Today is the day I hope to become AF. I have tried and failed a thousand times nobody has an idea just how much I drink in secret and I just want it too stop.I am stone cold sober today and just want to stay like this. Too scared and ashamed to go to AA so I just hope I can get the strength from here.
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Hi Anon and WELCOME!
There is great support structure on offer here.
Have you read the book My Way Out? I highly recommend it and it will help you formulate a plan on how to find your way out.
Wishing you all the best"The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it" -
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I drink in secret too. Tried to stop countless times. Only thing I have never been honest with my wife about so quilt is slowly eating away at me. On day 3 AF. BAsically just saying I know how you feel. Good LuckPAW:nutso:Comment
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thank you
I really feel I have made a giant step by putting my drinking in writing. Thank you so much for the replies they made me feel worth something!
I have just noticed it is a lovely, crisp,sunny English day so I will dwell on that instead of negative thoughts.
Will read the book when I work out how to download it.Comment
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Anon,
It is difficult, but you can do it. Once the days start adding up you become clearer and have more resolve. Just try and relax, take good care of yourself, stay on MWO, and stay strong. Soon life we start to feel "normal" again. You will be able to do things you weren't doing due to AL. In fact, you will actually FEEL like doing things! Good luck. Gabby.Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.Comment
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Great attitude Anon!! It is too easy to succumb (sp?) to our over whelming feelings especially when first going AF.
Maybe a walk later?
Hang in there Heathy... you're on the right road:-)"The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it"Comment
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anon,
Welcome! If you need help downloading, feel free to send me a private message or post here and I'll be happy to help you with it. It made a world of difference with me. Reading the book, I mean.
Take care,
Becoming"Action is...the enemy of thought." :l Joseph ConradComment
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Welcome, Anon
Good luckto you, and please know, that you are in good (well, not really) company. I wish you so much more success than I had - please keep at it and stick with what you know you want/is right.Okay, WHO put a stop payment on my reality check?
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This is a great place to start anon. Read, read and read and keep posting. Welcome.To Infinity And Beyond!!Comment
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Hi hun.
I'm so glad you're stopping. Have you considered taking any one of supplements.. I honestly recommend, kuduz and l-glut. It's really good for cravings. Stay strong and keep posting!Comment
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I know how you feel anon.
This is my first post and I'd like to say it feels OK, but thats whats I'm supposed to say.
What I'd really like to say is that I'd like the answer to this - is having a drink like I used to, ever possible again? With friends or when I felt like it ? not every day and feel like I was making some big sacrifice by not drinking?Comment
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Nick,NickP;471776 wrote: I know how you feel anon.
This is my first post and I'd like to say it feels OK, but thats whats I'm supposed to say.
What I'd really like to say is that I'd like the answer to this - is having a drink like I used to, ever possible again? With friends or when I felt like it ? not every day and feel like I was making some big sacrifice by not drinking?
This may not be what you want to hear but it's the truth as I see it. No. I don't think it will ever be possible for me to have a drink like I used to. Not ever. I'm not the same age as I used to be, my body chemistry isn't the same, my brain chemistry isn't the same and I have some history goin' on here.
Take care,
Becoming"Action is...the enemy of thought." :l Joseph ConradComment
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nice post becoming I am back once again loking for a little strength!!!! Started AF todayComment
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Hey Cheech!
Great to have you back!
Be"Action is...the enemy of thought." :l Joseph ConradComment
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this is a great place to start,i dont no why you would feel ashamed to go to AA,you could go to online AA,it is a bit more discreat,you can cut them off when you want,and no one in your town will no,or city,you could also bring up the AA book on line and read the 1st 163 pages and get an idea of your problem lots of options, gycoComment
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