Good morning all. Day 13 here . I spent a lot of time with my son last night doing homework and reading books. God it feels good to have a clear head for that!
As I predicted, my husband asked me last night how long it had been since I had a drink (after I said "No" to wine with dinner). When I said "about 2 weeks" the quiz began: "Are you sure" "How do you know" "I think it's been longer" "I was out of town 2 weeks ago, you didn't drink then?" "Or did you" (actually he knows very well that I did as I was stupid enough to answer the phone - the next day was my 1st day AF), then "So why don't we quit smoking?" "We really need to" "I would if you would" "I can't quit if you don't quit", and on and on and on. All the while, of course, he's on who knows what number beer, and then the Scotch will come out. It felt like I was defending myself, which is just NUTS!! It's certainly no secret that I have a drinking problem! I mean, damn! I finally just told him to leave me the hell alone and went back into the living room to read my book.
And just so everyone knows, I have to be very careful about what I post here, which limits my ability to respond to others' posts. He found another web site I was involved in (nothing to do with AL), went there and read every post I made. He then thought it was "cute" and "funny" to quote what I had written back to me. So being completely transparent here, and empathizing with some posts is not an option for me. Jerk!
Really, if there is anyone who can drive me to drink it's him:H!!
Anyway, hope everyone has a great day and meets their goals! And for anyone feeling like crap, just remember: Today is a new day!
As I predicted, my husband asked me last night how long it had been since I had a drink (after I said "No" to wine with dinner). When I said "about 2 weeks" the quiz began: "Are you sure" "How do you know" "I think it's been longer" "I was out of town 2 weeks ago, you didn't drink then?" "Or did you" (actually he knows very well that I did as I was stupid enough to answer the phone - the next day was my 1st day AF), then "So why don't we quit smoking?" "We really need to" "I would if you would" "I can't quit if you don't quit", and on and on and on. All the while, of course, he's on who knows what number beer, and then the Scotch will come out. It felt like I was defending myself, which is just NUTS!! It's certainly no secret that I have a drinking problem! I mean, damn! I finally just told him to leave me the hell alone and went back into the living room to read my book.
And just so everyone knows, I have to be very careful about what I post here, which limits my ability to respond to others' posts. He found another web site I was involved in (nothing to do with AL), went there and read every post I made. He then thought it was "cute" and "funny" to quote what I had written back to me. So being completely transparent here, and empathizing with some posts is not an option for me. Jerk!
Really, if there is anyone who can drive me to drink it's him:H!!
Anyway, hope everyone has a great day and meets their goals! And for anyone feeling like crap, just remember: Today is a new day!
I will no longer give the BEAST any power over me - he can go straight to hell.
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