IT HURTS.....im dying inside

[Princess Fiona]

IT HURTS.....im dying inside

Dear Cloudy,
so sorry you are going thru such a shitty time, my husband has left me twice this year, he even started divorce proceedings, he left me the 2nd time when I was about 100 days AF, telling me he could'nt live with the threat of AL hanging over his head. I joined AA in May, and we are seeing each other again, not living together and now he is threatened by my going to meetings and sharing my story with others, tonight will be my 4th this week and he's bitching about not seeing me, just cant win!! My sobriety means more to me right now.
Just take it easy, think about you and only you, it does better.

[brittzak]

IT HURTS.....im dying inside

Cloudy,
I just met you last night...you are such a sweet soul. Don't let LIFE bring you down. It is truly painful, but drinking doesn't erase the ain...actually it prolongs it. BECAUSE, someday ya goota sober up and life is still there and happening. Stay sober for you...

XXXXX

[Cloudy]

IT HURTS.....im dying inside

Hello All - wanted to tell you all how very much your words & support mean to me, and just cant find the words to express the power and strength you all giving me. This weekend was hard, fighting off the cravings for the booze was quite a challenge. going shopping and not stopping by the liquor shelve was "odd", and just kept repeating to myself Boss.Man's words "living well - the best revenge". made the weekend with loads of orange juice - boy!!!! stores are going to run out of oranges!!!! Day 12 starts today, and AM going to make it a good day!
Cloudy

[caysea]

IT HURTS.....im dying inside

Hi Cloudy
The personal situation you find yourself in is heartbreaking and painful.The drinking problem is life threating. The reason for all of us to stop drinking has to be for ourselves.Cloudy you have put in some hard time to get 12 days AF. Stay focused on your plan .

Stay Healthy and Keep Fighting
AF 5-16-08

[Starlight Impress Forever]

IT HURTS.....im dying inside

Glad to hear you doing so well, cloudy.

Don`t allow anyone to drag you down.

Sober, we can overcome all kinds of heartbreaks. Drunk, we`re beat before we`ve even begun. He`ll soon see just what a fabulous woman he`s "lost"!!!!! :l

Star x

[Arwen]

IT HURTS.....im dying inside

Cloudy..I'm so sorry. My husband and I separated last year, the pain does stop. Unfortunately I still drink, thinking somehow that will ease my pain..which of course, it only increases. I'm glad you have the strength not to..don't let this drag you back there. I like what Boss man said. He's right..Have you thought about journaling? I know it sounds so high schoolesque, but I find that when I write it all down, it helps. good luck, my heart bleeds for you..truly, I know how painful it is.. I wish I could hug you...keep posting..Arwen

[Chief]

IT HURTS.....im dying inside

Nice job this weekend, Cloudy.....I know it was tough, but you stuck to your guns and didn't let this be an excuse to drink.....we're all proud of you.

Bossman is right on the money......stay strong and focused and here with us.....show him he just made the biggest mistake of his life....

Don

[dlw]

IT HURTS.....im dying inside

Cloudy, I am so sorry for you. But be strong. Don't let AL become your new mate. We are all here for you. Let us be your support until you see a sunny day ahead

[vera-b]

IT HURTS.....im dying inside

Hi Cloudy,

Life sure does have a way of throwing us curves. Just about the time we figure how to catch one, another one comes flying from a totally new direction. The message I'm reading here from all these wonderful posts (Bossman and AAthlete are the gold standard) is that that's life, warts and all. But No One can take away what you've gained by controlling your AL impulses. And it certainly seems like you're gaining on that one. More power to you. May you find the inner strength to endure this pain, and to continue to grow in all the possibilites that lie ahead.

Vera-b

[Wannabsober]

IT HURTS.....im dying inside

Wow Cloudy,
I really feel your pain. I know what it is like to lose someone you love, blaming yourself and wishing you could have done things differently. I am also separated from my husband. It's not easy. It's also thinking why does everything have to come down at once? But you should be SO PROUD of yourself to stay sober through all that. I know I would have caved. Just starting out but dang do I know how you feel. Keep strong.