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    Day 4...I think?!?!?!

    First and foremost, thanks for everyones support. Yesterday afternoon and evening I didn't feel to well, and was a bit confused. But today, I'm sure it's day 4 and I'm feeling better, so far.

    I drank tons of water, which in turn, made me get up a few times last night, but was able to fall back asleep THANK GOD! I've been waking up WAY too early, and was thankful to see 530am on the clock this morning!

    Hopefully today will be a better day. I have a plan wip!!! Just for today!! Drinking alot of water, vitamins, and going to put some healthy food in this body!!!! I didn't seem to accomplish anything yesterday, but made it throught AF.

    I just wonder why we are like we are, and the others aren't....I'm sorta at this "why me?" point. How in the hell did I get to this point in my life? Why didn't I see this "train wreck" coming? How come everyone else is normal, and I'm not? (which I know they have their own issues, but I'm just saying...) I'm 44 and have wasted so much damn time.

    I guess it is what it is, and the past is just that. I need only look forward, because there's nothing I can do about the past.
    "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."
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    Pan, happy day 4! Glad to hear that you got somewhat decent sleep and have a plan in place for the day!
    You, as much as anyone in the universe, deserve your love and respect. ~ Buddha

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      Thx river! Not much of a plan but much better then yesterdays!

      Stay strong!
      "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

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        #4
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        Well Done Pan!!
        Hang in there, it does get better:-)
        "The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it"

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          #5
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          I gonna try Dee....not really so much thinking about drinking, (well it is 715am here!!! I was never a morning drinker), just not feeling "up". I'll be here alot today, and hopefully not to whiney!

          You all are fantastic, and please don't let me go....I wish everyone was in this room with me RIGHT NOW! And I am sorry I'm doing more talking about me, then trying to support ya'll.
          "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

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            #6
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            Pan,
            Hang in there! One Day at a Time! . . one minute . . . one hour . . . etc!! Feel what you are feeling. The "up" will come when you begin to feel so much stronger . . so much better . . so much healthier and in control!!
            EG

            PS There are probably alot fewer "normal" people than it seems!

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              #7
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              PAN CONGRATS,there are many answers to your question why me,once you start sleeping better and trust me the sleep part,it comes back,have patiennce,you will see the light,once again,great work your doin,gyco

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                #8
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                hi Panacea
                You are doing great! Keep us posted, and ask for any support if you need.
                Lila

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                  Your doing fine ....$ days is a major step forward.I spent years asking WHY.I now ask WHY NOT me.We as people all have challenges to over come.Alcohol is just one of my challenges.Try eating Grapes.It has been used for many years as an anti craving food.It helps me....I would eat several pounds a day and then the cravings were gone.Also Kudzu and L Glut. You can do this, I know you can.
                  sigpicEyes on the PRIZE, a SOBER Future !!!

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                    Pan, not to scare you, but it took me around 6 weeks before I was able to sleep past 3:30 a.m.! But I had started that business of waking up at 3:30, unable to get back to sleep, while I was drinking, and it just took a while AF to get my sleep cycle normalized. Anyway, all of this takes time. Your brain/body/mind have a LOT of work to do, undoing the damage that the drinking has done. So, best to be patient, and allow the process(es) to roll along!

                    Why do some people become addicted? There's a ton of research out there... answers are slowly emerging... there is not a single answer applicable to all people. Genetic factors play a role for many people. I think that many of us are born with dopamine systems that are are not optimally functioning, and are perhaps overly sensitive to the effects of one or more drugs of abuse. We enjoy the effects more, seek them out more, and quickly develop a tolerance for them and become dependence on them. If everyone were born with that kind of susceptibility, then everyone would likely become addicted. Ongoing heavy use of the substance just increases the brain's dependence upon the substance, by dysregulating many of our brain systems.

                    It's great to hear that you are doing better; you sound hopeful, and that's wonderful!

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                      Morning to all of you....and love the fact that your here with me.

                      Evie - gonna try those grapes! When I was pregnant with my daughter, I didn't drink, but CRAVED grapes and ate pounds a day, every day. Wondering now if that was a sub-concious craving due to no alcohol....hmmm....I'm definitely a thinking WAY too much today about everything!

                      Thanks wip - 6 more weeks w/no sleep!?!?!?! haha! I too, when drinking woke up early, but it goes back to my non-drinker days as well....Never a long, normal sleeper....

                      Genetics with me plays a BIG role. Dad was a "partier" then raging alcoholic. Went to rehab at 60 and has been clean. Mom drank her wine EVERY night, until she got cancer. Brother was told by wife, quit or she's leaving. He quit and has been sober since 2001. Sister went to rehab 20 years ago for alcohol and drug use. Both Aunts major drinkers. My God man! Somehow, with the exception of my sister and dad, we all functioned through all of this and it never seemed as bad like it just did when I wrote it.

                      I tihink I just answered my own question about WHY ME!!!
                      "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

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                        #12
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                        Pan, your doin good keep on goin!
                        Gabby :flower:

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                          Pan, it might help you to do some reading on Reward Deficiency Syndrome. It might help you with your WHY questions and understand that this isn't a character flaw, some of us have a bit of what I like to call "faulty wiring". I think that is why RJ's plan with the supps is so helpful, it's feeding our system where we are lacking. No expert on it by any means, but I do find it interesting (I'd suggest looking up Bossman's research - he rocks - you too WIP). I take anti-depressants which "fixes" that problem, why not supps to help with my addictive behavior?

                          When I first went AF, I used melatonin and calms forte to sleep well. When I woke up to use the bathroom, I'd pop another Calms before my mind could start racing and keep me up. Really helped me a lot. Now I sleep like a rock.
                          You, as much as anyone in the universe, deserve your love and respect. ~ Buddha

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                            #14
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                            Panacea;454003 wrote:

                            Why didn't I see this "train wreck" coming? How come everyone else is normal, and I'm not? (which I know they have their own issues, but I'm just saying...) I'm 44 and have wasted so much damn time.

                            .
                            You are doing great! Every day gets better and it is so worth it. I have to disagree with you, you did see the train wreck coming down the tracks, that is why you are here and doing what you are doing! Dont think of the past as wasted time, think instead about all the good things ahead of you! Good Luck!

                            Guy
                            "I've done it. I don't need to drink anymore. I'm free!"-Jason Vale

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                              #15
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                              Go Pan! :thumbs:

                              Keep it up! :wd:

                              We're here for you! :l

                              Love,
                              Be
                              "Action is...the enemy of thought." :l Joseph Conrad

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