Tough start of AF # 4

[motoxgal]

Tough start of AF # 4

Wow, maybe I didn't read thoroughly enough, but day 4 was very bad for me when I got home and didn't make it to day 5 unfortunately. Just did not deal well at all and caved. Now that I know I'll be inwardly bitchy that day, I will take the advise as well and plan something else that takes my mind off of things, maybe a Christmas event somewhere, idea shopping with my kids, Christmas bazaar, something more fun than stress - unlike balancing the check book! Thanks for the help. Hang in there healthypaw.

[healthypaw]

Tough start of AF # 4

Motoxgal day four was, by far, the worse. Not to say that I don't think about drinking because it still crosses my mind several times a day. I was outwardly bitchy on day four. I took up eating well and walking, that has helped out a lot. I have learned a lot of the last 15 days. I'm not an expert but you have to find something to focus on, mine was losing weight. Saving money from not drinking is nice too. Keep trying

[healthypaw]

Tough start of AF # 4

Becoming, how the heck are you doing, it's been a while. I haven't had a lot of chances to post lately since I have been home a lot. How is it going for you? Keep me informed. How was T giving? See Jamms on here lately?

[motoxgal]

Tough start of AF # 4

Thanks for the kind words paw, I can't wait to reach 16 as well. Was very tempted tonight, there are two beers in the fridge I need to just dump out so I won't have the temptation at all.

[healthypaw]

Tough start of AF # 4

I keep one in the fridge at all times. I figure I am going to be tempted(like my whole family drinking on thanksgiving) a lot through this experience. I almost drank one on T giving- I thought it is a holiday why can't I have one. Then I remember what will likely happen, I will have one then when I get home hide 18 beers from my wife and then feel like crap the next morning. I am no where near ready to try and moderate my drinking, I would fail very quickly. You keep up the good work, if you are here you at least know you have a problem. :goodjob:

[JAMMS]

Tough start of AF # 4

I'm still here!

Hi Paw-

Thanks for asking about me, I'm doing good.:thanks:

I had a few beers on Thanksgiving, did not get drunk. Took my Kudzo after dinner and that was the end of the beers. I'm seeing that I'm able to mod a bit. Which is fine with me. I am vowed off of the vodka forever.

I did not drink the expensive wine my Aunt buys me every Thanksgiving but it has been in my fridge since Thursday. I'm not craving it at all. Going to save it for X-mas eve with the hubby, we have a "date" planned. We used to have dates once a month, it felt great when he asked me for a date again.:l

I've been staying away from "the cousin" (my biggest trigger to binge and party). He is always telling me when he's "getting something" and "do I want something". I just say no. Vodka lead to drugs, drugs leads to ......death! He is starting to get the hint that I want him out of the house. He is waiting to hear about a job next week. If he gets it he's gone!

I've told my oldest son that I'm trying not to drink as much as I used to. He had already noticed and so has hubby. Feels so good to not be hungover more then not.

My goal now is to not have any Al until X-mas, when I will drink only a few for enjoyment, because now i know I can.

[BecomingMeAtLast]

Tough start of AF # 4

Hey Paw,

I'm doing great, thanks for asking! I've had mostly AF days and some very successful modding ones. I'm on topa which I like a lot but it's the supplements which are helping me the most. I'm still not exercising like I should. My daughter and I have made a pact to sign up for the gym. Thanksgiving was great except my BIL showed up drunk...at noon. I had to smooth the edges as a lot of people were really upset, especially my 17-year-old son. It turned out okay. He's drinking himself to death and it's hard to watch. Vodka. Sigh.

I feel so healthy and in control, it's wonderful. My confidence is coming back and, even better, my HB has finally called a counselor to talk about his depression and drinking! He finally understands the link between his AL consumption and his depression. I'm hopeful that hearing about it from someone other than "the wife" will help him.

You sound like you're doing well! You're helping so many people here, it's fantastic.

It's good to hear from you, too Jamms! It sounds like we all know where we should be in this, huh? For me, I really need to exercise. That's my biggest hurdle. I wish I knew why I put it off? I don't know.

Thanks again, Paw, for asking about me. It means a lot.

Take care,
Be

[JAMMS]

Tough start of AF # 4

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Be- Excersise??? What's that? Maybe after the winter I will start to walk a bit more. It's way to cold outside now. Sorry to hear about your drunken BIL on the Holdiay...every family has one...oh, wait, that used to be me!! Glad to hear things with hubby are getting started in the right direction. Depression and AL are like peanut butter and jelly. I hope that he starts to understand that from the counselor. From my own expereince the Lexapro has helped with my depression and the kudzu is wonderful.

I just realized I'm AF day 6, I didn't feel day 4 at all, and it was a Monday (trigger night) Yipee!!
:goodjob:

Paw- Are you taking any supps? Your doing great! How are things going with your wife? :l

[healthypaw]

Tough start of AF # 4

Hey Jamms and "Be"- It is good to see that you both are finding ways to deal with the problems you are facing without resorting to drinking. I think we are all beginning to see what life can be like without the daily burden of drinking. I don't know about you both but my drinking got to the point where it seemed like it was work. Getting the alcohol, hding the alcohol, dealing with feeling like crap then saying I wont do it again and then doing it the next day.

Good luck on your date Jamms that sounds like a lot of fun.

Be- I am glad your Hubby is taking his first step.

Everyone has helped themselves and gotten the strength from others to keep going.

AF# 18 and going here

[motoxgal]

Tough start of AF # 4

Dang it - didn't make it!!! Didn't pour out the beers either, I drank them both, then went and got more! I feel like crap today, eyes feel like they have sand in them, etc. I didn't kill myself over it today, felt bad that I didn't do December AF completely. I felt strong in the AM, weak in the afternoon, fell in the PM. DANG IT! No moderation for me either - it's obviously all or nothing. Today is a new day - one good thing is that it's highly likely that I won't drink today!
Keep up the great work paw.

[JAMMS]

Tough start of AF # 4

Motox- Don't beat yourself up about it. :l Start over and go further You can do it!!!!

[motoxgal]

Tough start of AF # 4

U R awesome jamms!!!! Thanks for the lift.

[healthypaw]

Tough start of AF # 4

Motox- YOu are trying and that is all that matters. If you keep trying you will find a way to do it. It is going to be different for everyone. Maybe start some sort of hobby to keep you busy. After I exercise I play the wii until I go to bed to keep me busy. Watching TV bores me and makes me want to drink because I am bored. If you get something to occupy time that may help. Keep trying!!!!

[motoxgal]

Tough start of AF # 4

Thanks Paw - did well last night, didn't drink, had major stress right before leaving work that would have normally sent me OVER the edge. I waited late in the day to take my antabuse and took it right as the stress hit, knowing I wouldn't go on a binge. That was a good plan last night! Thanks for the help. Great job on staying strong, your wife must be very proud of you.

[kaponium]

Tough start of AF # 4

Hiya Motox and all

Mo - one of my old adages (being a recidivist relapser) is "FALL DOWN SEVEN TIMES/GET UP EIGHT!"

You can do it