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[TWCOURAGE]

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Stick to your plan why wife is the same way. Blames everything onme even though I've been AF for 3 months . Stop drinking for yourself and your 3 kids. you need to be a good father and you can't be on booze. My wife has never supported me in anything in 23 years. Take it on day at a time and embrace every day AF life can only get better.

[GG]

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The weekend didn’t go well at all. My wife acted exactly like I new she would. No support. Sorry to say I am back at day 1. The only good thing that came from the weekend was a late night conversation. I told her that I had to go 30 days AF and I need her help. Without her support I won't make it. Hopefully she will help. And also from the weekend a swing set for my kids. Back at work, 7 1/2 hours to go.

[healthypaw]

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GG- I like your attitude about starting over and the conversation. I watched Rocky III last night and a scene in there reminded me of this board-- ROcky admit that he is scared and adrian says that he shouldn't fight for her, for apollo, for his kids, for mickey. He has to want to do this for him. I know it sounds chessy but you have to do this for you because you want it. Don't let anyone sabotage your effort. Believe I know what you are feeling, my wife pisses me off and I drink because I know it makes her mad. I didn't let her do it to me this week. Your support is here. The people are great. Your wife will jump on the bandwagon at some point.

[GG]

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You know when I left Friday I was so pummped to get back here and tell everyone that I made it through the weekend. I fell hard! Maybe I needed the slap in the face.

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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GG,

Paw has hit the nail on the head.

My HB drinks and he knows I'm doing this MWO thing. He's supportive and has even put in some AF days with me. Well, HB got drunk last night and said some very mean and hurtful things. Months ago, I would have gotten drunk right back. Now that I think about that, shame on ME! I didn't fall for it, though. Instead, I did what I should, and wanted to do. I took care of our kids and went to bed. I listened to the sleep hypno CD. There was no fight. He was angry and I felt bad for him but didn't fall for it. We talked this morning and he agreed that AL isn't helping anything. We've had this conversation before. It's going to take more than one or two or three times but I'm not giving up. He's my best friend. Right now it's up to me to be the strong one and I'm trying as hard as I can to do that. For me. Then, once I help me, it seems to help those around me. But it's got to be me first. I can't change anyone but myself.

Be

[JAMMS]

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Be- Your absolutely right, if your not "right" no one is going to be. You (we) are the glue that holds everyone together! (no pressure of course). :H

GG- My husband sounds like your wife, he had a bad upbringing he has "issues" from childhood, we all do...but my husband refuses to admit/accept that they exist. He's perfect. Nothing from back then has effected him. (note the sarcasim). You've made a giant step by telling her about going AF for 30, in time she will support you, stick with it! You got that swing set up didn't you?:goodjob:

Paw-Nice Rocky analogy!

[GG]

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Be, Paw, JAMMS it is great to hear your thoughts and kind words. I think that by achieving more AF days it will have an effect on my wife. I can only do it and stop talking about it.

JAMMS- the swing set only took 4 hours by 3 guys in 30 deg weather. But when it was up all of the kids in the area were over and playing. Looking forward to warmer weather, relaxing on the deck and watching them play.

[GG]

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I am thinking about finding another counselor. The first one I went to didn't help. Not sure a counselor can help me. I already know what they will say. The I am an alcoholic and that I must stop drinking. I need more than that.

[GG]

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It's the start of day 2 for me. Ordered the Kudzu yesterday. Had a good talk again with my wife last night. She actually asked how I was feeling, wanted to know if I was having any urges, I was. Jut trying to keep busy and ODAT. I have some plans this evening that will keep my mind of off AL. At work, so will be here for most of the day.

[GG]

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Into day 3 still AF. Getting the urges big time. Was just notified that we would work half a day. That is good, but thats what started the urges. Usually on half a day, I have half the day more to spend in the bar. Can I go and just drink soda and still do the things that friends and I do there. Play pool, socialize, throw bags?

[Three F's]

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Hi GG and may I also wish you a VERY WARM WELCOME to this site. Just been reading through your past messages and my heart goes out to you big time! God loves a trier.....and that's just what you are! At least you've been strong enough to achieve many AF days, which is more than I can say of myself!! You obviously have loads of will power and are determined to fight off this beast that tries to take over our lives. Please keep on fighting it and you will get where you want to be in the end..... completely in control of your present and future life!!! I have every faith in you so PLEASE don't give in and keep on picking yourself up and p*ssing this beast off! Proud of you GG! Very good luck to you and your family.

[kriger]

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GG,
I would stay out of the bar at this early stage. It will be too strong of a trigger. Concentrate on something that has no possibility of involving alcohol. I want to welcome you to MWO and I hope to get to know you better. Good luck today. Kriger

[GG]

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Well I didn't go sit at the bar after my half day of work. The holiday went well. Better than others in the past. I did go to a birthday party with my wife and a neighbor couple. AL was present. This group drinks a lot. I kept telling my wife and myself "moderation", which I stuck to. Yes I did drink, but I actually felt good about the minimal consumption. Others at the party kept trying to bring me drinks and I refused for whatever reason. After a while I saw how I usually would be acting in the way the others were acting. I failed yes, but I feel like I also won, plus I didn't piss off my wife. I am back at day 3 AF, with nothing on the horizon. Feeling good today. Thanks to all of you who support me.

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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GG,

I completely agree with you on this! Went to a b'day party on Friday. A wine glass was put in my hand as I walked in the door. This group also drinks a lot. I drank slowly and there was some awesome food so I chowed down and had some great conversation at first. I watched as my friends, and neighbors, got sloshed and loud. Months ago I would have been right into it but I'm finding it interesting to watch. I find that winning, too. I left early, drank some water, read before bed and woke up feeling good.

I don't know what your goals are but I felt really good about myself and I know that a few months ago I wouldn't have been able to do that. Thanks to MWO.

Take care and congratulations!
Be

[sunshine_gg]

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Hmmmm... thank you guys!

I've felt pretty much like I couldn't/shouldn't post anymore. I have NOT been AF for more than a day/2 at most. BUT, I have not been wasted in a month, either. I've been able to stop at the 'buzz'.

Still feel like I'm failing miserably but at least I haven't reverted to passing out at 8pm.

Kudos GG and BE and thank you.