Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

[Soft Heart]

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Am sitting here feeling bloated, fat and generally disgusted at myself, have just been to the fridge and noticed the half bottle of wine left...in addition to the 3 bottles in the bin that myself and my husband consumed last night.....I am worried about the damage that we are inflicting on ourselves night after night!! I used to be pretty, active and enjoyed life but now cannot bring myself even to put make up on. Definitely the problem has worsened as we have money worries...but I used to be able to stop at buying 2 bottles from our local (too local) supermarket. My brother thinks I am a recluse ( I am) and very strange.

I hold down an exacting job and no one would believe that I am covering up such a problem...although its harder and harder to get up and also wear decent clothes...Do I sound full of pity?

[Janice]

Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

Hi Soft Heart and welcome to MWO!!! I'm not too far away from you - I'm in Kent - and its raining here too!!! You can change things but it will take lots of commitment and hardwork. It will be worth it though!! One2many is right, you need a plan - coming to this website regularly is the first step; read as many posts as you can. Just knowing you're not alone and hearing stories that are so familiar to yours will motivate you to the next step. You CAN do this!!

love Janicexxx

[dronypoint]

Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

I can identify with how you feel, have just finished work. The difference is that I no longer go into the offy or into the supermarket and come out with a carrier bag of wine.
Feeling depressed and bloated can both be made worse by booze, maybe you will feel improved after 2 or 3 days away from it.
You are not alone, it is easy to sit in, watch tv and drink too much, especially this time of year.
Money worries are not helped by buying wine, even from lidl.

Some good news - the rain will soon pass,it has here.
Maybe the darkest part of your mood will go with it.
When I feel bad I say to myself 'I will feel better in a day or two' and usually do.

[Popeye]

Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

Hi Soft Heart,
Read as many of the posts as you can, and I'm sure that you'll find people in the same situation as you. There are many ways and routes to choose from. I hope that you find your path to sobriety.

[SAUSAGE]

Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

Welcome Soft Heart
You have come to the right place - I can only echo what others have said above -read around, post , learn more about others in the same situation, and you MUST read Doggy Girls thread and see the before and after pictures, described above. I was like you, drank glass after glass of wine every night , escaping from my life with 2 small demanding kids (also work part time as a health care professional too!) This year i've had well over 200 AF days and since discovering a site like this have just got so much more support and motivation.
Good luck, keep us posted how you're doing and welcome again
Sausage

[Soft Heart]

Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

Thank you everyone out there!

Wow...

Thank you so much evertone for responding so quickly....I am totally uplifted at your support, it really makes a difference. I even felt better that I had unburdoned myself and been honest, which I haven't been for a long, long time.

I will look at the Doggy girl thread...not sure how I will get it as I'm new to all of this, also I will get the book.

I've hugged my 2 adorable dogs who comforted me last Saturday morning when I had no money in my bank account to pay 3 bills....who licked my face when I fell off the toilet ( seriously...dont laugh) and who were there for me when I fell down the stairs...twice. Can you believe the self destruction...why oh why?

By the way the half bottle is in the fridge, my hubby is due home in 30 mins and I will try and be strong!!!! All My Love xxxxxx

[Bandit]

Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

Hi Softheart,
Can so relate to your posts and unfortunately i too fell down the stairs once and although I didn't fall off the loo, I did fall asleep on it and one of my hubby's mates walked in on me and had to ask my hubby to wake me up as he really needed to go!
I have been here since March and being honest have come and gone since, sometimes doing well but often not and I have finally come to terms that I really just do not want to drink anymore, it is doing nothing for me - family wise, job wise, money wise, looks wise - and if I keep going I will likely lose everything, maybe not today or tomorrow but I'm on that road. So no more for me
Read the book, read the posts, you will find a lot of people here like you and there is hope for us all
xx

[Peacefull]

Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

Welcome Soft Heart,

Everyone here is so supportive, I am a newbie also on Day 4 my goal is 30 days AF. I also am feeling bloated and just not myself. Keep coming back it helps soooooo much.

Peace

[BecomingMeAtLast]

Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

Hey Softheart,

When I fell down the stairs, I broke both ankles. I'm in a much better place here with MWO and all of the support. We're here to help you, not judge you. :l

Becoming

[Evie.Lou]

Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

Dearest Soft Heart, I was where you were, only 6 short months ago.How can I tell you that your life CAN be wonderful again???I am a HAPPY, HEALTHY,FUNCTIONING WOMEN that thought that there was no way out(except the grave).Then I found MWO.Now I am FULL OF LIFE.If I can do it, I know you can.

[AstraiaJ.]

Am in rainy, cold London town and need help

Hi Softheart,
It's also rainy here in my part of the world. I related to your post so much, and felt so many of the same things when I first logged on here. It's getting so much better now! Please keep coming back and we are here for you!