New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

[Jas56]

Thank you Startingover to tell me to start a new thread. As I mentioned I am new to this board and totally scared. Does everyone here take prescription meds? I have not had a drink in 3 days and going to AA is not an option (fear of DH losing his job as this is a small town). My drinking has become increasingly out of control and I am sad to admit that I REALLY DO have a problem - no more excuses.

I will not have a drink tonight - there is nothing at home and this is a good thing.

Weekends are the worst! Drinking has also kept me from weight loss.

I have not had time to go and read other stories but right now I am just looking a some advice. I feel alone and ashamed - does any one else reach this depth of despair. Religious I am not but does this help?

[akgirl]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

Hi Jas

Welcome, not everyone takes the meds. Everyone finds what works for them. I am on Topa, supps and love the CDs. Some do it with nothing. Read the book and see what you think, then give it a try.

This place is wonderful...good luck to you:l
AK

[A Work in Progress]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

Hi, Jas, and welcome! Believe me, you are not alone in any of what you said.

Most people here, I think it is safe to say, are not using prescription meds to help with the alcohol problem. I am not, but I am doing just fine. Some find it very, very helpful, however, and for some it seems to be essential, at least for a while.

I certainly was feeling despair when I found this site. I don't, any more. As for religion, many people here find religion and spirituality to be an important part of their recovery; many others do not. You'll find that there are all kinds of people here.

I hope you will keep coming here, read the MWO book, read some of the posts in the "my story" section and other posts as well, tell us how you are doing... and make a plan for getting the alcohol (and the despair) out of your life.

best wishes,

wip

[sammys]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

Hi and don't feel bad we all have been there OK.

We are here for you,

Sammys

[rubywillow]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

Hey, Jas!!! Sorry your feeling down and alone. You need to find the time to read as much as you can here. Lots of fun going on today, but we're serious about our mission. To lead Sober, happier lives. One prob at a time, OK, just like one day at a time. You're not alone. You're not a terrible person. You are among people here who have done things that would make your hair stand on end!!! (ESPECIALLY ME!) No embarressment needed here. You've taken a big brave step, putting yourself out there, and you are welcome here. Everyday is diff, but each day, we start by saying, hopefully, to ourselves, 'I will not drink today', or 'I will be sober today'. Think about the reason you want to do this. Arm yourself. Read the book. Look into the CD's and meds, etc. You don't have to go public with any of this. People will notice the change in you, and you will start to like yourself. It's most important to keep coming here, and posting. Nothing you can say or do is wrong as long as you're working a plan. You could probably go to an AA meeting out of town sometime and they will give you literature to read, and it is good, too. Look into every option. But for now, you have taken the first step. We all had to do that once. Scary as Hell!!! Now, I can't stand to be away from here! PM me, ask questions. Nothing is dumb, wrong, or embarrassing. Again, welcome!!! Rubes :hello2:

[Boss.man]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

I don't take Topa, but Kudzu and L-Glut really helped me a lot. I put a lot of notes in this document if you want to read it. In particular it talks about the effect of daily drinking, and ways to "gain traction" to stop slipping.


http://www.box.net/shared/static/t81snedyvi.pdf

[Jas56]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

Wow - thank you so much for all your posts. I will read more and gain strength from each of your stories. I think I might need more than just CD's or a book - but it is a start.

Bossman - I will check your link out.

Once again thank you to all of you. I will post more when I have the time. It is good to know that I can order stuff on line.

[Guitarista]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

Hi there Jas...ditto what everyone else said. Welcome! G.

[river0123]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

Hello and welcome!

Believe it or not, despair can lead to hope and wonderful changes. It's hard to see that when you are feeling so low, but if I had not felt such despair in my heart when I came here, I would have continued drinking until I accidentally killed myself. I am grateful now for that "gift of desperation".
I wish you the best in your journey - you're not alone ~ River:l
p.s. I am now in my 4th month, following the plan with the exception of topa

[GoodAsGold]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

Hello Jas
So, so glad you have found us. I'm always filled with hope when a 'newbie' appears! This site has helped me make changes in a month that I tried & failed at for years on my own. It took me a while to get the feel of the site. Some threads are very fast & chatty, others are slower. Theres also chat - often empty but if you plant yourself in there & wait somebody will usually join you.

Above all, speak up whenever you want to, there are absolutely no rules here. Post threads whenever you have a question or need to moan (or celebrate!)

Keep close & keep safe
Gold

[seila1]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

JAS56:

Welcome and good for you for coming here and posting. I too have recently decided that my alcohol was in control of me, not the other way around as I'd pretended for years. It also has impacted my weightloss, where I have the motivation to stay on a diet, but nothing to stay away from alcohol. So, I am on day 8 and struggling. Weekends are very, very hard and I am on my own this weekend. So, I am doing what I recommend to help get through. I am visiting with the great folks here.

I find this so reassuring to come here and find others who have been right where I am now and also that little bit of motivation to not drink. It honestly feels good to realize you're not alone and you're okay. There are others out there who know how you feel. For me, this was so relieving. So, hang in there and let us all know how you're doing.

[Guitarista]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

Hi there Seila, day 8 and struggling?.. Well, firstly, a big congrat's to you for getting this far..Please hang in there. Do whatever you have to....go for a walk/run, watch a movie, read a book, ring a friend, or obviously what you're doing now, and posting here. I'm day 7 here, and thankfully feeling strong. At least we are over the first few day's no? Thought i could moderate after a few af mths. on and off over the years, but finally see i can't, which sucks, but, it's true for me.. that battle btween modding, and abstinence for me is thankfully now over...Don't know if you've had similar battles, but hang in there...it get's better, and you get stronger...Feel free to p.m. me if you like...I wish you all the best. G.

[formenow]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

oh I hear you....its so hard when you are in a place too small you feel like you can't reach out as much as you should. I am not in a really small town but small enough. The other day I got up enough nerve to call a rehab center in this area to ask for referrals for individual therapists in my area. I called the person and come to find out she lives very close to my kids school. I was so afraid she would know me but she was very reassuring and as embarrased as I am to go see her I know its improtant. I was honest over the phone what my problem was. I have seen counselors in the past but they got to know me and I was too embarrased to tell them what my problem really was. I also understand to whole weight thing. I have done so many weight programs but because I sabbotage with drinking of course i can't lose weight. In fact today I went to renew my license and couldn't believe the difference in 4 years! I need to get it together. we can do it together.

[Seacailin]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

[time2change]

New, scared and finally admitting I have a problem

Jas
I just wanted to welcome you. You have come to a great place for support while you figure out how to help yourself. Reading and posting will help alot too!!