes. The "rational me" just disappears and not one thought about her. She comes back, but with a hefty dose of guilt and hopelessness. BUT, then the "alcoholic me" can kick those feelings right out the window and whip me right back into shape with that first glass of wine....then I don't give a crap about the "rational me".................till the next time.

It's a vicious circle with me.

I think we can all go "snap" at this! With my 6-days a week AF, it has got easier and easier ........ I dont even think about it during the week any more! But come Friday, I'm hanging out ........ and one glass isn't enough!. I can stick to a bottle but on Sat mornings I'm thinking about another one. Even though I've mostly managed to do without, I am under no illusions that all it would take would be a feeble excuse and I would be on a binge again.

What it comes down to for me is that I'm controlling my behaviour but not my thoughts. The bottle I have on Friday requires lots of emotional energy - what wine? when will I start? How will I cope when I want more (as i know I will)

This is why I want to be able to be seriously committed to be AF for the rest of my life - because I have more significant things that I want to do with it than thinking about next Friday's glass of wine!!!

I'm not there yet, but I hope that I will be at some point before I start 2009!

m

[Miss Behaving]

Hi Ya'll

great new avatars!