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[angeleyes]

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Put me down for doing terrible.

[akgirl]

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I'll PM her but not exactly sure what to say. I'm not always the best with words.

[spottydingo]

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angeleyes;472840 wrote: Put me down for doing terrible.

Angel, what do you mean by this? Are you OK?

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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angel, what do you mean by terrible? Do you want to chat?

[startingover]

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Angel I like these...
Augusten Burroughs, Dry
Tom Sykes, What did I do last night
Caroline Knapp, drinking a love story.
Sober for good - Anne M Fletcher
Stop Drinking - Beachamp Colclough

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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I will PM her also. Maybe if more than one of us do that...

[gyco]

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hi angel its hard for me to comment on the book,i havent read it,for som it works,i guess,as far as them raking coin i find tht hard to beleive,but oh well,it has helped some,there is an easy way just stop.or moderate,you will get the shakes and anxiety and all tht,cause we have over done , you have to take your just rewards,som one once told me.add the time you drank, and multiply it by 1,thts how long it takes to get improvement,so if you drank for 2 years hard multiply 1,it doesnt mean youll ever get over it,depends on the person i guess,good luck to you gyco

[angeleyes]

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Guys, I'm fine. I just meant, AKgirl was asking about doing a poll and if you are going to do a poll on how we are all doing, put me down for doing terrible. Sorry, I didn't mean to worry you.

Gyco, you confused me with your post. So if I have drank hard for 10 years, multiply that by 1 and that is how long it will take me to get improvement? Wow, that's not very encouraging.

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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Thanks for posting, angel, I was worried. Thanks, too, for the list, starting. I've checked out some of the books on Amazon and have to get some. angel, just think about today. One day at a time, right? That was our deal.

[angeleyes]

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Yes. That was our deal. I will not drink today. And THANK YOU ALL.

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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Take care, here's a flower for ya :flower:
Be

[spottydingo]

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Hi Angel, Thanks for letting us know you're OK even if you're down today.

We all have those days -- I am still recovering from an especially bad Saturday night where I stayed up after hubby went to bed and wrote to someone on Facebook that I really really shouldn't have contacted. I spent Sunday on the couch having panic attacks. Though its Weds I still feel wounded -- haven't gotten much done since then -- but at least I've gotten dressed for the past 2 days!

So, know that you're not alone. I've been drinking since I was about 16 and am now 43. I've been seriously trying to quit drinking for less than a year and to date the longest I have gone is 2 weeks AF, but I've gone from binging every other day to every 4-7 days. I know some day I will beat the Beast but it is a constant uphill battle. For now, baby steps.

Just hang in there, you can make it too!:yougo::yougo::yougo::yougo:

Feel free to PM me if you need to talk off-forum.

[angeleyes]

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Hey Spotty, Sorry to hear about your Facebook episode. I have also done some REALLY STUPID things that I regretted in the morning, and jeopardized my marraige, and made so many bad choices, and embarrassed myself.... God, it's so good to know that I'm not the only idiot in the world! (Just kidding - hope you have a sense of humour!) Whatever it was that you did will most likely be quickly be forgotten by the other party - it is probably you who is keeping it alive by stressing and worrying about it? Of course I don't know the details of your situation but I hope that you make peace with it really soon.

Like you I have been drinking since a teenager and I am now 44, with a few breaks here and there to have children. My two oldest are grown up and gone, I have one 13 year old left but she spends half the time with her dad now that we are no longer together which gives me too much time on my hands. I have never been alone in my life, and I am not handling it very well I guess. Seems like all my friends are married and busy with their own lives, I hate being the 3rd wheel anyway. You know?

[Evie.Lou]

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Angel, I will not drink today was my mantra for many months.I have finally been able to change it to I DON'T DRINK...
I really liked the book A MILLION PIECES even if it was partly fiction...it was inspiring to me at the time.

[spottydingo]

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angeleyes;472899 wrote: God, it's so good to know that I'm not the only idiot in the world!

Are you kidding? I am the Empress Idiot, the Duchess of Dunces and the Queen of Self-Sabotage!!! :H:H:H If I didn't have a sense of humor I wouldn't have survived this long.

BTW, have you ever read any books by Laurie Notaro? If you need a laugh, try her books. With titles like: "Autobiography of a Fat Bride: True Tales of a Pretend Adulthood", "We Thought You Would Be Prettier: True Tales of the Dorkiest Girl Alive" and "The Idiot Girls' Action-Adventure Club: True Tales from a Magnificent and Clumsy Life" you get the picture. Definitely lite reading, but she's our age (or slightly younger) and very funny.

It must be really hard to be alone though, and in some ways it must feel like you're starting over if your kids are mostly grown. But, this could be a good thing. You have a whole new life ahead of you!

For me, well, hubby and I have only been married for 10 years, together for 16. We have no children and have given up on trying. This hurts, but I'm willing to let it be. In many ways I feel like my own life hasn't really started yet, or at least the life I have been wanting to live all my life. I've had probably 5 or 6 "lives" already (I don't mean reincarnation, I mean different phases) and haven't retained much from any of them except the marks they've left on me, good or bad. Does that make sense? Oi, now I'm babbling.

Anyway, keep the faith! Look forward! Chin up! etc! etc! etc!